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Hi Lizbeth
I hope you have a fun time this holidays with your grandson, i am going to be doing things like that with my little family.. we are going to the movies to see transformers, we love that series.
It is winter for me but not like the winter you all feel i guess.. mild winter but cold for me.. i am sitting having my coffee and my cat is sitting blinking at me.. i just love her.
You are doing great in recovery Lizbeth

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Hi cat i just wanted to say hi and hope that things get a bit easier for you sounds like you are going through some challenges.. youve done so well in your recovery i hope you are proud of yourself.. i too love my food cat and am finding that a challenge.. i am going to really make an effort to make sure that what goes in is healthy and try to stop the snacking quite so much… i know what you mean about seeing older people doing weights and being fit.. we can do it too just small steps to get there.. i get so impatient i want to wake up fit.. it hasnt happened yet hehe.
Im going to make the effort today just to stop and think before i eat something and try to stop doing it mindlessly which seems for me to be all day.. i can so relate
patience and baby steps with everything i guess.. bye cat and have a great day today

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Hey lorraine it was so good to chat today, hopefully see you there more often it will be good.. happy you found a good group at GA

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Vera thank you so much that was so beautiful brought a tear to my eye or two.. thanks Vera

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Vera thank you so much that was so beautiful brought a tear to my eye or two.. thanks Vera

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Vera thank you so much that was so beautiful brought a tear to my eye or two.. thanks Vera

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Vera thank you so much that was so beautiful brought a tear to my eye or two.. thanks Vera

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Hi Kathryn

Wow so happy you got out of that work situation.. so happy for you to that you have reached Five years, a whopping congratulations coming to you, wish i could say the same and should be as we have been here roughly the same time, you five years, me not even five days, and the proof is in the pudding, you have done fantastic.. so proud of you. I am still hoping that one day i can do the same.. im still hanging on

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Wow vera that poem was wonderful well done.. i think its amazing. .hope to see you in chat soon

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Hoping you have a good day today and pleased to see your hubby taking a break from the grog.. i was reading on lizbeths thread.. It would be hard to live with and i think you are doing an excellent job.. i hope he finds the strength.. would he consider AA.. maybe not his thing.. thank you for your support too, you are always there helping everyone along.. you have come a long long way in your recovery.. i admire you

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Hi that is such great news about your daughter, i am so glad to hear that.. Addiction sucks the life out of us as we all know. Cant really judge her its like trying to stop gambling its just another addiction. Ive tried for five years and im only early days again. The good thing is she is trying again, you are so so supportive to everyone Liz, they all seem to come to you in times of trouble, youve been through a lot already… I hope they can offer you the same support.

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Thank you for your post to me.. i am always reading how everyone is doing just not so good at replying for a while.. things are getting better, learning to let go. I am glad you are helping your mum, helping her will actually help you too in your recovery.. all the best for your day Carole keep us updated and well done on not gambling

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I am learning lessons.. big lessons, feel like this is the biggest learning curve of my life and ive had a few. This is huge, something is changing.. i feel today for the first time in a long time i have my head in recovery. I dont have a foot in the casino and head in recovery i have my head in recovery. Things are changing. I am going to try really hard to let it all go.. fresh start, new beginning. I have so many regrets i came to realize, i should have done this years ago, that etc.. if only, what if.. i realize i have been watching my life go by and i am sick of it.
I am really waking up, not sure whats happened, maybe an awakening, maybe insanity, il choose the first of the two.
Im ready to give my recovery everything i have again, its finding balance for me, thats a big one. Ive found an enthusiasm this morning that i have really been missing. I have made whopping mistakes, i have wasted a lot of time and money and hurt myself in a huge way. No more. I am going to hang on to recovery this time. I am not going to concern myself with time, just going to avoid that next bet and get on with life as best i can. Pay my debts in a manageable way, stop beating myself up… Im ready..

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Hey SJ you are so positive and did so well.. that is wonderful and what progress emotionally and in recovery that is fantastic.. just missed you in chat.. see you next time

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Hi everyone
Back again and starting to post. Trying my best to move forward and find some kind of forgiveness for myself in all of this but i find that the hardest thing to do.. letting go of the loss this time has been very very hard and i am just shattered from the whole experience. Never will i be able to have that first bet without the downward spiral that follows.. i guess i have to be grateful i have come back at all. Maybe another time i wont..
It still amazes me the power of this addiction and i seem today to have an understanding of it all.. tomorrow could be a different story thats how it goes, very quick changing for me.
Everything is, my moods, my thoughts of gambling, i go from being strong to the next hour having massive urges, thinking i couldnt think of anything worse than gambling right now, to sheer desperation to get there.. it is so insane. I wish i had got it from the start. I wish i was a textbook GA person. It hasnt happened. Without this site, without GA though who knows where i would be now. Maybe much worse.. im sure i wouldnt have had any gamble free time. I find counting such a waste. I just say to myself i cant gamble anymore, and hope i dont. Just for today of course.. sometimes just for this hour.
I feel exhausted and sick this time.. really has taken its toll on me in so many ways.. a great lesson lets hope i can learn

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