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I really do feel you on this man. It’s exam week for me and I can’t focus on my Stidies, I’m a walking zombie. Last week at this time I was in a good place , had savings again. Broke even. and had some profits too. I knew the demon would come out again. I keep beating myself up for this! Why didn’t I stop while I was up. Why did I repeat the same mistake again when I said I wouldn’t. Because the addiction was stronger than my willpower. This is a real illness man. we need to stop it before it gets out of hand. I really believe in the reading ”this too shall pass” time will heal us, and we need to appreciate the small things. Before I lost my last 2000 on Monday I received a call from the doctor as I have had the flu for 6 weeks(never happened before) I gotta. Call before class telling me to come in ASAP after recievibg my blood work. At that moment my world stopped.. I completely forgot about the 12k I had just lost to make me in debt, I thought wiw what if there is something really bad happening to me with my health and I rushed to the doc … only for him to tell me I am fine and might have had strep throat but my body fought it off by itself. I then went to the casino and lost a couple more thousand in a half hour . im Having trouble sleeping this week too and cannot even focus on my studies.. I have lost way more in the past and I dunno why I can’t shake this loss off also, keep replaying it in my head. I will be going to speak with a gambling councellor this week. I do suggest you open up to someone, maybe your best friend, family member or gf.. you cannot keep this inside of you man, it will eat you alive. It will feel good to talk about it, and know you are not alone. The magnitude of our losses are nowhere compared to some… with working for a couple of months we can make our loss back, and will realize it takes hard work to make money. “I believe in hard work, not luck”. Never look back once you beat this.. let’s get our lives back.. our happiness… I know we can do it.
I just posted her the other day for the first time also. And I feel your pain. We always chase our losses in hopes that we will get our next big win again but most of the time
It never comes, and when it does, we lose it eventually anyways. that’s what I’ve come to realize. We will always give the money we won back from greed of wanting more, but I think it’s the rush we like more than the money. I’ve been in and off from casinos since 18, 28 now. I stopped for years and start up from triggers in my life. In the past 60 days I’ve won and lost over 50 thousand, after taking a trip to Vegas and losing 15 thousand in a weekend, came back to my
City chasing that loss. I actually broke even about 3 times in the past 60 days, every time I broke even I thought oh great m back at square one, I’ll be smarter now and treat this like a job and go make a couple hundred a day.. then I find myself firing 500-1000$ hands of blackjack in a matter of 20-30 minutes of being there. Sometimes I will lose, run it up to 10-15-29j and lose it all again, I never know when to walk and I then hate myself for days and weeks following asking why couldn’t
I have left when up/even. This is a serious illness that we have and gambling has no bottom, just when you think it’s rock bottom, it can get worse with this sickness, there is always another loan or credit card you can get to gamble with and my friend you don’t want to let it get there.Last Thursday I broke even again from my 60 day binge, was so happy on cloud 9 and had no urge to go back. Till Saturday. Told myself have better bankroll management , leave with couple hundred profit. Well you know what happens next. Lost over 12000 in a matter of 2 days, in less than one hour per trip. Have now banned myself from both casinos and am faced with line of credit debt now. Everything was all good 48 hours ago. This is the problem with our minds. It is never enough. There is no such thing as a winner at a casino or sports betting in your case, if wr win big, we will gamble more, and eventually lose everything . Be happy you are aware this is a problem at your age. Not when you are 40 years old, married, successful, kids , family, business. People lose everything bro. And most of all, lose their self respect, dignity, mental health all in the process. It’s a vicious cycle. We win, we feel like god, we think we will win again, we lose.. then self hate and depression comes, week goes by we feel like we can gamble again, we win big, we are on top of the world again, lose because we won now we have income to gamble again, lose it.. depression.. self hate, all over again. This is a dark world and it will be a sad ling lonely life if we continue. We will never enjoy the important things in life . Please take care of yourself and ban yourself from sports sites, bookies, go to counselling like I will do this week. You are 25, imagine 5 years of working hard? Making even 40-50k a year, you can have 300,000 dollars or more by the time you are a young 30 years old. But I will promise you one thing. Keep going and betting, and that 12000 you have just lost will have a couple more 0’s at the end of it. God bless bro we are in this together and there is hope for us.Hey Paul . Reading this story had me choked up. It was very very painful to read every word of this post. I feel for you so heavy and although my gambling was nowhere near the magnitude of your story, we still all have felt that feeling of big losses (mine only being in the thousands) it is all relative. We always search for that’s next big win to break even. I’ve broke even many times and kept going until I’m in the hole again. I have no banned from both casino in my city ajd today is day one for me also. I hope we can get through this together and rebuild a normal life with working hard to make money and appreciate the little things in life . So many wasted hours in casinos , so much depressing and
Anxiety and self hatred from my gambling addiction, loss of girlfriends, trust in friends and family
Members. And most of all self respect and dignity. I am rooting for you Paul we are in this together and we are still young . We have many years ahead of us to make things right. God blessHey Daniel reading your post sounds very similar to my situation and I feel your pain. I have been an addict to things my whole life. Since 18 I been gambling / booze/ drugs / anything that gives me a rush. I also live at home rent free and honestly I think that’s why I gamble so heavy knowing there won’t be any reporcussions of being homeless, not having food to eat etc. I go years without booze/drugs/gambling and then something triggers me and I fall right back into the home and I’m talking heavy binges. This past 2 months I have won and lost over 50k, every penny to my name. Even used my line of credit yesterday. This was my final straw. I banned myself from one casino on Sunday after losing 9k in less than an hour playing blackjack. And then skipped class yesterday to go gamble at the other casino and lost 2000 in about an hour. That was the last of the $ in my name. I’m a full time student and work part time at a low paying job and will take me over 800 hours of hard work to make back what I lost in a couple of hours. We need to put this in perspective how hard it is to earn a dollar. I have now self banned from both casinos. Today is my day one of being gamble free. As long as we are alive and breathing we have a chance to make things right and rebound from our losses. I used to also do a lot of coke and the way I stopped is whenever I was tempted I would think of the feeling of the next day, hearing the birds chirping after not sleeping, the anxiety and depression that came
For days after. I am trying to do the same
For gambling . I never want to feel this way again and I’m
Hoping as the days go on, my mind will be at peace with my losses (probably well over 200k since the time I’ve been 18, 28 now) the good news is we are young, we have time
To make money, and remember don’t lose sight of the important things in life like friends, family, love, as cliche as it is.. the stuff money cannot buy. Hang in there man, we are all in this together . I’m rooting for you brother. Stay strong-Stephen