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Well done on starting over,
3 days is great, any day is better than day 0. It is so easy to think straight when in recovery, when in addiction it is not so easy as the addiction has kind of talen the brain hostage. Breaking free of it is incredibly hard. I totally understand, I have relapsed too many times to count. It is early days for me too. You are right in what you say as long as you dont have the first bet. Avoiding it. Getting busy when the urge comes, delaying it.
Keep trying no matter what. Every time you get knocked down, get back up. Everyones journey is different and its such a sneaky addiction. I have had many periods off gambling thinking i was fine. Just have to make recovery number one every day. For me i keep re affirming, i dont gamble… every time i have a thought, i think, i dont gamble. I say it every day.
Hoping sub consciously it will sink in.
You are doing well to return Mav a lot dont. There are people that come and go here, we never see again. Really we are the lucky ones never giving up. Don’t let gambling destroy you or take anything more from you. We can do it Mav. I’m with you too.Pea
Congrats on your time
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nI obsess over things too, it is in my nature, everything seems obsessive to me. If I’m not gambling I’m eating!! or cleaning.
nTime will build and you will change. People will see the change in you and most of all you will. Keep going.
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nPeaDon’t be too hard on yourself. It does take time to start putting every area of our lives together. Cleaning is a strong point of mine but only because i am OCD. Everyone has different areas they are better in than others. Sometimes its just not the right time or the right priority for that moment. Start small. Start on one area only. Says me who just ripped the entire place apart.
But what helped me was when i started i just start in one room.
One drawer at a time. Even just watching tv.. sit with a drawer put 2 piles, keep or throw. Whatever you are keeping stick back in drawer and throw the rest. One drawer at a time, one area at a time, not all in one day. maybe one or two little areas a day.Thats what generally works best for people accept when you are OCD like me and mental.
Cant wait to hear of the hair, i havent had mine done yet, cant afford it yet but soon. As soon as i can i am off. Chop chop.
Keep journalling, i love to read it
Pea
Hi my friend
Kin I am so proud of you. Your progress over the years. It is incredible and you have always always supported me, here and other sites and i so appreciate it. Some of the things you say stay with me even through my day. Sometimes one sentence you have said will pop in my mind later on. It really is helpful.
I love how much you work your recovery. I can see you put your all into it. You have to, and so do i.Pea
I love love love that last post.. thank you for writing it. Its just exactly what i needed to read right now. Congratulations on your days free
Pea
Well done on your gamble free time
Sounds like you are aware of a lot of things too. Keep going on your days.. you are doing really well, what a change hey
Pea
I love reading your posts.. they always make me think and sometimes give me some good ideas i would not have thought of or maybe make me look at something in a different way, well done on your journey.
Pea
Well done again.. i just love your posts they are so encouraging and I have to agree about Charles and his encouragement. He has helped me many times with his advice and patience.
I cannot wait to say i am at day 200 not even at 20 yet lol…
Well done, you are living the gamble free lifePea
Hi there.
I really want to know the details of your hair. What did you get done?
Pea
I understand where you are at.. Ive had my meds upped in their dose too. Just wait it out, this will pass. It will get better. I always try to think when i am at my bad days, this is not permanent. It is temporary and it will change. Just as the good feelings change so do the bad, just get through the best you and know that you have support here always
Pea
Thats it I’m getting out the nail polish !!!
Pea
I like your thread
I like that you are positive about your recovery and doing what works for you. I think we all have to find our own way to get through this. What i love is about your treats, your new clothes, your hair.. gosh i look at my hair now and i need mine done too, its a mess. You reminded me about self care and the importance of it. My counsellor says to put the whip away and stop punishing myself.. i will try. its hard right now but il try.
i will follow your lead and the first thing i will do for me is get my hair done. That will be my first treat. 🙂Pea
In addition to the above support. Can you try gamblers anonymous, counselling. When you get urges try delaying them. Say, i will wait an hour. The casino will always be there, the sites will always be there, wait the hour, do something else, get busy when the urges come. Continually delay, just something thats helped me in the past. I have relapsed often but learnt a lot. Wish i had a handle on it sooner. You can do it now. It only gets worse as its progressive, the more you gamble, the more you lose, not just money, but life.
pea
Keep going on your days.. its good you know how the gambling is a scam.. It may just help in your resolve against this addiction. Well done keep going
Pea
A big well done on your 30 days that is great! Keep going strong and those days will continue to add up. Its hard when the emotions come out after gambling, i think all the pain we have shoved down starts to emerge.
Anyway keep going, keep moving forward and enjoy the gamble free lifePea