[MurrS7]

Wens iedereen het beste.

[MurrS7]

Благодаря за публикациите момчета. Почти се срамувам да публикувам тук сега Честно казано след последните публикации. Мисля, че нямам какво повече да кажа. Загубих всичко и най -вероятно следващия месец ще бъда изгонен от апартамента си и ще загубя колата си. Постъпващи и получавани сметки от картите ми, защото няма налични средства. Всичко, което мога да кажа. Дали това е жив кошмар и ад на земята. И бих искал да мога „просто да спра“ или „да не направя същата грешка“, но това е чудовище. Всичко, което отне, беше 2 седмици, за да бъдеш на върха на света … да загубиш всичко и да нямаш храна за ядене и да фалираш. Внимавайте момчета. Това е счупен рекорд и губя битката

[MurrS7]

Thanks for the posts guys. I almost feel ashamed to post here now
To be honest after the last posts. I don’t think I have much to say any more. I lost everything and most likely be kicked out of my
Condo next month, and lose my car. Bills coming in and getting declined from my
Cards because there is no available funds. All
I can say. Is it’s a living nightmare and hell on earth. And I wish I could “just stop” or “not make the same mistake” but it’s a monster. All
It
Took was 2 weeks to be on top
Of
The world… to losing everything and not having food to eat and having to go bankrupt. Take care guys. It’s a broken record now
and I am losing the battle

[MurrS7]

Bedankt voor de berichten jongens. Ik schaam me bijna om hier nu te posten Eerlijk gezegd na de laatste posts. Ik denk dat ik niet veel meer te zeggen heb. Ik ben alles kwijtgeraakt en wordt hoogstwaarschijnlijk volgende maand uit mijn Condo gegooid, en verlies mijn auto. Rekeningen die binnenkomen en geweigerd worden van mijn Kaarten omdat er geen geld beschikbaar is. Alles wat ik kan zeggen. Is het een levende nachtmerrie en de hel op aarde. En ik wou dat ik "gewoon kon stoppen" of "niet dezelfde fout kon maken", maar het is een monster. Het duurde slechts 2 weken om op de top van de wereld te zijn… om alles te verliezen en geen eten te hebben en failliet te gaan. Pas op jongens. Het is nu een gebroken record en ik verlies de strijd

[MurrS7]

Момчета, въпреки че площадът е много суров. Има малко истина в публикацията му. Той е прав. Защо не си помагам? Защо не предавам финанси? Обвинявам ли моя GF, че е напуснал? Не: и аз бих ме напуснал. На път съм да загубя повече от $. Загубих ума си, моя gf, всяка стотинка до името ми. Вероятно скоро ще загубя работата си. Може да се наложи да се върна при родителите си. Защо не научих? Защото наркоманът в мен не искаше да спре. Изчистих дълга си. Качих 60 хиляди. Бях в облак девет. Щях да отида да си взема кучето утре. Отмених това. Не ми остана нищо. Визата ми е максимална (23 500). Моята кредитна линия (10 000), над чернова 2500. Дължа на приятеля си 16 000. Предстои наем, плащане на кола. Животът е жив ад. Единственият път, когато спя, животът е наред. Когато се събудя, живея в ада на земята. Трябва да си помогна сам. Трябва да направя промени, да поставя бариери. Защото хората няма да съжаляват за някой, който не се опитва само 1 нещо да промени .. Защо? Защото съм наркоман. А един наркоман не иска да направи само 1 промяна, защото не може да залага. Мислех, че дъното губи 30 000 през лятото. Бързо напред, 50 000 за 3 дни. Не искам да го приема. Беше понеделник в 30 000. Снощи пропускам 1 точка на 5 мача, за да спечеля 75 000. Не спа, не яде, не работи. В момента няма за какво да се живее. Рехабилитацията е най -добрият залог, но се надявам да успея, преди да дойде това време, тъй като с тази скорост, мога да умра всеки ден сега. Бог да благослови всички. Обичай винаги. Стивън

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Guys although plaza is very harsh. There is some truth to his post. He’s right. Why aren’t I helping myself? Why arent I handing finances over? Do I blame my gf for leaving? Nope: I would leave me too. I’m about to lose more than $. I lost my mind, my gf, every penny to my name. Will probably lose my job soon. I might have to move back in with my parents. Why didn’t I learn? Because the addict in me didn’t want to stop. I cleared my debt. I was up 60k. I was on cloud nine. I was about to go get my
Dog tomorrow. I have cancelled that. I have nothing left. My visa is maxed (23,500). My line of credit (10,000) , over draft 2500. Owe my friend 16k. Rent coming, car payment. Life is a living hell. When I am asleep, is the only time life is ok. When I wake up, I am living in hell on earth. I need to help myself. I need to make changes, put barriers in place. Because people won’t feel sorry for someone who doesn’t try just 1 thing to change..

Why? Because I am an addict. And an addict doesn’t want to make just 1 change, because they he can’t gamble. I thought rock bottom was losing 30k in a summer. Fast forward, 50k in 3 days. I don’t want to accept it. It was at 30k Monday. Last night I miss 1 point on a 5 game parlay to win 75k. Didn’t sleep, didn’t eat, didn’t work. There is not much to live for right now. Rehab is the best bet, but i hope I make it before that time comes, cuz at this rate, I can die any day now. God bless to all.

Love, always.

Stephen

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Jongens, hoewel plaza erg hard is. Er zit een kern van waarheid in zijn post. Hij heeft gelijk. Waarom help ik mezelf niet? Waarom draag ik geen financiën over? Geef ik mijn vriendin de schuld voor het vertrek? Nee: ik zou mij ook verlaten. Ik sta op het punt meer dan $ te verliezen. Ik verloor mijn verstand, mijn vriendin, elke cent op mijn naam. Zal waarschijnlijk binnenkort mijn baan verliezen. Misschien moet ik weer bij mijn ouders gaan wonen. Waarom heb ik het niet geleerd? Omdat de verslaafde in mij niet wilde stoppen. Ik heb mijn schuld vereffend. Ik stond op 60k. Ik was in de wolken. Ik stond op het punt om morgen mijn hond te gaan halen. Ik heb dat geannuleerd. Ik heb niets meer over. Mijn visum is maximaal (23.500). Mijn kredietlimiet (10.000), meer dan 2500. Ik ben mijn vriend 16k schuldig. Huur komt eraan, betaling auto. Het leven is een levende hel. Als ik slaap, is de enige keer dat het leven oké is. Als ik wakker word, leef ik in de hel op aarde. Ik moet mezelf helpen. Ik moet veranderingen aanbrengen, barrières opwerpen. Omdat mensen geen medelijden hebben met iemand die niet probeert om maar 1 ding te veranderen. Waarom? Omdat ik een verslaafde ben. En een verslaafde wil niet zomaar 1 wissel doen, omdat hij niet kan gokken. Ik dacht dat het dieptepunt 30k verloor in een zomer. Snel vooruit, 50k in 3 dagen. Ik wil het niet accepteren. Het was maandag om 30k. Gisteravond mis ik 1 punt op een parlay van 5 wedstrijden om 75k te winnen. Niet geslapen, niet gegeten, niet gewerkt. Er is op dit moment niet veel om voor te leven. Afkicken is de beste gok, maar ik hoop dat ik het haal voor die tijd komt, want in dit tempo kan ik nu elke dag sterven. God zegene iedereen. Altijd liefde. Stephen

[MurrS7]

I read this many years ago when I was in the wrath and hell of gambling. 2018. I experienced it then an I experienced it now. And trust me, if I have access to more .. I will lose it all until there is nothing left. Gambling has no bottom…

“You have not hit rock bottom yet. A long term gambler who struggled with addiction once told me: “just when you thought you couldn’t go any lower, a gambling addiction can bring you a new low that you didn’t even know could exist.” The next step is to take out loans and gamble that away. Then begging/borrowing/stealing money to fund your addiction. The pit really is bottomless. If you continue you will lose your family, friends, partner and job. Most importantly, you will lose your sanity and everything good about who you are. True rock bottom awaits should you keep chasing your losses. Stop now before it’s too late.”

[MurrS7]

Thanks guys..
I don’t know what to say. Rehab starts in may.. I’ve maxed out all
My finances again. In the hole for nearly 50k in 3 days.. I haven’t processed it and I can’t stop going deeper.. this monster has full control on me.. I’m losing hope..

It’s like money means
Nothing. Anymore… before I would be mad at losing 500$.. then 5000… now add another 0’on. 3 days ago i had
Cleared all debt.. and had savings again. The worst part is.. I am now dead inside.. I can’t eat, sleep; workout. And I am
Not even doing stuff at work. Next I will lose my job. My gf dumped me last night but I’m trying to get her back. She doesn’t understand addiction.. she doesn’t know how
I can go to GA.. talk about Gamblignwitg her and then go right back
To it.. I try to tell her it’s not me.. it’s the addictive part of my Brain. She said it’s an excuse and to just stop. I’ve lost my life. In 72 hours. Just blew out another 10k of credit . It’s hell on earth guys. I wish this upon no one. I hope I make it

[MurrS7]

Hello
All. I’m sorry I didn’t post again this week,
Once again I have lost it all. I am going to go to a 21 day treatment centre. This is too hard to beat with GA alone. I have lost a years salary in a night and now
I owe my friend cuz I used his winnings without telling him. Same old story. Cleared all debt and should have been so grateful. Nope.. lost it all and more.. and owe now..
got no words. God bless . This is evil

[MurrS7]

Meg,

It
Is always nice to hear from you. And
You are not a loser, you are powerful more than you will ever know. As compulsive
Gamblers we know we can’t talk down to someone, tell them to try harder, tell them love and support can’t help them. Lord knows I got through some of my darkest days with your love and support; and many others on here that gave me the same advise. Someone that doesn’t understand addiction will tell us to “try harder” “just stop” “you know what you need to do” if only it was that simple. This group has helped me beyond words, and although I slipped up, lost, won, won, lost. I’m still fighting another day. I’m always wishing you the best in your recovery, and know I have your back every step of the way. You are worth it, you are loved, and you are strong. Don’t let the words of certain members on here, affect your recovery. I post when I feel I need to, not for others, but for me. Take care and god bless.

[MurrS7]

And by the way plaza, it has worked in the past as I was clean for 1.5 years. I wish you well my friend, hope you find some love in your life

[MurrS7]

Hey plaza thanks for your harsh but realistic comments man. I’m sorry I haven’t posted here every day as I am super busy with work. I hope it doesn’t affect your life in any way by me posting it not- but if you are losing sleep over my Life then my apologies. I am in meetings 2x per week ajd have not gambled in 6 days. I am not looking back and staying busy each day working out, healthy eating, spending time with girlfriend and family more. Things that matter. Life is very busy right now and I’m sorry if I can post everyday. Appreciate all of everyone’s comments , love , and support. Some a bit more blunt and harsh than others. Relapsing is a part of the game and I will never talk down to someone on this forum or tell them to try harder. Especially someone who experiences gambling addiction should relate. Take care all. I’ll post when I can. God bless

[MurrS7]

Thank you guys for the endless support. I am
In meetings twice a week and I have not played casino since Monday. I did place a sports bet on Tuesday but usually I would go to the casino after and gamble all night, I am taking baby steps and taking it day by day. My mind is in a better place. I will continue to fight the good fight and I thank everyone for their love and support. I will not let gambling win. I am
Stronger than gambling. I am on my road to recovery.

[MurrS7]

Hello all,

Thanks for all the love and support and encouragement to stop. You know this addiction is so evil and it’s such a war every day. I have been gambling so much and I had a very big sports win. Got myself completely out of debt .. why couldn’t I stop? Because as mentioned it’s never enough. I lost it all and got it back so many times, with more profit, but just could not stop and win the war. I have enrolled in meetings again, and blocked myself from the sites I used… it’s a nightmare to be honest. I have ruined my relationship with my family, gf, work, mental and physical health. I have turned to alcohol and drugs , sleepless nights, underperformance at work.. lost so much time spending it with my loved ones. Become a liar living a double life to gamble.. for what? Money? Clearly it’s more than that. It’s all gone again, it’s really the hardest time right now.. trying to quit gambling , substances.. at once.. during a pandemic. Haven’t worked out or eaten clean. In weeks. The past 30 days have been living hell.. it feels like years.. so much damage in such a short time. Today is my day one. I can. I wil.. this will kill me. Take care for now . Sorry I don’t update as mhch.. I’m just ashamed of this hell on earth. I hope I make it..

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