[Raix94]

Hello Craig.

I have to say that we have lot in common. Its like you talking about me. I have also very addictive personality, when i love something i get very into it. Is it smoking, sports betting or whatever. I love sports and i know everything about sports, i am into sports very much.. In betting its loving the process, it doesnt matter if you win or lose. Okay, if you win then you are happy that you got more betting money, what you will never withdraw, you will lose this money anyway. I know, because i have done this thousand times. Trying to end this nonsense and having big urge and thinking about only 1 bet and when i bet the addiction is back and the animal is alive. 🙂

My steps are right now these, that i gave my bank account to my trusted friend and he is giving me every day 10 euros so i can buy food and smth like that. And when paycheck is coming then i send it automatically to my friend. Its just something that you have to do, just letting go the addiction and sending the money and not thinking about it. Its been for my 1 month, but if i bet 1 time then its again first day.

You should try this with you fiance, she will understand. Its main reason that you wanna quit and she will help you, she doesnt like that if you slowly destroy yourself.

Its messy writing, but i hope that you can understand, what i think! Thumbs up and be positive, its only what matters!

[Raix94]

Lost my wallet yesterday and i also called to loan givers and some of them refuse to make payment plans. I am so depressed right now. Dont know what to do. They want 100 euros i can only pay 50. And this wallet problem is BIG. Now i have to buy New cards and stuff. Everything is falling apartment.

[Raix94]

Have made some progress.

I have been lying to my mother everything, but now i spoke to her and said about my addiction. First she cried, but she was okay with it, i said i am meeting counselor and i am self excluded from everything. I understand that she doesnt trust me right now, but when time goes away and she is seeing that her bank account is okay and i dont have to ask money everyday and she can keep money to herself, she’ll be happier then.

Then i spoke with my best friends that i have this addiction and they wished me good luck for taking care of it. They were very supportive. I said and warned them that its madness, whats going through your head, when you are betting and betting.

Yesterday also made huge step, that i called 1 of many loan giver companies( dont know else how to say it 😀 ) and made payment plan. Now i have to do 7-8 calls more. Tough and embarrassing to me. I got a plan for how i do it, i hope everything is going as i planned.

Got my mom bank account also covered. I spoke to her that i want to that she takes a loan, so i get my bigger bills payed and some money for food. She said okay. She took loan and i pay 40 euros per month for her loan. Its such a big relief because now i got money for food.

Its now my second day without betting and now i got money in my hands. I’m feeling a little urge but i have self excluded myself from everything so, i’m excited and looking forward what i’ll do with the money. Because past 2 months every cent of my money is going for taxes or for betting! Thanks for positive mind and interest in my actions!

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