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Thank you i-did-it, laura & Jackdandy for your support on my journal i have taken on board all of what you have said and feel better for it. Yes i totally agree the more time on here the less i think about gambling, we deserve a better life and work things through, never give up.

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Thank you laura and Monica for your support, my minds my mind and i am dealing with it the best i can. Taking each day is not easy but attainable.

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My last post reads i really do need help. Helping myself is the priority here if i can’t help myself then im doomed to failure. At the moment im trying to hold everything together with very little money whilst working on a plan of action for my next payday in 2 weeks time. There is no point in languishing in self pity. I am not repeat am not borrowing money i got in the hole on my own and i’ll get out of it on my own.

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Thanks for the posts monica, i-did-it, laura and lizbeth i really do need help .

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setback number 2 last saturday where will this all end, why i keep putting myself through this hell i do not know i have tried everything. I can’t get an overdraft i can’t borrow i’m a mess . Maybe in the long run not being able to get in more debt is a good thing. All i know is my head hurts from trying to put a false face on at work again and again. I’ll keep trying i suppose.

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Counselling appointment went really well iv’e got to say i was surprised how well it went , so glad i made the first step .

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My first appointment with the counceller today i hope it goes well .

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Surfed the urge today and so proud of myself i was able to make the right choice .

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Councelling appointment booked for next week , hopefully once and for all i can beat my demons.

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Starting over is never easy but it has to be done , tuesday seems so long ago as i enter day three of my recovery . Drawing a line under it was never easy and it ever is but i have done it .

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Hi Monica thanks for your post on my thread , i do know what triggers my indulgence and i do have barriers in place including self exclusion but i drove 8 miles and even though i am excluded they didn’t know me so i got away with it . I have contacted a counceller as i feel i need to speak to someone non judgemental and am hoping to go for my first appointment soon . Your last post says today has been a good day which in itself is a blessing. 🙂

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I feel a failure and remorseful for being a gambler, today i gambled not for the first time in the last few weeks i’m not sure what to do anymore .

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My recovery is going well , taking each day as it comes and focusing on my targets .

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Thanks laura and kathryn i’m still not gambling i have my barriers in place and they have worked when i have thought about it. Thanks laura for the links , some good pointers about why .

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Laura , thanks for that it’s good to remind me of all the good things i can be doing instead of wasting time on ngative things.

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