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  • in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17978
    paul315
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    Originally posted by bettie

    … Funny. looking into the past. I was so filled with life then. I had forgotten, the life without gambling.

    Good morning Betty,
    "Such is life", and eventhough there have been losses and unwanted changes, we taking each day without gambling fills us with life; and a precious life at that.
    To borrow from Kathryn’s closing – "To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan"; but alas, the adventures carry disappointments and adversities as well. Yet we can choose not to add the devastation and anguish or any additional troubles brought about by gambling.
    God’s speed my friend. Stay strong.
    Have a Happy Gambling Free New Year in 2011
     
    Larry

    Thanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.– 12/31/2010 11:17:20 AM: post edited by paul315.

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21276
    paul315
    Participant

     
    As posted by Laura, "it seems I am running out of time to make personal and individual Christmas wishes". Nevertheless I will take this time to wish everyone here "the most of the best to all of you" (I just watched a very old, 1939, Christmas Greeting from the Hardy Family movies with Micky Rooney; for you oldsters, and the curious young, see here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dumD-DI7_4).
    So like that long-ago movie family, I can’t forget one of the most important things in my recovery, I would not exist if not for each and everyone of you in my recovery family; you all helped hold me together during my tyring times.
    From the bottom of my heart, I extend these sentiments with my profound gratitude, prayers, and best wishes for the happiest of Holidays to you and yours.
    Merry Christmas!
    "God bless us everyone" – Timothy CratchitLarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23019
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by Kathryn
    I have realised i need to let go of some things…but …
    … I need to believe in myself… I am a strong person…
    To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

    Good morning Kathryn,
    Good to see that you have your shopping completer, in fact I do too, and that you are ready to give them.  Just as we give up the things we buy for others, we do have a need to give up things that may be hindering us as well.  The best way I know to rid ourselves of these unwanted traits is to not try to give them up, but to push them out by replacing them with positive feelings and actions. 
    If you haven’t read or received Ken’s "Today’s Gift" email, it is copied below. It speeks of going byound letting go, it shows that we need to believe as well as being strong.
    And yes, you are a strong person, and you pass that strengten to others. Thanks for the share I have been given.
    Merry Christmas!
    "God bless us everyone". Keep aware. Stay strong.
     
    Today’s thought from Hazelden is:

    One needs something to believe in, something for which one can have wholehearted enthusiasm.
    –Hannah Senesh

    Life offers little if we sit passively in the midst of activity. Involvement is a prerequisite if we are to grow. For our lives’ purposes we need enthusiasm; we need enthusiasm in order to greet the day expectantly. When we look toward the day with anticipation, we are open to all the possibilities for action.

    We must respond to our possibilities if we are to mature emotionally and recover spiritually. Idly observing life from the sidelines guarantees no development beyond our present level. We begin to change once we start living up to our commitment to the program – its possibilities and our purpose – and it’s that change, many days over, that moves us beyond the negative, passive outlook of days gone by.

    The program has offered us something to believe in. We are no longer the people we were. So much more have we become! Each day’s worth of recovery carries us closer to fulfilling our purpose in life.

    I believe in recovery, my own; when I believe in success, I’ll find it. There is magic in believing.
    You are reading from the book: "Each Day a New Beginning" by Karen Casey
    Larry

    Thanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.– 12/22/2010 4:24:26 PM: post edited by paul315.

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17945
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by bettie

    … it does get tiresome of identifing myself as "bettie, compulsive gambler". When do I just get to be "bettie"? …

    good morning "Betty", although you are Betty, compulsive gambler – short for Recovering Compulsive Gambler, to Fellow Gamblers that you meet with at meetings, here and during homework, you have become Betty to the rest of world and even to us other CGs outside the confines of our moments of sharing.  There is no crimson CG stamped on your forehead.
    Be patient, the day will come when you do not dwell on gambling and it’s affects; and you will feel alive, not dead. Nevertheless, we still need to keep a knowledge of our recovery in our everyday lives.
    God.s speed. Stay strong.
    Merry Christmas!
    Larry

    Thanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.
    — 12/21/2010 3:33:57 PM: post edited by paul315.– 12/21/2010 3:35:10 PM: post edited by paul315.

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21272
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by paul315

    My Answers to Gamblers Anonymous’ Twenty Questions 
           …        18.  Do arguments, disappointments or frustrations create within you an urge to gamble?
                     Yes, not any arguments, but the disappointments and frustrations of the gambling 
                     in it’s self causes me to want to gamble more.

    Good morning all, and particularly to the new members.
    There have many new faces showing up here during the beginning of the holiday season and I have been remiss in welcoming you; so I now give a sincere welcome to each of you. I have posted many times that you are the most important people on this site; you are reminding us that the ways of gambling have not changed and that the outcome is still the same – we do not have to go back into that abbess to see for ourselves.
    And just as you have helped us, maybe we can help you. You will find here that there is a better way to live and that recovery is possible. You will also see that it is not easy, but, once you have accepted the facts so thoughtfully outlined in the first steps of the Gamblers Anonymous Recovery Program, you will know that it is possible.  There are other programs for recovery that help as well, but these first three principles are the foundation of the beginning:
    THE RECOVERY PROGRAM
    Here are the steps which are a program of recovery:
    1. We admitted that we were powerless over gambling – that our lives had become unmanageable.
    2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to a normal way of thinking and living.
    3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of this Power of our own understanding.
    This season brings many new members because of the frustrations of our failure to provide for happier celebrations and a better New Year. We realize that gambling has taken this from us; has not only robbed us, but has denied our families the happiness of these occasions. One of the best things about this time of frustration, disappointments and loss, is that we can use this low point in our lives as a turning point. It is easier to start on the road to recovery when we are down than when things are going seemingly well. Take advantage of it and turn your life around for the future that living gambling free will allow.
    GA also provides a list of 20 Questions to help us see that we have crossed over the line and have become addicted to compulsive gambling. When answering these questions, I answered yes to all, save the one about good fortune giving me a reason to gamble – I was not experiencing any good fortune at the time.  However, since I have been gambling free I have begun to experience this and am also able to now answer "No" to Question 18 above (it is the only one that speaks of today, and not the past). Thanks to my recovery; to the people in rooms like the ones here and at GA; to my Higher Power; and, my not gambling for anything, I no longer have to struggle with these urges. The barriers that I have in place, and the changes to my character and lifestyle have allowed me to combat such times and face the fact that hard times and adversities happen – that the things that I was trying to escape from is part of life and hiding from them in a casino would not change or relieve them. That gambling only added to and intensified my problems. Recovery does not happen over night, but, the problems that gambling will cause does stop immediately once we make the choice not to gamble for anything.
    In closing, again welcome to GT, a place that you to can learn to answer No to question 18, and have a better holiday in the ones to come.
    God’s speed, use your Higher Power to guide and strengthen you.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23005
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by Kathryn
     …As of yesterday, i have not gambled for a year and a half.  (i think that sounds much better than 18 months!!!) …

    Good evening Kathryn,
    Well done! And better still that you did not realize it; that only means that being gambling free is a little more natural for you.
    "How do you measure, measure a year?", or in your case a year and a half; but somehow, although more accurate, 788,400 minutes does not have the ring to it as 545,600 minutes when sung. So here’s to your year plus, the happiness found in a year is only multiplied with each additional day..
    ?Five hundred twenty-five thousand
    Six hundred minutes,
    Five hundred twenty-five thousand
    Moments so dear.
    Five hundred twenty-five thousand
    Six hundred minutes
    How do you measure, measure a year?

    In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
    In cups of coffee
    In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

    In five hundred twenty-five thousand
    Six hundred minutes
    How do you measure
    A year in the life??
     
    God’s speed.
     LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17888
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by bettie

    Oh rough day … my Aunt passed away …

    Betty, sorry for your loss. There is no good time to deal with death, but the holidays seem to bring out stronger feelings about the loss.  Remember, this too shall pass.
    God’s speed and comfort to your family.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17880
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by bettie

    Hi Kwb,
    I’m sure Larry will have a better answer … 
     
    Good morning Betty,
    Good to see you enjoying the everyday things that recovery sets us free to do. Your mention of the Christmas parade reminded me of the ones that was lost by my gambling. We did not go this Thangsgiving, but it was because of bad weather; gambling did not keep me away – being strong when it comes to not gambling, but a wimp when the weather turns bad.
    I read you post to kwbwmom and felt like a school kid being called on by the teacher to answer a question. For you Betty have become one of our teachers here at GT, there are no better answers than those found in your post and accountings of your life and struggles.  Keep helping us with our homework. 
    God’s speed.  LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21269
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by finding_Laura

    Good morning Larry,
    …  The pot is on as usual this morning. …
     …  Now its time to focus on one of those GC traits,well, mine anyway,  procrastination …

    You will have to savor the coffee by yourself today, at least during my time online. I am in New Orleans and have to go out for my coffee later – is this considered procrastination?; oh well I will think about that later.  Have a nice day and even nicer vacation.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21265
    paul315
    Participant

    Thanksgiving Day in the US
    My first thoughts of being thankful today goes to my Higher Power and the friends that I have found and depended upon in my recovery, without God and you here I do not know where I would be; most likely either dead or once again heading out for another trip to the casino to celebrate by lying and and adding to my guild and remorse.  Thanks and God’s Blessings to each and everyone.
    Additional thanks goes out for my family and friends. Some may be miles away, but I am still thankful that they are a large part of my life, albeit now only in thoughts, memories, and hopes.  Others may have passed on in death, but I  remain thankful for knowing them.  But my greatest thanks is for being able to just think about that which I am thankful. To be able to recognize and absorb the love of my family and friends that surrounds me instead of my isolating myself and causing me to just being in their prayers for my deliverance, is what recovery has bestowed upon my life.
    God’s speed. Stay strong. Keep aware. Be Thankful.
     LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17824
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by bettie

    … What in the world does this have to do with gambling? Everything. …

    Good morning Betty,
    I just posted to Kathryn about her post on life, and coming here your statement above pops out to me. Just to let you know that you are one of those included in the "others" I mention (there are many).  Getting things off our chest and sharing in our lives, has everything to do about our recovery.
    A good song for today for you would be from South Pacific, "I’m Gonna Wash That Man Right Outta My Hair", and keep the soap out of yours eyes while you are doing it – no reason for tears.
    And a note about pumpkin pie; I make mine from scratch also, although I have cheated a few times and used "store bought" crust.  I am on my way to visit my sister-in-law, my nice’s mother, now; she always was able to make perfect crust.
    God’s speed. Stay strong.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #22984
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by kathryn

    To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan
    I haven’t posted to your thread in a while but I do read and enjoy your post; they are quiet beneficial.  When I first started here and at GA I wondered why all the talk about things happening and not recovery; I needed to know what to do, not something about someones private affairs. I soon learned that this was an important part of recovery; knowing that there was a life outside the one governed by addictions offered encouragement for me to continue. Yours, and the journaling of others, about the struggles before us and the benefits that await is part of what keeps programs like this working.
    I found the ways and means for me to stay gambling free and work my recovery in the same meetings and post, but, first I had to see the reason behind my desire to recover; that to live life would be great adventure.  I am happy that you and others have found the way to live life as well, and not just endure or cope with it, or perhaps even just elude it, while in the grasp of our addictions.
    God’s speed. Stay strong.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21263
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by P

    Hey larry
    Hope you are having a good day..

    Thanks for the post P, and for sharing in the coffee, I wish we had some fine pastries to go with it.
    My day yesterday was good but it took a turn for the worst. I learned that my nice died. She has been living with a few medical and neurological problems in addition to a lot of turmoil since her father died last year. However, she is now at rest. I was ten when she was born so in a way we grew up together. During her adult life we both worked for the Government and I watched her advance from an office clerk to being the Inspector General in one top Agency and the Comptroller General in another. All of this starting with only a High School Diploma and getting her higher degrees during her working career; she did good with her life until a disease struck her down. A disease that could not be arrested like the one I am recovering from. 
    Life is full of turns and adversities, my only thoughts are Mercy, Mercy, Mercy; also one of my favorite songs now playing in the background. I will miss her and have fond memories on the good times – RIP "Bebbo"
    God’s speed.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17791
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by bettie

    … failure is not an option …
    … I will wake up to 90 clean days tomorrow …
    … What will the next 90 be like? …

    Good  morning Betty,
    It is the tomorrow yo were looking forward last night – WELL DONE! 
    Failure is not an option in the gambling part of your endeavors either, stay strong and continue working on recovery not only staying gambling free ODAAT. I have found that my working a recovery program has help is all aspects of my life, not just the gambling.
    For some guidelines on continuing with your recovery GA has a pamphlet, "Beyond 90 Days", look through it and use all that will help in the "one days" to come:  http://www.gachicago.org/beyond.html.
    Again, well done. God’s speed. Keep aware.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #17776
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by bettie

    …  no man would accept my financial situtation and my CG …

    Good evening Betty, just a note to say hello and reinforce the fact found in today’s topic in the Our Daily Bread site; that is, we are all significant no matter how we may feel or even how others might think.  The opinion of the guy you know, comes from him not knowing you, and not even wanting to really know you; from him only wanting to drag you down to his level. 
    I don’t recall if you were in the chat room the other day when I talked about the key speaker at the GA conference I attended last week, but I will repeat part of her story here. While on a plane a few years ago she was talking to the passenger next to her and it came out that she was on her way to an earlier GA conference. Because of her honesty and outspoken confidence in her recovery, he became interested in the person she was; not turned off by the person that she was evolving from. The bottom line was that they were later married.  She was accepted for what she was.  
    I am not recommending that you take a plane trip somewhere, but am saying that with you continuing on this trip of being gambling free, you can be the person a true friend sees in you.
    God’s speed. Stay strong.   LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.

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