[Monica1]

Igen, elveszítjük a nyomunkat, hogy mennyit költünk, annyiszor megtettük ezt, és ismerjük azt az érzést, hogy nem akarunk felébredni. Hány tanácsadást tartott, és volt -e valami abban, ami kiváltotta az utolsó ülést? Ha az ülések nem működnek, cserélhet tanácsadót? Volt két sok tanácsadó ülésem, amelyek egyáltalán nem működtek, és kérnem kellett volna tanácsadó cserét, de túlságosan aggódtam a tanácsadók érzése miatt. Néha egyszerűen nem működnek, és körbejárják a köröket. Néha a tanácsadónak nincs meg az élettapasztalata ahhoz, hogy megszerezzen minket, vagy nem érti a cg -t, hacsak nem szerencsejáték vagy függőségek képzett tanácsadója. Jó, hogy ott lehettél az unokádnak, és remélem hamarosan jobban lesz. A kicsik megijeszthetnek minket attól, hogy mennyire betegek lehetnek, de ugyanolyan gyorsan visszapattannak. Az önbetiltás mellett ez egy családi látogatás volt a kaszinóban? A családja tudja, mennyire súlyos ez a függőség? És hogy kényszeres szerencsejátékos vagy, és soha ne tegye be a lábát egy kaszinóba? Van valaki, aki segíthet korlátozni a pénzhez való hozzáférését, vagy rendelkezik előre fizetett betéti kártyájával, amely megnehezíti a szerencsejátékot? Öt és fél éves függőségem során a családom, azaz a felnőtt gyermekeim csak nemrég kezdték megérteni, mennyire súlyos és életveszélyes ez a függőség. És most támogatnak. Szó szerint eltartott, amíg az öngyilkosság küszöbére nem értem, hogy megszerezzék. A családod érti Liz? Túl fogsz jutni ezen a Lizen, és ez tényleg egy nap.

[Monica1]

Iva, nitilfu r-rekord ta 'kemm nonfqu, għamilna tant drabi u familjari ma' dak is-sentiment li ma rridux inqajmu wkoll. Kemm sessjonijiet ta 'pariri kellek u kien hemm xi ħaġa f'dak li wassal għall-aħħar sessjoni? Jekk is-sessjonijiet ma jaħdmux, tista 'tbiddel il-konsulent? Kelli żewġ lottijiet ta 'sessjonijiet ta' konsulenza li ma ħadmu xejn u kelli nistaqsi biex inbiddel il-konsulent imma kont imħasseb wisq dwar is-sentimenti tal-konsulenti. Kultant sempliċement ma jaħdmux u jduru ċrieki. Kultant il-konsulent ma jkollux l-esperjenza tal-ħajja Biex iġibilna jew ma jifhimx is-cg sakemm il-logħob tal-azzard jew il-vizzji ma jħarrġux konsulent. Magħmul tajjeb talli kont hemm għan-neputija tiegħek u nispera li malajr tjieb. Iċ-ċkejknin jistgħu jbeżżgħuna b'kemm jistgħu jimirdu imma jirkupraw l-istess malajr. Minbarra li tipprojbixxi lilek innifsek, din kienet żjara tal-familja fil-każinò? Il-familja tiegħek taf kemm hi serja din il-vizzju? U li int lagħba kompulsiv u qatt m'għandek tpoġġi s-sieq f'każinò? Hemm xi ħadd li jista 'jgħinek tillimita l-aċċess tiegħek għall-flus, jew ikollok karta ta' debitu mħallsa minn qabel b'konċessjoni li tagħmilha diffiċli għalik li tilgħab? Fil-vizzju tiegħi ta 'ħames snin u nofs, il-familja tiegħi jiġifieri t-tfal imkabbra tiegħi reċentement bdew jifhmu kemm hi serja u ta' theddida għall-ħajja din il-vizzju. U issa huma ta 'appoġġ. Huwa litteralment ħa sakemm jien il-ponta ta 'suwiċidju biex huma jiksbuh. Il-familja tiegħek iġġibu Liz? Int se tgħaddi U fuq dan Liz u verament hija ġurnata waħda kull darba.

[Monica1]

Yes, we lose track of how much we spend, done that so many times and familiar with that feeling of not wanting to wake up as well. How many counselling sessions have you had and was there something in that which triggered the last session? If the sessions are not working, can you change counsellor? I had two lots of counselling sessions that didn’t work at all and I should have asked to change counsellor but was too concerned about the counsellors feelings. Sometimes they just don’t work and go round in circles. Sometimes the counsellor doesn’t have the life experience To get us or don’t understand the cg unless a gambling or addictions trained counsellor.
Well done for being there for your granddaughter and hope she gets better soon. The little ones can scare us with how sick they can get but they do bounce back just as quickly.
As well as self banning, was this a family visit to the casino? Do your family know how serious this addiction is? And that you are a compulsive gambler and should never set foot in a casino? Is there someone who could help you limit your access to money, or have a prepaid debit card with an allowance that makes it difficult for you to gamble?
In my five and a half year addiction, my family ie my grown up children have only recently begun to understand how serious and life threatening this addiction is. And they are now supportive. It literally has taken until I am the verge of suicide for them to get it. Do your family get it Liz?
You will get through And over this Liz and it really is one day at a time.

[Monica1]

Really pleased. Enjoy it but not on gambling!

[Monica1]

Well, groups yesterday were quiet in the evening. No one in 10 or 12 group. I guess people are busy preparing for Xmas. I have no preparation at all as I have nothing. I feel completely excluded from life. This weighs heavily on me. Feeling sleepy today. The only positive has been a letter re a meeting in January for council tax. This delays things I am hoping.

[Monica1]

You and I have that in common. Part of my descent into gambling amongst about 10 other reasons was chronic pain so I know what that feels like with bilateral frozen shoulders post surgery. Took 2 to 3 years for the pain to subside and nothing helped at the time. I also had spinal shingles in 2003 which was exceptionally painful so know full well how both chronic and acute pain can really get us down. You are not wasting your life at all LAura. This site is all the better for you and when we come here we are in quite desperate straits so a helpful word which is insightful and supportive makes a big difference. Have you tried a tens machine? I guess that is the first port of call for back pain. Even though I s, very frustrated at my situation, another part says it’s ok to rest, it’s ok to do very little sometimes, particularly when we have been very active in Life previously. Hope you have a good nights sleep.

[Monica1]

Bir CG için olağan etkiyle kumar oynadığınızı duyduğuma çok üzüldüm. Neyin tetiklediğini biliyor musun? Birçok duraktan ve başlangıçtan geçtim, bunun nasıl olabileceğini biliyorum. Bu sefer benim için farklı olan, neden olduğu toplam yıkımın yanı sıra, köşede gizlenen uyuyan canavarı uyandırmak için asla bir bahane veya sebep olmadığını fark etmemdi. Ne yaşarsak yaşayalım, canavarı uyandırmak işleri daha da kötüleştirecek. Bunu çok iyi biliyorum ve kovaladığımızda midemdeki çukurdaki hissi biliyorum ve sadece sürüyor. Sanırım bunu yapmaya programlanmışlar, bunu defalarca görmüşler. Sanki bir ışık yanıyor, Cg burada, sadece al! İyi şanslar Liz, küçük bir olaydı, hepsi bu. Asla kazanamayız, asla kazanamayız.

[Monica1]

Žao mi je što čujete da ste se kockali s uobičajenim utjecajem za CG. Jeste li svjesni što ga je pokrenulo? Prošao sam mnogo zaustavljanja i startova pa znaj kako se to može dogoditi. Ono što mi je ovaj put bilo drugačije, osim potpunog uništenja koje je prouzročilo, bilo je to što sam shvatio da nikada nema opravdanja ili razloga probuditi usnulo čudovište koje vreba u kutu. Bez obzira na sve kroz što prolazimo buđenje čudovišta samo će pogoršati stvari. Znam to i znam onaj osjećaj u trbuhu kad jurimo i jednostavno treba. Mislim da su programirani za ovo, vidjeli su to toliko puta. Kao da se pali svjetlo, Cg ovdje, samo uzmi! Sretno Liz, to je bila greška, to je sve. Nikada ne pobjeđujemo, nikada ne možemo.

[Monica1]

Îmi pare rău să auzi că ai jucat cu impactul obișnuit pentru un CG. Ești conștient de ceea ce a declanșat-o? Am trecut prin numeroase opriri și începeți, așa că știți cum se poate întâmpla acest lucru. Ceea ce a fost diferit pentru mine de data aceasta, în afară de distrugerea totală pe care a provocat-o, a fost că mi-am dat seama că nu există niciodată vreo scuză sau motiv pentru a trezi monstrul adormit care se ascunde în colț. Indiferent prin ce trecem, trezirea monstrului nu va face decât să înrăutățească lucrurile. Știu așa ceva și știu sentimentul ăla în groapă în stomacul meu când urmărim și este nevoie. Cred că sunt programați pentru asta, au văzut-o de atâtea ori. Este ca și cum o lumină se aprinde, Cg aici, ia doar! Noroc Liz, a fost o clipă, atât. Nu câștigăm niciodată, nu putem niciodată.

[Monica1]

Sajnálattal hallom, hogy a CG szokásos hatásával játszott. Tudja, mi váltotta ki? Sok megállást és indulást megéltem, így tudom, hogyan történhet ez. Számomra ezúttal más volt, eltekintve az általa okozott teljes pusztítástól, hogy rájöttem, hogy soha nincs mentség vagy ok arra, hogy felébresszem a sarokban megbújó alvó szörnyeteget. Függetlenül attól, hogy min megyünk keresztül, a szörny felébresztése csak ront a helyzeten. Annyira tudom ezt, és tudom ezt az érzést a gödörben a gyomrom, amikor üldözünk, és ez csak úgy tart. Szerintem erre vannak programozva, annyiszor látták. Mintha bekapcsolna a lámpa, Cg itt, csak vegye! Sok sikert Liz, ez volt a hiba, ennyi. Soha nem nyerünk, soha nem tudunk.

[Monica1]

Hekk jiddispjaċini li tisma 'li lgħabt bl-impatt tas-soltu għal CG. Int konxju dak li qajjimha? Jien għaddejt minn ħafna waqfiet u tibda sabiex tkun taf kif dan jista 'jiġri. Dak li kien differenti għalija din id-darba, apparti mill-qerda totali li kkawża, kien li indunajt li qatt ma hemm skuża jew raġuni biex tqajjem il-mostru rieqed li qiegħed jaħbi fir-rokna. Ma jimpurtax minn dak li għaddejjin minnu meta nqumu l-mostru jaggrava biss l-affarijiet. Jien hekk naf dan u naf dik is-sensazzjoni fil-ħofra ta 'l-istonku tiegħi meta niġġru u jieħu biss. Naħseb li huma pprogrammati għal dan kollu, rawh ħafna drabi. Qisu dawl jixgħel, Cg hawn, ħu! Awguri Liz, kienet blip, dak kollu. Aħna qatt ma nirbħu, qatt ma nistgħu.

[Monica1]

So sorry to hear that you have gambled with the usual impact for a CG. Are you aware what triggered it? I have been through many stops and starts so know how this can happen. What was different for me this time, aside from the total destruction it caused, was that I realised there is never never any excuse or reason to wake the sleeping monster lurking in the corner. No matter what we are going through waking up the monster will only make things worse. I so know this and I know that feeling in the pit my stomach when we chase and it just takes. I think they are programmed todo this, seen it so many times. It’s like a light switches on, Cg here, just take! Good luck Liz, it was a blip, that’s all. We never win, never can.

[Monica1]

I ate well today. Pete cooked spaghetti Bol with greens and had two cakes as well. Plus a cheese sarnie for a late lunch. So,i appreciate this. I really do!
One of the things my readings have convinced me of still is that there is a lot wrong in some of the new age teachings I have learned.

[Monica1]

I study scripture. Earlier today I ask some questions of my higher power, mostly about what Laura raises and related to suffering and the seeming absence of God in that. Of course, this ultimately relates to the suffering of Christ on the cross and I have always had an issue as to why he was allowed to suffer so much. The answer is that it was preordained and prophesied, and related to the Old Testament atonement for of a blood sacrifice. I read the teachings of St Augustus and Thomas Aquinas who also asked the same question, ie was there another way? I am still not convinced there wasn’t another way but he was six hours on the cross and I thought it was longer. For those who don’t keep religion, my apologies for writing about it. I am someone who in life has always been a seeker of truth, so I would quite like an answer to some of these questions. I feel like I am getting some answers, not all. Well, in the middle of all my reading, I am invited out for coffee by the Jehovah’s Witness on Friday so I agree to go. I am interested in people’s perspectives on all of this.

[Monica1]

Well done on your gamble free time and for sharing your story. You have a lot going for you, a well paid job, discharge from bankruptcy, credit in a good place and a wife who supports You. We all thought the slots were stupid, I got to 54 before I started playing them and was very quickly hooked. Have you considered handing over the finances to your wife? With everything is god place,you need those barriers in place to stop this insidious addiction from raising its ugly head again the sleeping monster…. I can think of nothing,worse than to get into a good place financially and then start the destruction all over again, which I have done in the past. And if you start again, it will drag you further and further down to a place you cannot get out of, prison, insanity or prison. It doesn’t care. One thing we know on this site is that you cannot do this journey alone and will need support either from GA or counselling. Remember, a compulsive gambler never wins…

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