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Come and chat Vera i know you are out there.. come back come back i miss talking to you
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Laura i am so excited to see you post.. I was starting to worry about you but there is no need you are just living life wahooo pretty good reason not to have seen you in a while. I do want to thank you for over the years you supported me many many ***** when i was at my lowest points.. I am finally putting one foot in front of the other and it was an absolute pleasure to wake up today to a new morning that i can choose to do something good with.
Today i woke full of gratitude for my life and for my recovery. I am far from the sad hermit that i once was. Life is beautiful when i choose to see it that way.
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Hi R2C we are here with you.. keep going. Don’t give up on giving up. It just matters that you move forward now and continue on the best you can. Have you seen how my recovery has been over the years? I relapsed too many ***** to *****, but i keep hanging on R2C because the alternative is not an option for me. Please don’t give up on yourself, I’m not giving up on you.
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Hi again. Thanks K. I am noticing I am coming to life. Am thinking of what other interests I could have. Small pieces of who I used to be coming back. The me without addiction. I am actually getting excited about the possibilities. Other things. New experiences. I think recovery will make my life better than it could have been without it. Never thought that would be a thought I would have. My life is really changing…
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Hi Cat
I read on the feel good thread that you had a pedicure.. so nice you have bright new nails for the bright new you.. The cat that is in recovery.. I am sure those nails were neglected in the gambling time, they will be smiling. I am glad you are where you are at cat (hey that rhymed hehe)
Life is good without gambling isn’t it. Walking the recovery road together is an awesome feeling
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Strange I went to bed so tired but couldnt sleep. Morning now and time for another day. I will make it a good one.
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Strange I went to bed so tired but couldnt sleep. Morning now and time for another day. I will make it a good one.
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Nice to see you Larry.. just for today on this day i wont be gambling. This day in july is just guaranteed gamble free for me.. Vera would love to see you again, i see you been round in chat, just not posting, so i hope you come back to say hi some day or that i catch you in chat very soon cos i am selfish i miss seeing you round the place..
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Hi again.. another post. I have a cuppa in hand, its all that will fit in after an indulging lunch today but it was so worth it, took my mum and boy out to lunch and we had a great day full of food and chatter. Flopping on the lounge now and cant move again. I have bought a trial period for a gym so my lazy behind is going to have to use it and i start it next week. My body i am sure will be in the shock of its life. haha. I feel ok at the moment tired, full, kind of lazy and sunshiny today. Pretty good for the middle of winter. Im feeling relaxed and happy that gambling isnt part of my life today. I am making plans in my diary to go to a certain amount of meetings a week. I need to slot things into that diary because after work all i want to do is flop.. i think i need to avoid the lounge all together. I might need to say i wont sit on the lounge till a certain time because boy is it hard to get up once i sit down.. feeling really really tired but pleasantly happy right now. Going to go have a little read and relax. Worked really hard this week so i am enjoying this time. Taking my boy to the movies again soon. We have already been twice this holidays hehe..
I have to say its taken me a little while to adjust to not wanting to jump out of my skin all the time.. i was a bit like a caged tiger to begin with this post relapse.. not been able to settle and generally restless restless restless. I feel this afternoon the change is coming, im adapting to the gamble free life, its taken me a long time to let go of chasing that feeling.. i chased the feeling gambling gave me, the environment, just being there, but i dont chase the feeling of absolute disgust i have in myself afterward, i dont chase the pain and the mental unrest that i feel from it, i dont chase the absolute desperation that i felt with my last relapse. I dont chase the feeling of wanting to die.
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Congratulations Harry that is amazing.. 7 years what an awesome achievement. You are lviing the gamble free life and helping so many along the way. Our chats are always so valuable to me thank you so much
Congrats, yipppeeee, i would insert smiley right here….. if i knew how so for now this is it.. 🙂
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Hi there
If you can ban from that place across from work. Get someone to mind money, go to counselling, go to Gamblers anonymous meetings.. do all you can to fight this addiction. It is very very sneaky when it worms its way into our brains. Gotta give it time to get some clear thinking time by staying away. Once you bet once you will find it very hard to stop. For me there is no inbetween, i cannot bet once, i cant bet just a little. It ***** to be total abstinence but one day at a time. Find other hobbies other interests.. write lists, plan your days, when you get a thought to gmable, delay it for half hour at a time. It wont kill you not to gamble it may kill you if you continue
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Hi Lizbeth
I understand you would be having urges.. I think you are doing amazingly well. Keep doing other things. I know gambling will appear to be very appealing but it will only appear that way. Its not the truth of what happens when we go. I crave it like mad some days Lizbeth, it is temptation for me big time but i know what happens. I have to go by my history. For years i tried to stop and i couldnt this time will be no different. I cant stop if i start and i know one bet and i may not be back here. I cant live with the urges and guilt that follow a relapse. I dont want that for you either. Hang on Lizbeth, stick to the forum. Do you have GA in your area. could be good to join.
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Thanks Cat
Not sure what is going on think i have a virus or bug of some sort because i am soooooo tired, not normal tired but tired where i feel i havent slept when i wake up and tired so its an effort to move my arms and legs, how weird. I do have sore throat with it so here goes, getting stuck into the vit c etc…. Im very impatient when i get sick.
Yesterday i got home and flopped on the lounge and watched a movie with my boy.. from there on it was pretty much me not moving at all. So much for me committing to exercise boy oh boy.
Well, there is always today.. i am such a procrastinator. How hard can it be to do 20 mins a day even 10.. ok so today i will endeavour to do that. Surely it cant be that hard. I think i comfort eat, certainly going to have to address these things just don’t know if its right now.
I am still thinking of gambling, i think of it a lot, it is always in my mind. I really look forward to a time when i dont constantly think of it. I have small patches, like at work or if i see a movie etc but a lot of the time those **** machines are in the back of my mind. I thought by now they would disappear but haven’t. I am determined though. One day at a time is all i need think of. Sticking to my GA meetings and going to counselling. Not long left of the school holidays, hopefully on the days i don’t work we can fit in some more fun things
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I am so tired.. dont think ive ever felt this tired wow yawn yawn.. night

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Wow another session with Cathie and i feel even stronger again.. today will be a good day
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