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thanks maveric day 40 felt the best i did in a while today felt really good in myself. just for today i will not place that first bet thank God

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wow its the 3rd of april already that was a great post to read running girl any wonder your chuffed with yourself that was a big achievement telling your hubby i know from my history that i can get away with absolutely nothing so whats the point in trying to get away with it. adaat im going to really try and be on a proper programme. Its nice to be important but its more important to be nice

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wow its the 3rd of april already that was a great post to read running girl any wonder your chuffed with yourself that was a big achievement telling your hubby i know from my history that i can get away with absolutely nothing so whats the point in trying to get away with it. adaat im going to really try and be on a proper programme. Its nice to be important but its more important to be nice

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wow its the 3rd of april already that was a great post to read running girl any wonder your chuffed with yourself that was a big achievement telling your hubby i know from my history that i can get away with absolutely nothing so whats the point in trying to get away with it. adaat im going to really try and be on a proper programme. Its nice to be important but its more important to be nice

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day 17 the days are adding up nicely adaat really well done take care

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day 39 going to set myself a target to get to 90 days adaat. im doing ok

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Thanks Vera day 38 getting into a few bad habits atm watched the irish grand national today and glad a complete outsider won iv been watching dog and horse racing a fair bit this last week in the house no longer have a debit card so cant gamble whilst im watching it but i could be in a bookies in 2 or 3 minutes if i run out the door. so hopfully by writing this down i will nip it in the bud which really would be progress. many many ***** oves the years friends and family have said to me if your going to gamble ring me we talk about this after the damage has been done and i always say i will i will but i never do once i get that compulsion im away and then i have to pick up the pieces later. so just for today im going to stop watching horse racing i cant handle it im a cg. when i was at school i couldnt really study couldnt really concentrate so i would always say id start my studying the next night and that happened night after night and in a way its still happening i keep putting my recovery off 13 years ago i entered my first G.A meeting i cant promise nothing i would be a fool to try with this awful disease but adaat im going to try to abstain and maintain for me because we never know when we might get another chance i dont play games with other people so why do i play games with myself. I read mavericks post there and it scared me i could of wrote that i hope he gets the strength to try again when hes ready . I wish there was a cure for this dis ease but unforunately theirs not so i have to depend on me to do this **** thats scary but i will give it a go adaat

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***** me in Cat adaat thanks

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thanks 4 the post bettie still no sign of spring here they say its the coldest march in 50 years here and it feels like it 2 haha. nice we bonus coming your way you obviously worked hard for it great stuff. I read on your first page there you mentioned Indiana i stayed in fort wayne indiana when i was 8 years old for 3 weeks we went to nigara falls and a place called cedar point great holiday apart from the driving to places for hour and hours and hours haha. take care

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Day 19 heading away tomorrow for St Paddys weekend with family across the border so wont be on here til probably monday as its tricky with internet to be honest just cant really afford the roaming charges only other cgs would understand that, atm im trying to let on im not as skint as i am . Very little cash but still need to be careful can be vey vulnerable 2 bookies and amusement arcades when im away. Looking forward to the break recharge the batteries being a cg can be stressful so time 2 try and destress with a v v cheap holiday

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just for today i will not gamble nice to see a few of us gamble free adaat 13th march already time flies

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well done with the no gambling P you dug in and your getting the reawards and hopefully now at this very moment your asleep all these different ***** on here i find a bit confusing its 635 pm over here haha

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thanks for your post P i really appreciate especially as your not getting it easy at the moment. I hope your **** lifts soon and i really admire your determination and not escaping from the depression with the gambling really do admire that and long may you be gamble free adaat take care P

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thanks P and Ed. Day 18 havnt had a minute all day thank God onwards and upwards adaat

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trust me mate the casino owes you nothing and will take every one of your future pay checks indefinitely if you let it. unfortunately you cant win i hope and pray you can let your losses go and a adaat you can arrest this disgusting dis ease. take care and God bless

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