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I did it.. i am so proud of you!!! That is a fantastic posts and you described it so well.. to tell your husband and then getting the password changed by your son i could see how brave you would have to be at that time.. that is wonderful. What a difference in that life to this life now it seems Two completely different lives hey..
I cannot believe myself either when i i look back and now i am only wishing i stopped earlier but there is no use thinking of what i cant change. Accept what i am doing now to change it and the wisdom to know not to do it again. Thats the serenity prayer for me.
I did it , it really encourages me to see the change you have made and also to read of the happiness now in your life. The further away from gambling the better and i love how you look at it as something in the past.. me too. So proud of you really am

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Im so sorry to hear of your sadness.. i hope that whatever it is it gets sorted out soon.. you are a good person it has always shone through in your posts and everyone here will know that. Whatever it is know that nothing is permanent and things are temporary, there is always a solution somewhere.. the serenity prayer is good in times of trouble i find.. i say it a lot!!

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Congrats on 11 days free.. it is such a good feeling isn’t it when the days start to add up again.. yes this could be it for both of us Mav. What a long journey hey.. it can be done. We can do it. Keep posting. Mav have you ever tried the online chat groups here?

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was so nice to see you in chat and no you did not hog it.. it was great. So good to see how life is for you now. You are doing great. Whatever way recovery works for you is good if its working so stick with what you are doing. Its true no one size fits all.. any way that helps us is our way..
So glad you are on the right path today and the sun is shining into your life

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Sorry to hear you are so distressed lately.. I think its probably best if you feel that bad to go and see a health professional, if you are suicidal i really suggest you ring a help line or go see your doctor ASAP. By the sounds of what you were writing on my thread you are at a bad place. Seek help. You need face to face help for mental health. Keep trying not to gamble and look at what you can do to stop yourself. Look at meetings, counselling etc.. find ways. For now though professional help sounds like the best option first

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A big well done on being gamble free.. that is so good.. and enjoy the fair

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Hi i did it

Just like your name says you did it!!! Wonderful that you are so positive and uplifted.. lovely place to be.
Hope to maybe catch you in chat some day soon

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Your posts always make me think

Am i doing enough? After reading your post it reminds me i could be doing a little more. The more i add the more chance i have. Thanks for your post today. I always enjoy chatting with you too you have helped me many times over the years

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Hi.. I know what you mean about the short memory about gambling, the pain begins to fade, the torture that we feel and one day it just seems like it really wasn’t eve that bad.
The good thing is you are aware that is what happens too. It happens to me too. As horrendous as things get i forget the pain, i can remember it but no feeling attached to it.
Once i start i cannot stop so the point is not to start, sounds so simple right.. if it were i would have stopped when is started trying back in 09. The point is not to give up though. Keep trying and remember there will be no, just this once, just this amount etc.. if we lose we chase it, if we win we lose it!

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Well I am so glad that you dont have access to that 9k at the moment. its really really good that you actually have that money considering you are a gambler and considering you had access.. I know you are looking at the loss form what was 30k but honestly you could have lost the lot plus more if you continue. That money will never come back in a win. In fact if you win it would simply encourage you to keep gambling. I know you dont think thats what would happen, everyone thinks they would do the right thing with the money and put it in the bank etc.. I’ve never heard many stories that go that way, the familiar ones i hear are, i and the money, i was up, i got it… I lost it! You are winning now by giving the cards to your mum. Keep trying.

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Hi i did it

Well i love your name because you have done it. I really liked that post. The change to your life sounds fantastic. i really understood what you mean about planning, while gambling its almost impossible to plan normal life and even shortly after like my brain now its still hard for me to plan.
My brain is still in the mush phase. Well done and thanks for inspiring. I want to do the same the little treats etc. Makes life sound so much nicer than just do not gamble etc…

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Hey congratulations on 6 days free

I know the struggle I’m the same been here for years and years. I guess the one thing i know and can see is we keep getting back up.. gets exhausting doesnt it.
The good thing is you are back on track. It takes time the days add up and what a relief when they do, you are on the way again Mav, hold on

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Well… I’m still waiting to get the hair done.. was going to resort to a packet but thought no… 1 it will end in disaster. 2 this is my treat

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The wedding sounded fun. Im such a hermit lol.
Good to see you were not tempted and i am so glad it didnt even cross your mind how good a sign is that that your recovery is strong.

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Hows everything coming along now?

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