[radubarlad]

Havent posted over 1 year
nlitteraly destroyed my life and all around me
nim hopeless broke and dont see any way out

[radubarlad]

Thank you for messaging me, for me its day 8 no alcohool and no gambling,My mind is really not well unfortunatlly
For me the big problem is alcohool, ive never gambled when i was sober, nobody in my family drinks nor gamble
i really dont understand how i have such an addictive personality its beyond me
anyway my depression is really a big problem for me and when it tackles me hard it breaks me
Im gonna keep writing every few days here and hope it will help, in fact im sure it will help
wish you all the best
God help us all

[radubarlad]

Im really a F***king moron
I went one night to the casino and hit a major win… celebrated with booze of course
That was really the start of a new nightmare for me
Gave all the money back of course like an idiot that i am+ almost all my savings
The only thing i can do now is look for a rehab place somewhere for my alcohol and gambling addiction
Unfortunatly i know now that i cannot beat this on my own:(

[radubarlad]

Really i have no words for what ive done, i fell im one of the sickest person i know
Went to the casinio dranked 4 beers and gambled 2000e
I really dont understant what the f*** was i thinking
im really at my lowest right now

[radubarlad]

Im really feeling down right now and having very bad urges to go out and drink and gamble
Hope i can make it tourgh this day wish you all the best
God Bless Us all

[radubarlad]

Sorry i havent posted anymore i was very busy this weekend 

All is going well for me i dident drink or gamble for 10days now

had reallly strong urges last night but managed to stay home and watch movies

Hope you are doing well, wish you all the best

God bless us All

[radubarlad]

And thank you again for being here for me i’m really greatfull to have friends on this forum i dont know why but it feels good getting messages here, i guess it’s because i dont have real good friends in my life that i cand talk too , the only friends i had dissapointed me and asked for money never to speak to mee again after i loaned them , well enough pitying:)
I hope you are well and Gamble Free , wish you all The best in the world:)

[radubarlad]

Had a rough day at work today i dont understand some pepole how can they look in the mirror being so evil and cruel , after such a day usually i would go and get myself 6-8 beers then go to the casino and punish myself but thats not the case today
got me some pizza and gonna binge watch seinfeld and married with children till i fall asleep, hope all of you guys and gals are doing ok , wish you the best
God bless Us all

[radubarlad]

Youre so right its all about choices, life is hard enough gambling made my life a living hell and turned me into something i never tought i will become, Right now im focussing on other things in my life and trying not even to think about the past whats done is done and we cannot change the damage weve done , the only thing is to learn from our mistakes keep pushing forward and work hard for our goals in life

Wish you all the best and God bless us all

Thank you for youre time

[radubarlad]

Thank you again for youre time writing on my thread it really means a lot to me,today and yesterday was the hardest days i had in my workplace i guess the only way for me is to find a new job,,youre absolutly right about treating myself with love and respect i never do that and i dont know exactly why i have a self hate thing… im constantly thinking of the past and the damage ive done, I really have to let go and not think about my past but its really verry hard
Thats one of my big questions , when did i get this depressive personality i really dont know , how did i get so low in mylife its really weird…..
Hope you are doing well , keep praying for you and everybody
God Bless us all

[radubarlad]

Im really sorry for youre relapse, i lost more in my last relapse and now i know for sure no metter how much i will win at first i eventualy give it all back+more of my money,WE SIMPLY CANNOT KEEP THE MONEY

I hope you will keep strong , the only way for us is to be strong and save our money, Gambling is an illness the only cure is to let it go and never gamble again

God bless us all

[radubarlad]

Had a rough day yesterday at work,tought about drinking and gambling had really strong urges:( but kept strong, i really dont cope well with stresfull situations, thinking about moving from this town theres a lot of tempteation where i live its packed with casinos and bars,I keep praying everyday for all of us,hope all of you keep strong.
God bless us All

[radubarlad]

Thats a great idea, i really will look into it and find some sort of help online

Thank you again for youre support, we are all gonna make it we just have to be strong and be positive

I was such a positive person in the past it really sucks to have depression i really dont know when the hell did i change to this person i am today, i look into the mirror sometimes and i cant recognize who is that person

God bless us all

[radubarlad]

Everything is going fine thanx for the msg , im at work at the moment , dont have urges to gamble or drink

Im going to the gym after work , then ill go home eat watch a movie and sleep early

What about you? i hope everything is ok,we have ti keep strong and pray

God Bless us all

[radubarlad]

Hy everybody wish you all a great day and a great week
Today i will not gamble, Today i will not Drink
God bless us all
This is day 3 of my new life

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