[MrExon]

Hi Vera,

Thanks for your support.

Hope all is going well for you.

MrExon

[MrExon]

Hi Twnmum,

All I can say is that I’m sorry for your loss. It’s clearly been a hard time for you, and gambling looks like it’s been your way of escaping the truth.

Did you have a gambling problem before your husband passed away?

I’m 4 weeks clean today and all I can say is it DOES get better. I’m 21 years old and I’ve been gambling since I was 18. I never gambled as much as your or others have done, because I couldn’t get my hands on that amount of money, otherwise I’m sure I would have.

I have to say that the first 72 hours are the hardest. You have it so stuck into your daily routine that you almost feel ill and empty as what you used to do for 10 hours a day you no longer can. You don’t know what to do with your time and it is VERY hard.
Then once you get past the 2 week barrier (I call it this because it takes 2 weeks to get into or out of a habbit), it becomes a lot easier. You only think about it when it randomly pops into your head, and that’s maybe a couple of times a day. I barely even think about it anymore, and when I do, the thought goes within almost seconds.

The hardest bit by far for me hasn’t been stopping gambling, it’s been facing up to the problems that made me gamble. I used to escape them by gambling, and now that I’m gamble free (for the time being and hopefully forever), you realise I realise that I’ve been almost “dead” for years. I got paid, I gambled it in 3 days, then I worked and slept til my next pay day. Month after month after month. I didn’t live. At all.

I’m sure your story is different but will have similarities. All I can say to you is that I feel happy again. It feels so good and the sense of accomplishment is indescribable. I’ve never been so proud of anything in my life.

It IS possible. It DOES feel better. And you know what? It’s EASIER than you think it is.

I wish you the best of luck. Stay strong, stay positive.

MrExon

[MrExon]

Hi Charles.

Thanks for the support. I will at some point start writing my own story, but it’s not something I want to force myself into – rather I hope it comes naturally.

I agree with you on the ex-addict front. I should’ve explained myself in a different way! I think that who’s an addict once is always an addict, but you either let the addiction eat you up inside, or you learn to live with it. By ex-addict I actually meant “gamble free person”.

I’m disappointed to hear that you know you are an addict but you choose not to act on it. What’s the reason behind this?

Hope all is well everyone. I will be 4 weeks gamble free today. Wow the time has flown by…

MrExon

[MrExon]

Hi Jonny,

I loved reading your story. I can relate on so many scales – I also blame myself for having lost savings, and having lost every single paycheck I’ve earned. I know I will probably need help to get over that and to learn to stop blaming myself. Maybe you need the same? In almost every post of yours you blame yourself – you are doing so well! You are half a year gamble free. I just worry that dwelling on the fact you could be richer in life could possibly make you relapse, and I would hate to see that. Please don’t take offense to that, you are doing so well but by reading your story and seeing you blame yourself over and over again it worries me. I personally know that no matter how much time goes by I will always blame myself, therefore I am hoping I will get help to cope with that.

I am 27 days gamble free and am on the waiting list to go to gordon moody. Never been happier.

Stay strong and well done for getting your life back on track. Proud of you fellow ex-addict!

Take care,

MrExon

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