[neva]

LOL.  Vera, I know it looks huge but he’s only drank the whole thing one time but we fill it just in case he wants more.  I just looked and it’s 4 pints. He’s been ***** under a lean-to most of the day.  I hope he’s okay.  Sometimes a mother disowns her baby when she knows there is something wrong with it. We’ll see.
PS Just got back from the last feeding of the day and the baby was running and bucking and feeling good.
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 I spent a lot of time trying to paste a picture.  Anyone have any ideas on how to do it?
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[neva]

LOL Kathryn…I am getting really attached to that little guy! I’ve tried to attach a picture but it won’t stick. I’ll try again later. I wish you could all see him…yes, I think you’re right Kathryn, he’s a momma’s boy.
Sherrie, ***** are a lot more work than calves are. All babies, no matter human or animal, are special and cute.
Ican, my mom is trying to justify that is okay to gamble. She knows it’s costing too much money and too much wasted time but, I know too well, it’s hard to stop. Her savings account is linked to my house account (because she put me as an owner in case she dies)and I can see her taking out money every month even though she has a very good income with no bills. At least she has a lot of good activities going on and the gambling is only one or two days a week and an out of town weekend every couple of months. One of her best friends quit gambling a year ago. Maybe mom will turn to her if she wants to quit.
Libbie, everyone uses different means to gamble so only you know what will really help you in your recovery. Self exclusion is fantastic but also protect yourself from accessing money is a double insurance policy. It’s sure kept me from losing too much when I’ve went over to the gambling side.
I’m going to try to add a picture of the calf from last night…if I can figure it out.

[neva]

RG, hope you got through your GI-NORMOUS urges somehow. One thing I liked about the AA book is that when someone was having a hard time, they could call their sponsor and meet for coffee and it would make a huge difference in their recovery.  But here at GT we all live in different parts of the world so that’s not possible. After the weekends over, look back and be proud of yourself. Monday’s used to be dread to face my checking account damage (I used to lose track of how many checks I wrote and for how much), shame that I gambled the weekend away while my co-workers talked about what exciting things they did and frantic of how I was going to buy groceries and get by to next payday.  So, Running Girl find pride and joy in the last 3 weeks of your life because you made it happen. 
Today I will not step foot in a casino…that’s the key for me.
 

[neva]

Congratulations on your clean time.  As someone who has many relapses over the year, the best thing you can do for yourself is to put barriers in place where you can’t access money for gambling.  That way you don’t have to fight the urges because there isn’t an option to gamble.  Just letting you know because making sure I can’t get money for gambling has made recovery a lot easier and I think it will for you too.

[neva]

I’m just checking in on you. Sounds like your husband dressing up looks good on him.  Nothing wrong with looking like a preacher!  Hope you’re hanging in there and fighting the good fight against gambling. 

[neva]

Glad you had a wonderful vacation!  The idea of ‘lolling’ sounds relaxing.  That’s something that’s impossible when gambling is part of our lives.  You deserve every good thing you’re experiencing.  Hope you don’t get a culture shock when fixing dinner, doing laundry and other household tasks have to be done…just mentally go back to the feeling of a relaxing massage.  ahhh

[neva]

I’m thinking of you today too.  Funerals (celebrations of life) are tough but closure is so important for the family.  Hugs, Sherry

[neva]

Kathryn, there is no chance the male will be a momma’s boy because she won’t accept him at all…she knocked him to the ground when he came around her. The baby girl is all she cares about. I’ve learned that a good mother some***** doesn’t love all her babies! The calves are a little over 24 hours old and both are doing good.  We have 27 calves and 9 more left to be born.  If one of the babies doesn’t make it, my husband will graft this baby on.  If not, we’ll be bottle feeding 4 ***** a day for the next 6 weeks. 
Vera, my husband is the farmer and I only help with some things. Next month the cows will be turned out to range and my husband will be putting up hay instead of feeding and calving.  Yes, I feel bad for my mom and you are right, she has to find help from someone besides me.  Nobody could have convinced me to quit gambling until I was ready and willing myself.  I have a migraine so I unplugged the phones, took a pill and laid down.  Mom was frantic that she couldn’t get ahold of me so she drove by the casino…I live just as close so she could have driven by my house but her real worry was that I was gambling and I hadn’t told her. I know the losses are finally affecting her but she still doesn’t think she ***** to quit.  At 77 years old, her motto is ‘I can’t take it with me’ so that’s her excuse to keep gambling.
I can only work on my own recovery.  I’ve limited my time with my mom because she talks too much about gambling and our habit, for at least 12 years was gambling every weekend. So, for my own protection, I avoid mom.  She has plenty of other friends that will meet her at the casino.  I hope my mom has many more healthy years but I gambling saps life’s joy and I hope she makes a change.
 

[neva]

Lizbeth, that’s terrible that anyone would break into your home.  I heard there are alarms you can buy that go inside your windows so if someone tries to open them, or break them, a loud noise or alarm goes off and scares them away.  It might be worth checking into unless you can afford a real security system.  You need to feel safe in your own home.
 

[neva]

It’s great to see that there has been a lot of posting activity this week. I’ll read and post tonight or in the morning when I have more time…but wanted to post while I had a few extra minutes.
We had a set of twin calves this morning.  We rarely have twins so it’s kind of exciting.  They are small…about the size of a medium dog.  Momma cow had a little girl, cleaned her off and let her nurse and then the baby boy was born and she was too tired to take care of him.  My husband put him in the calf warmer (a big ******* covered bin with warm air circulating). I ran up at lunch and he was curled up with his big eyes staring at me when I lifted the lid.  My husband took his lunch at 3 so he could bottle feed him.  I went up after work and rubbed him down to get his blood circulating.  He loved it.  I tried to walk away but the little thing bellowed, jumped up and ran after me.  I’m getting ready to go back up and bottle feed him at 7:00pm.  Can’t wait to be moved in our house so we don’t have to drive back and forth.
Mom called me at work and said her friends went to the casino yesterday.  She was ‘up’, or so she said, so she went to her favorite machine and couldn’t do a thing. I don’t know how much she lost but I think it was a lot. I felt so sorry for her and she said ‘it’s best to not even go in there.’  I know that feeling too well.  All the expectations before and during and then the disappointment and regret after. 
Every time I walk into a casino, I walk out a loser.  I hope we all make the choice to not walk into a casino, not sign on to any gambling site and not wager a single bet…and we’ll all be winners.
 

[neva]

It’s so wonderful to see all the posts on this April thread from so many.  April is a great month so far.

[neva]

Good to see a post from you Hetty. Glad to hear you are setting up barriers that help you. The dog sounds like a nice addition to your family.  I love puppies…except for the chewing up things.  Remember that puppy wants your undivided attention so don’t give a second of it to gambling!

[neva]

I’m in too. Thanks for the April Fool’s reminder…I won’t let my sister get me this year! I’ll be ready for her.

[neva]

I’m very happy for you making it through the long weekend without gambling!  I’m also anti-social so I know how you feel.  I tried to make an excuse to avoid going to my in-laws for Easter but didn’t want to disappoint them so I went…and as usual had a wonderful time.  Don’t know why it’s so hard to get out and about…maybe all those years in front of a slot machine stunted our ability to look forward to being with people.  Maybe the time will eventually come where we enjoy being with family and friends and not want to waste time in a casino. That’s what we’re working for.

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