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Thank you all for thinking of me! I am doing okay. I’ve been mostly gamble free the past 4 months. 2013 has been an up and down year and I’m ready for 2014 to be a new start. The ups have been building a new house, having a great group of girl friends for support and being blessed with a wonderful family. The downs have been not making it the year without gambling and my marriage…but both are not lost.

I’m hoping to start posting more. Also, I am not playing any free slots anymore. There are some things that I have no control over in my life but gambling is a choice and today my choice is to not gamble.

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I didn’t finish my post, thought it disappeared and see it posted without me!
Carole, it sounds like your life is falling into place.  I’m so happy that you have another beautiful cat and are finding peace.
Libbie, so happy you had a good time on your trip and that you made it home without gambling!  Major victory.
Vera, life is full of stressors.  If we could cleanse each one from our life before another one emerges, we might not feel so overwhelmed or damaged.  Life goes on…good or bad.
Hope everyone has a good gamble free day.  Sherry
 

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I haven’t been posting or reading because I’ve been going through some major personal problems and could barely function last week.  Life is full of ups and downs.  I pray I make it through this one.  Haven’t gambled.  Libbie, I haven’t been doing the cleanse because I’ve eaten very little…that is the only upside of this.

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I’m so happy for you Cat!  I could have been right here at 10 months with you…and I regret that I’m not.  I’m celebrating with you and proud of you.  Keep doing what you’re doing and have reap the rewards. Sherry

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Don’t lay too low Libbie. You need to be posting especially when you are gambling.  I do the same thing though…avoid posting when I’m in action.  I hate how this addiction is so hard to break so just making it so I can’t get to cash seems to be the best insurance for me.  At least I can’t have any really big losses that way.
I’m going back on the lemon drink tomorrow morning.  I think I undid all the benefits this weekend but I’m looking forward to starting again.
If working helps keep gambling thoughts away, maybe working more hours is the answer.  I’ve thought of that before.  Even a minimum wage job would pay big if it kept us from gambling!
 

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How much do lighthouses sell for? I am not a collector of anything anymore.
My daughter and granddaughters just left so I’ve been trying to get my house back in order and then maybe take a nap…just maybe. They’ll be back (this time my son-in-law will be coming too) next weekend but I wish there was at least a weekend in between.
I’m going to make the most of having today off.

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I didn’t realize it was Sept 1st until I logged in this evening.  We have a 3-day weekend and I was worried I might gamble so I stuck all the cash my husband had given me in the bank, asked my daughter to come over and the weekend has been a busy blur with lots of cooking and cleaning up after the granddaughters.  It’s  been fun.  They will leave in the morning so that will give me some rest.  My daughter said they will be back next weekend too.  Next weekend will  be just as busy I’m sure.  
My daughter motivated me to go through the contents of our storage unit and sort everything so we can clear out the garage.  It wore me out.  I even said at one point lets stop for today and we’ll get back to it when we can’ but she wouldn’t hear of it.  LOL  We got it done!  Lots of stuff to donate, lots to dump and still lots to take care of later (like pictures and newspaper articles). 
Libby, I’ll get back on the lemon cleanse after Monday.  I’ve got dinner on, my daughter’s family went to visit a friend so I have a few minutes of quiet before the dinner chaos starts.  ha ha
Hope everyone is having a gamble free and enjoyable weekend too.

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I was signing in to update on the August pact and here it is September.  I’ve had a happy houseful of granddaughter’s this weekend.  It’s a 3-day weekend for me and I was a little worried about it but the family showed up and no time to even think of gambling!  Happy September to everyone.  I agree, it’s nice to see Larry posting again.

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Bettie, so happy you didn’t gamble. That would be like a double slap in the face for you.  I think us gamblers are really sensitive and get our feelings hurt easily.  You sound like a fun loving beautiful person and I’d love to spend time with you!  We can’t make others treat us like we want but we can do what’s right for ourselves and you are doing that!  Keep taking care of you by not gambling.  I’m proud of you!

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That’s a lot of figurines.  You probably have to take a picture and describe each one don’t you?  Lots of work but keeps you out of trouble.  I think having something important to do would make the weekends easier. Hope your out of town family doesn’t lead to gambling.  I know my ‘habit’ or routine was to hit the casinos on the 3.5 hour trip over and back so I rarely go visit the kids and grandkids.  They can come to my house now.

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I replaced ‘other stuff’ like finishing the ironing and washing our windows. The windows I hosed off look better than the ones I squeegeed. Anyone know an easy way to clean out side windows?  They look great until the sun hits them.  Thanks Vera and Libbie…I know the routine well and that’s why it’s so crazy that I would even want to go there.  But I do know the longer I go without gambling the urges become less severe.  I just hate fighting the urges.  I’ve asked my husband to not give me cash.  He doesn’t get it…and if he does he must be trying to make it hard for me.

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I’m insane.  I know I don’t want to gamble.  I’m sitting in my sanctuary (home) drinking coffee and enjoying my life…yet, escaping to the casino keeps popping up.  My husband gave me cash again, even though I keep asking him to deposit in our account.  My world here at home is peaceful and comfortable–so much different than the casino world so why do those ‘thoughts’ keep popping up?  It’s not even noon yet and I’ve got so much done but I’m not content to just enjoy it. Finally a weekend with no company, not a houseful to **** for or clean up after but I can’t sit back and relax. This is crazy!

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That’s great news!  Thanks for coming to update and give hope to the rest of us that we too can find our path to a gamble free life.  You deserve all the great things happening to you!  Sherry
 

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It is funny how we are never okay when we’re gambling but keep getting drawn back to.  I wonder if they are hypnotizing us because we’re all smart people who are confused to how we became addicted to wasting our money, time and life…doesn’t make any sense.  Stay strong R2C and this time will be different ODAAT.

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Cat that’s great that you might be able to retire in 2 years!  I’ve been thinking about how nice it could be to retire but I still have 8-9 years before full retirement age.  Hope I can stick it out that long.  I’ve noticed a few people ******** down the years for retirement and once they get there then they keep working. Maybe knowing you can leave if you want makes working a little easier.  I’ve also gained too much weigh and wish there was a quick or easy fix for that as well as for gambling addictions.  I’d love to walk with you and Vera but am happy to know we’re all walking together in cyber friendship.

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