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Hi everyone just a note to say that my old thread didnt work so well but if you start a new thread it works fine.. why dont you all come back and start a new thread so we can continue with the forum. It works fine with a new one.

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Positives in my day today are: Coffee, sunshine, ga meeting, family, cat, food, and emotions are surfacing which means i am facing reality.

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Hi Debbie
So glad to see someone starting a new thread too. Glad to be back into the posting again. I am glad you are going well with life at the moment and gambling to you now must seem like a distant memory. i cant wait to hear of the Thelma and Louise episodes or The Three musketeers. What fun! Wish i lived closer

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Well a positive in my day today is a really good cup of coffee
The sun is shining
The birds are singing
Im not gambling

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Well life is life and it is throwing things at me left right and centre. I am facing an emotional battle right now. I am prepared to face what comes. I am prepared to feel once more. So much of my life has been without feelings. I can fill my life with good things. I can do that and i will and i also need to realize this is all a process. My debt will be a process too. The regret will be a process that i learn to let go. Life is too short to waste in addiction.
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Well the second part of the day is going better than the first part. It looks like when you start a new thread it actually works fine. This is a new thread and all the posts are working as they should be. Join in anyone to say how your day is going today

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So my day today is kind of odd. I am having what i would call an identity crisis. I dont know who I am. I am a mother, an employee, a member of GA, a daughter etc, but WHO AM I?

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Well, who am I? That is the question of the day for me because right now I have absolutely no idea!!

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trying to send you a message carole

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Carole, how are you. Its been a while of course because of the forum getting set up but i think its getting there, i am trying out some posts to see how they go and see if they go where they should, so hello and i hope you are well

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Well that seemed to work. I pushed reply then typed the body of the text then pushed save. Seems to work.

So im riding an emotional rollercoaster, the emotions are surfacing and i am feeling real feelings again. Feelings that have been a long time coming. They have been buried somewhere and i feel they are coming out and i feel empty and lost and confused. I feel different. I feel scared of the swings in my *****, my feelings, crying, havent cried in i dont know how long but i cried 3 times today.

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Im a bit confused about what is going on with the thread. Why dont we just all start new ones? seems to be a problem with the posts that are already there maybe?
Im not sure, i am typing this and hoping it will end up where it is supposed to. it is not the facilitators fault they want it just as much as we do and the staff. They are obviously trying their best. I will just keep trying to post and if it doesnt work then i will start a new thread. Think its ok for new posts.

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Well I am finding my way round the site, must say it looks a lot nicer… the chat groups if you want to find them you go into group therapy schedule and you click on view as list that is above timetable. Otherwise on the timetable it doesnt look like there is one on untill you click the view as list button. Just telling you all in case you have not discovered it yet as it doesnt show on front page if any groups are on like the live chat line does.
I am sure we will all get used to it soon and be posting away like mad again like i have already started.
Having a bit of a meltdown in my days recently, reality is hitting me a little like a sledgehammer and i am really shocked at the years gone by with addiction. I feel the pain and regret, trying to let it go. The feelings are raw and real but they are real and that is life. Something i have been hiding from for a very long time.

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Well I am finding my way round the site, must say it looks a lot nicer… the chat groups if you want to find them you go into group therapy schedule and you click on view as list that is above timetable. Otherwise on the timetable it doesnt look like there is one on untill you click the view as list button. Just telling you all in case you have not discovered it yet as it doesnt show on front page if any groups are on like the live chat line does.
I am sure we will all get used to it soon and be posting away like mad again like i have already started.
Having a bit of a meltdown in my days recently, reality is hitting me a little like a sledgehammer and i am really shocked at the years gone by with addiction. I feel the pain and regret, trying to let it go. The feelings are raw and real but they are real and that is life. Something i have been hiding from for a very long time.

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Im not sure where my post went. I hope it went to the right place. Emotions are all over the place, very emotionally vulnerable time for me now but glad i can post about it now

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