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I feel like I was where you are many times, always believe that I could just walk in and do no gambling or gamble just a little, and there were times when I did just that! But, it never is that easy. If you gamble just a little bit one day and feel you have control, then the next time you do a little more and a little more, until maybe you do what I did- binge and not care and go crazy and waste huge amounts and time ect!! It’s only a good idea to try to stop completely and for good… I read so much about people who have actually taken their own life because of the vicious cycle of gambling. It all can seem so innocent and fun until it just isn’t- then it’s an addiction and at that point becomes to much to overcome just by will alone! I hope you will consider just reading into the effects of gambling more first and see where it can ultimately lead and perhaps not go back at all.. Please take care, playing around with how things will go by actually saying you are going to the casino, can be just the thing NOT to do! Not because I am telling you what to do, only because it has caused me so much hurt and looses by trying just what you are thinking
.. Be careful please..

[peacegirl]

Today was a good day, mom and I had fun eating mexican food and shopping at some little fun stores in the country… We talked a few moments about the whole gambling thing again, acknowledging how much it got to me and how it effects others so quickly and without them even realizing it… We both know it seemed fun at first and the times we went together seemed so innocent, but now we both know just how awful it truly is..We are thinking of taking a small trip somewhere for day or 2, maybe to the beach. Also today being memorial day, we talked about my brother who passed away from a truck accident almost a year ago- he served in the military but he never liked it in Germany and always wanted to be at home.. We miss him so much! And today we had a great day together as always! I again told her I am living ODAAT.. So for today I am so thankful I did not gamble! Today was good.

[peacegirl]

Today was a good day, mom and I enjoyed lunch and went to the park.. Yes I will try to guard myself when she leaves it is always so hard when she has to go back home. For now just another day that I took it for today only as ODAAT!

[peacegirl]

You are going to get through this, just keep moving forward each day just take a little step forward and then another. That is what I am doing and sooner or later it will get a little less painful for us! I am thinking of you!! Please take care

[peacegirl]

The problem is stopping is not as easy as just saying, okay now I am going to stop gambling. The excitement, the glitz, the winning, the “fun” and thrill of being there will creep back into your mind and until you realize it’s an out and addiction that requires much more work then just saying, I quit gambling for good- then you will continue to gamble. How do I know this, I have been there done that for years! I thought I could just stop many times, and many times I did- but when we think we are higher then the problem itself we fall flat on our face every time! So for me, I am a compulsive gambler and I now live ODAAT and for today I am not gambling… I try now not to look ahead to never gambling again, and I will remember the horrid mistakes and money I lost, but I will try not too look too much back either! Hope you can realize we are here on this site because we need each other, perhaps outside help and most of all we need to fully admit we have a problem…

[peacegirl]

Mom and I did our favorite things like bumping around going to yard sales and stores and I cooked dinner last night and tonight.. It’s been 3 weeks since I gambled and I must admit it crept into my mind today. I talked to mom about how it likes to creep back into my mind every time I am just starting to do a little better, and us talking helped. I know I have to just keep moving forward..

[peacegirl]

Mom is here and things are going alright! I haven’t had any urges to gamble lately but as always I will keep my guard up as I now know that I have to watch it all the time and never take for granted that I am somehow “completely healed” I think it’s a work in progress always, but I am moving forward! Hoping everyone else can keep going forward as well ODAAT- with God’s help too!!!

[peacegirl]

Mom is on the plane right now to come visit, so very thankful. We will spend the next 3 weeks talking and doing things we just enjoy together! I know I can share with her all my issues, gambling everything- she always listens and cares so much. She’s my best friend! So, I’m happier today, but still have a long road to go to pick myself up from the pit that I fell into again when I slipped and gambled again! But that will come with time… For today, I thank God that I am not gambling and for all I have..

[peacegirl]

For the last 2 weeks I have worked myself to exhaustion- I’m having some physical problems because of it too, but I’m having a hard time even letting myself off the hook even for a moment! I guess I’m afraid to relax or something, because I’m afraid of what I did in the gambling binge and I want to make up for it…However you are right- I am doing way too much, much more then I ever have done. My mom is coming to visit tomorrow and I guess it’s time for me to step back a little and breathe and enjoy her visit. She will be with me for 3 weeks. Thanks for the advice:) I need it!

[peacegirl]

The weekend was tough, long and hard- but today is bright and beautiful and I am not gambling today! I think back to 2 weeks ago on this day when I was devastated to the point I couldn’t think straight over my gambling fall binge, and it’s been a really really long 2 weeks but I am at least a little better then I was that day! I’m must going to keep coming here every day and posting, and reading and sharing and taking it ODAAT… What else can we do but move forward!!! Hope everyone has a great gamble free day…

[peacegirl]

Wish I could relax myself a little and even just forgive myself for my big gambling binge 2 weeks ago, but I am not there yet where I feel better enough to even let myself off the hook in a tiny way! I am glad you are having a great weekend ican! Just keep going, ODAAT..

[peacegirl]

Wish I could relax myself a little and even just forgive myself for my big gambling binge 2 weeks ago, but I am not there yet where I feel better enough to even let myself off the hook in a tiny way! I am glad you are having a great weekend ican! Just keep going, ODAAT..

[peacegirl]

Was such a long weekend, worked lots and lots of hours, for low pay lol! Wasn’t feeling great either, and even though it’s been 2 weeks I am still reeling from the mess up binge, and I try to work extra, but the amount I spent on my binge was so unbelievable, so horrible that I just can’t do enough to begin to make up for it! Im tired too, after 2 weeks of doing all I can to make extra, I’m exhausted, mad at myself, and just sick of the whole gambling nightmare that it ever even started. Wish I was a little more positive today, but I guess maybe tomorrow will be better. For now, I’m just again glad I didn’t gamble today…

[peacegirl]

Lizbeth, I noticed your original post was in 2010, but then it skips 3 years on here? Do you have another page of posts? If so I would love to read sometime! Thanks

[peacegirl]

Lizbeth, I like to read your posts because it gives me hope that years from now, even though we are never cured we can get through each day without gambling ODAAT! Thank you for sharing, and inspiring us to keep on going forward…

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