[Prettyfoolish]

Thanks I will look into gamstop and the live support, I have finally accepted that I have royally fucked up and that I am going to be having some rough times ahead. I never want to feel like this again, the big burning hot knot of stress and shame in the pit of my stomach is keeping me up at night and I can’t relax or enjoy anything. I am usually a very relaxed and happy person and I hate how irritable and cranky I have been, I gave been snapping at my co workers and I felt bad so I decided to swallow my pride and let a few of them in on what I am dealing with right now, I was actually surprised how understanding and supportive they were. After posting here I read back and what I did sounds so stupid and I still can’t believe how twisted up my mind was at that point, but it feels good to get it off my chest and just admit it. It feels good to have someone tell me that it is not the end of the world and I can get through this because for a bit there it didn’t feel like I could so thank you for the replies. I have read some of the other threads here and they really put in perspective how much worse this problem can really be, I am glad that I found this safe place and found the courage to join and write something. I had forgotten that I lent one of my friends 1000 and he just called me to say he has it now so I can use that to try to get started chipping away at this, I don’t know where to start though, I pawned my car so I kind of want to try to get that back because I feel like it’s at least worth more than the 1500 bucks I owe on it and if I am going to lose it I would rather sell it myself for a decent price. Ideally I would like to keep it so I can get to work and stuff. Anyways I am feeling a little bit better today and I am just going to keep looking forward and deal with this the best I can one day at a time and never gamble again. Thank you for giving me the courage to be able to talk about this and for the positive vibes, it has helped.

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