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Meg I wish. I chased the 4 and I am -8 today. I am so embarrassed, ashamed , patgetic. I can’t tell anyone. i Never though I would take it here again. Truly. I am sorry 

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I’m sorry and I thank you all for your support, but I am chasing now
.
I am chasing my losses, I am caught in the vortex again.
Going to GA again this week.
Got peeled for another 4K of credit today.
Well
My head is not right
That’s for sure.
Very dark day

I’m sorry

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I’ve failed. I’ve failed all of you, myself . I failed this so bad and I feel like a piece of scum. Trash. I just can’t beliefe it. How life can be so great yesterday and today feeling like I just want to roll into a ball and cry. I just can’t make sense of it. I just cant

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I’ve just gambled tonight after drinking excessive amount of booze. I had the Urge. I’ve just lost 4000$ in 1 hour. I don’t know how to feel. I feel sad, alone, depressed, like I’m in a nightmare. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what todo I don’t know who to tell. I am pretty much just wanting to die almost. Basically . I can’t believe this. I am so ashamed . I just want to Cry . Quit my job. What a pethetjc low life I am

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almost 2 months. I saw you relapsed and I am sorry:( I been there 100 times. Don’t worry, we are human. There is a quote and it says “if you live life long enough , eventually Life will teach you

how to live it” . Keep going Jen.. were all here for you. 

To a gamble free life.

love❤️

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I got the feels with that post meg. You have helped

me in so many ways as well and I never want you to

forget that. The amount we lost was the same, the duration 

of our losses was the same, and of course, the way we felt

after that binge was the same as well. We been g free

for the same amount of time roughly also. Im not going to lie, I almost gambled the other day. But I didn’t. I didn’t even try to, j just though about it. I got stranded at a beach party and had to take a taxi back in which cost me 650$ . I also spent 850$ at this event with no recollection of doing so. It really hurt. But here I am still alive and gamble free. As long as I am alive, there is a chance to change and make things right. I am an

addict to all things that give me a thrill. And I need to stop. But it’s hard to do all at once. I’m so happy to hear your family and baby are doing well and you are in such a better place. Just imagine in August 2020 when we look Back at this. It will approach quicker than we know . And we can put this dark time behind. 

Keep going meg. Keep doing this for your family , but most importantly .. take a good loook in the mirror

rifgt now… do that for her. She is truly the most important.

love❤️

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We cannot look back and dwell on what could have been or what we could have done different, but we sure as heck can not make the same mistake we did gambling. Our minds will slowly move on from our losses and we will live every day till our last breath on earth gamble free, that is the mind set we must have to continue this beautiful life. Your family and child, means so much more than any amount of money, and you have  much time to rebuild with some amazing people in your corner, including myself. I believe in you and I believe we will look back on this in a year, with money saved, a clear positive mind. And a gamble free life. I’m rooting for you and I know you’re rooting for me too. Let’s keep fightimy, keep going, and growing, our bank accounts. And also our gamble free days. God bless!! Onwards and upwards. Never look

back. 

Day 51.

9 days until 2 months sober. Yes I will treat this just like a drug, because gambling ruined my life temporarily just like drugs and alcohol did At one point. 

got To keep fighting.

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Meg amazing! Day 46 I believe for me. Let’s goo!!!!

Onward and upwards !!!

Bless!!

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sorry meg been so busy haven’t checked in a bit. Day 46 today. No urges but yes I still think of the losses, I’m just working hard to pay off my debts. I treated myself to a trip to Miami at the end of the month , only cost me 600$ round trip flight and hotel for 4 nights. Need some time away to recharge, haven’t travelled this summer for the first time in many years due to the losses, told myself just live life a little bit and pay off debts slowly. Debt is about 12k right now… hope can still get to 0 by my 30th bday on december 17. I don’t think about gambling at all, I do think about money a lot though. Funny thing is … I’ve had lot of money and I’ve been broke and now I’m in debt, I didn’t feel much different inside except I was a lot less stressed out with bills and having fun etc. I never been in debt since I went to college.. long ago.. anyways. How are you holding up, thanks for checking in, truly means a lot to hve slmeone care for me. I hope you’re going strong and it’s great we haven’t gambled in almost 2 months. i hope your job is good. Family is great, and life’s is happy because you deserve all that. Money comes money goes, we must be grateful for what we have, things money can’t buy.23 know we will get the money we lost back through working hard, that’s no question. In time, this will all be an expensive lesson and distant memory. Let’s keeP on going! Much love meg!

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I forgot to reply. Day 36 gamble free. I haven’t gotten my debt down because I’ve been enjoying life a bit too much and spending a bit more than I should going out with friends… but you know what, I kinda am just enjoying summer… if I go out

and spend a few hundred on dinner and drinks, at least I didn’t lise it to the casino without having a good time lol. I know it’s kind of a bad way to look At it because I am

still in debt. But I’m making decent money now with my personal training. Signed my 6 client

this week. Once sept hits I can prob be debt free by December (my 30th bday) it’s a small price to pay only 4 months to be debt free and never loook back. I hate gambling, I can’t believe how bad it was for the last 11 months. So many sleepless nights and so much depression over such an evil thing.. it should be a crime for those casinos to be open honestly. How are you doing? How is the job and kid? Family ok? Please let me know and let’s keep goinf strong for a g free life. One day at a time. Much love

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thanks meg I’m pretty down this week but trying to stay positive. I didn’t gamble because I remember the way it ruined my life right now and

i think that’s a worse feeling than I feel after losing A phone. I never want to feel the pain of a gambling loss/binge as long as I’m alive. Thanks for checking in it really means a lot. Have to grind harder. Have to stay positive. Life must go on.. a gamble free life must go on. Much love. How are you doing? How is work? Keep going meg; we got this.

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Must keep going strong. I had an unfortunate weekend where I got my phone stolen and had to spent 1000 to get a new one in a new plan. I also spent 900$ in one night partying. I was so mad st myself when I woke up. I had my debt to about 13k.. now it’s back up to 15k.. when it rains it pours. Have to learn from this. I am done with booze. I almost gambled today to try to get that 3k back… I resisted though. 🙁

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Day 23 gamble free. Got two new personal training clients. Up to 6 now… 4 more to go to return around 75k a year. Helping people reach their goals, staying busy.. finding purpose and making money the legit and right way. Gambling is a lie. It was the darkest times but also the happiest times when I won. The losses out weigh the wins and the sorrow out weighs the happiness I felt from gambling. I will work hard growing my business. I will not gamble, I will never look back. Almost one month gamble free. I can and I will beat this for good.

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Consider yourself lucky you only lost casino winnings man. What you did there is called chasing a loss, us gamblers know that feeling all too well. Trust me it can get way worse if you don’t stop, my story last month was similar but higher wages, it always becomes higher wages the more time you the longer you gamble. Got my hours cut at work, went to casino with 3000$, lost it in 30 min, call my bank to increase limit to 6000, take another 3000 lose that in 1 hour. Drive to branch withdrawal another 4000, go back to casino, break even, get greedy, lose the whole 10k. Next day wake up take another 3k go back. Lose it, go back same night with another 3k. Lose it, by the way.. I was playing with my line of credit for some
Of that, now I owe the bank 14k. Please don’t take it there man, you sound like you have a good job, gambling is not
A job, it’s not a career, imagine we are just hoping that we make
Money from the spin of a wheel or
The flip of a card.. what kind of purpose in life is that? Get your money the right way bro, work hard, save , grind, find purpose and quit gambling today. Right now. The story I just told you is smalll compared to some also, people lose 100 of thousands of
Dollars, they lose their homes, their businesses, their families all to this sick addiction. It can get worse if you don’t
Stop now, I never thought I would
Be in debt and lose as much as I did, but like you, I chased my losses and never got them back till
I had no access to anymore money. I wish you all
The best , I suggest you put blocks on the account so you’re not tempted to gamble… the addiction is evil, it will ruin your life very fast. Trust me.

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That sick feeling you felt I have felt over 500 times in 10 years. I have won big, lost bigger, won it all back, broke even, then lost it all again and more of my own more times that I can *****. Trust me you are not alone and you can be gamble free if you
Truly want it. I am day 22 gamble free after a -17k binge in 48 hours putting me -14k into debt with the bank. That’s the worst it’s gotten for me and I know it’s nothing compared to some but it all relative- I’m not rich. I feel your pain and if you stop now like I am trying to, we are young enough to rebuild our finances and never look back, but better yet beat this addiction. I’m chipping at my debt now from gambling, I still
Think of losses daily but I’m trying to stay busy. Take up the gym, recreational sports, find a good partner- etc. You can beat this and you will be able
To watch sports again and enjoy your fav sport and fav team without having a bet placed on it- trust me. You don’t stop
Now then there’s no telling how deep this hole can get. I’m rooting for you bro, I’m in the same boat as you- as days go on , I forget about
The losses a bit more than yesterday. Keep going, work hard, grind hard, find purpose… gambling will
Never be a career, we will all lose in the end, more than just money, we will lose the years of happiness and youth. God
Bless brother

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