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Hope you are still doing well and that you are still attending counselling, i also find counselling very worthwhile, sometimes its harder than others but always brings with it some benefit.
Well done on your gamble free time, keep checking inP
Congratulations on getting through those urges and it was a good idea to read through your thread.. its something my head has never allowed me to do is read back, im not sure what it is but i cant seem to do it..
I am glad you are on that boat and gamble free today.. you have the money now for your fuel and snacks and life sounds like it is improving for you, so wonderful to readP
Congrats on your gamble free time that is truly amazing, i hope the move goes well for you and i hope that your shoulder improves, you never know what life throws your way today hey.. but you are doing it all without gambling so well done
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Well done and so nice to see you moving forward, be proud of yourself for every day you do not gamble, great to see
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Thinking of you.. i understand where you are coming from.. i am a carer for my beautiful Mum. Its very hard to see them in pain and in hospital it is so worrying but she is in good hands there and they will look after her. She has you there, you are not gambling, what a wonderful thing that is that you can be there for her.. had you not stopped gambling who knows.. you are doing well, you are always the person that seems to put everyone back together, look after you Lizbeth and im thinking good wishes for you and your mum across the seas
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Hows it going today.. thinking of you and hoping to bump into you again around the place..
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My first GA meeting i was terrified. I was nervous, i didnt know what to expect. I got there and blubbered, couldnt talk, but was welcomed. Everyone there is a gambler, like us. They have had to walk through the door for the first time too. Its a place like here but in a room where you can see everyone in real life. if you are too overwhelmed to share you dont need to. There are no rules saying you must do this or that. I know you had been worried about someone seeing you but its anonymous.. You dont give your last name. If there is someone there you know then they are there for the same reason. Not many people would even know a meeting is being held there as they arent really advertised.. for me i would go dressed casual and comfortable, however you feel best about yourself. Just go, and tell us all what it was like. I found i had to give it quite a few goes before i felt comfortable but then grew to love it.. men or women they are all there for the same reason.. good on you happy so proud of you. Take from it what works for you.
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Well done on your gamble free time that is wonderful.. make sure the money you are saving is safe.. many times people save and save and then blow it in a gambling session. Even if you feel totally safe now make sure that money is somehow safe.. not being negative just the reality of addiction and what i have learnt so far.. you are doing so well.. the time up is great, the longer away from gambling you are the better.. well done
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Wonderful you are planning your day today and that doesnt involve gambling. Well done, keep it up. you are doing great
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Oh those gambling dreams are wicked arent they. I have had times where i wake and felt disappointed that i had relapsed, then realized it was a dream, but it took a minute, its a weird feeling. I think its normal for those dreams to happen, must be part of us letting the gambling go maybe? withdrawals.. our subconscious dealing with it? whatever they are not fun are they. Nice one on the perfume well done. Keep moving forward just a day at a time
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Well done on coming here for help you are in the right place.. keep posting here, your thoughts, your feelings. Use this journal as your place to get things out. Our vision gets a bit skewed when it comes to gambling when weve crossed the line into compulsive gambling, tricks our brains into thinking we can win all the time but when we are compulsive the wins go back in and the losses we chase and its a cycle that just keeps on going and getting worse till we can find a way to stop.. there are many levels of support available.. there is here, with the chat groups, your journal, one on one help. Is there a gamblers anonymous in your area? Can you get counselling? There may be options to ban from where you play? whatever happens keep posting and lets know whats happening, welcome to GT and the beginning of recovery, well done
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Good on you for resisting the urges, its hard some days, it seems like the option that will just fix everything and make us feel better and it might for a short amount of time but then walking out those doors Lizbeth, ugh, the shame, the guilt, the loss of money, the desire ignited to keep going, the craving, the adding, the subtracting, the why did i do that again, the lost sleep and the regret.. the mental fog it puts us in after. Lizbeth, delay, do what you are doing by getting busy when you have those urges, they always pass. its a matter of waiting them out. Can you see a therapist or counsellor for your concerns? How about even trying the chat groups here, they are wonderful. What about the one on one helpline? You have come so far Lizbeth and you are doing so well.. hold on to your recovery, the addiction is just watching and waiting for a weak moment, dont give it that satisfaction.. you have too much life to be lived
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You are not alone in what you are going through.. it took me a long time after my last relapse to function in life at all.. it took me months and months and believe me it was mental hell but it gets better. The longer you are away from gambling the clearer your life will become but sometimes it actually gets worse before it gets better, but it does get better. The addiction has our heads alight with our pathways in our brain all lit up and excited from gambling, it takes a while for those things to settle down.. at first my head was scrambled so badly, i couldnt think or focus or figure much of anything out, i lost motivations but after a while things settle and the simple things in life start becoming good.. stick to GA get to those meetings, dont go watching any gambling of any sort.. it can just keep those little pathways alight.. you are creating new habits slowly, by going to GMA will be the best thing you could do for you. Dont hesitate on that one it is the single best choice for you right now. Just do it and then see what life brings after. Give yourself the chance to recover. It is the perfect place for you and i think it will be so beneficial. The other things will be sorted out in time. For now you need to sort out you, go to GMA, and just be a sponge and absorb that recovery when you are in there and give yourself a break.. please dont go near gambling places Mav, it triggers the desire to to go, ive heard and experienced many times people watching, but not playing and very soon they end up playing again. Stay safe, you are a good person, you just have an addiction you are working on… good on you for your progress so far it is fantastic.. you may think nothing has changed, but it is changing slowly slowly.. grab your recovery with both hands Mav, this is your chance.
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its so good to see you are still posting here. Keep going with your recovery one day at a time.. i am glad to see you gamble free today
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Oh i totally freaked out when i read that first part of your post.. i thought no that poor elk firstly, im a bit of an animal lover..
then i thought wow you are in trouble.. i am so glad its in grand theft auto and not in real life.. well done on your gamble free time, keep it up, stay aware and keep postingP