[Monica1]

Hope you haven’t got work in the morning!

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Sorry only just caught this post s was charging up the iPad. A bit too late for the Chinese group. No matter, hope,to catch you tomorrow night.

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I logged into chat at 20 to 1 and waited for 15 mins. You were logged in but busy on the forum. When r u next on chat? I am Ok today. Pete bought some meat bac k from the church so ate ok today.

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Really like your posts and responses. I too think that good services for escape lady gamblers just aren’t there and I look forward to my time on the gm programme to see what I can learn. I 100% agree with you about GA and I personally think how we see GA is actually with a large degree of observation plus,for me three months twice a week of participation. I found it psychologically dangerous with the degree of introspection required to do the steps and sponsors are not counsellors though they try to be. That’s what is dangerous. Plus I like your observations on the fat thing. This is exactly what iam going on about, the labelS, the sackcloth and ashes approach. I don’t buy into their literature or the character defects. It is really old hat and thinking on all of these issues is so much more up to date than GA is. Still,stuck,in the 50s and 60s. To me that all just sucks. No freedom in that.
I think what happened on here hurt you a lot and as this is our main means of support it is difficult to trust writing about our our inner being and thoughts. I sometimes think maybe I should not have said certain things buttishonest andis how I feel. We lay ourselves on the line every time we post with honesty. What Harryis trying to say I think is to let it go. I don’t get what the inferior thing is and the Roosevelt quote cos that’s not the issue at all here. It’s is just a clever sound bite that doesn’t fit the occasion. You don’t feel inferior at all but are noticing like I do a certain attitude occasionally from the staff plus you were hurt from regular posters. It,would have hurt me too. That needs acknowledging and then we can let it go and move on having learned about how,difficult it is to be honest Ona public forum and possibly to forgive and let go. You are way too smart and whichever way you look at it the perpetrators of the hurt have gone back and reflected a lot on what happened. They too will have formed their conclusions and learned something in the process. Lots of love to you dear friend.

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Well, this country has been slammed by the United Nations for abuses on vulnerable and disabled people. We have a very sick Government in a sick and out of balance country.
Idi, my sister will send me the Fare to go to her house for Xmas. They lie in the middle of nowhere with no mobile signal. Pete doesn’t do Xmas, never has, and spends it alone. He is working security as a volunteer on Xmas day at the church Xmas dinner for the homeless. I really appreciate your kind gesture But won’t accept. You are a lovely caring person. Broke the mould when they made you. And, no I don’t have a paypal account, I fell out with the, many moons ago,when they took a massive commission on a transfer from overseas on a casino win funnily enough years ago. Bless you for the gesture.

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Good to see you post. When we have the flu, need to avoid dairy as it increases mucous. Nice lol but true. Yes, funnily enough I was just thinking this a couple of days ago re the crystal ball thing. There are about Four or five key points in my life and I would absolutely change my decision and direction of travel. Sometimes it is only with the benefit of far hindsight where we see crucial life change points and I always seem to have made the wrong decision. All this my way stuff and no regrets a lot of people say, I would 100 per cent change some things. But not my children, love them. It will be ok with your creditors Liz.

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Drago mi je da vas objavljujem. Kad imamo gripu, moramo izbjegavati mliječne proizvode jer povećava sluz. Lijepo lol ali istinito. Da, smiješno, prije par dana sam samo razmišljao o kristalnoj kugli. U mom životu postoji oko četiri ili pet ključnih točaka i apsolutno bih promijenio svoju odluku i smjer putovanja. Ponekad samo uz dobro razmišljanje vidimo ključne točke životne promjene i uvijek se čini da sam donio pogrešnu odluku. Sve je ovo moj način i bez žaljenja mnogi ljudi kažu da bih 100 posto promijenio neke stvari. Ali ne moja djeca, volite ih. Biće sve u redu s tvojim vjerovnicima Liz.

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Thanks so much for your post. You are a good friend. I was going to do the midnight group but my daughter rang me at 5 to 12 and we were on the phone till now. She gets where my moods are swinging as she is going through exactly the same thing. Some of it is the dance between the dark and the light and seasonal, but it does seem to be stronger vibe wise this year. We really understand each other except she is even more sensitive than me. She also wanted to talk through a couple of family things both from a long time ago but unresolved. It wasn’t an easy conversation.
Has there been a response to my thread on the topics? If there is I dont want to read it! I never like to write a post when I am cross and probably shouldn’t have. But I do find some of the responses and repetitive attitudes really demeaning and lack sensitivity and understanding. I have decided to avoid those groups or respond to any of the posts because it is a waste of time. It feels like a machine programmed with the same responses and stance. I guess we all have things that push our buttons and one of mine is a lack of sensitivity to people and situations. Because I know that I have that in droves but a lot of people simply don’t. Sometimes folk who are there to help really don’t help, so it is best we avoid those situations. So, like yourself and your situation that the only thing to do is avoid, I have found my situation that I also need to avoid. We just need to agree to disagree. And move on.
You know, whoever it was I would have pulled someone up on that sort of response and attitude, but I wonder if there is a better than thou slightly smug attitude because of where we are as cgs. I don’t like this at all! All support should be about empowering that individual no matter where they are at, and should make an attempt to understand the person. That’s all we want really as human beings, to be understood.
Fab to hear from you. I think you and I are on exactly the same page when it comes to the support that is available. We can see straight through the dogma and know that a lot of it is on shaky ground. When you described GA as having to say you your greatest flaw, I also saw the insanity of that as well. It is like a group for damaged individuals that have to keep reaffirming that they are damaged. Madness.

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Sorry I missed you in group earlier. Thanks for your posts. There is no help really. I saw my Gp on 7th December when I was feeling suicidal. Urgent help? Nothing as yet. 6 month wait for counselling. This country truly sucks. I hope I get a job abroad until the government changes. The odd thing is is that my daughter has been feeling it too. I am sensitive to energy but she is even more so. Laura your kindness means a lot. I have just had a large cheese sandwich plus the walnut whips. So I am Ok foodwise for now. It was the past couple of days where I had very little as too reliant on pete for food, and naturally he has had a family bereavement to deal with.

[Monica1]

그 사이에 오랫동안 금욕을 하면서 도박을 한 것입니다. 나는 한 달에 45파운드를 살 수 있으므로 지금 당장은 도박을 선택하지 않을 것입니다. 나는 당신이 굶지 않았고, 음식을 먹지 않고 많이 살을 빼지 않았으며, 집을 떠날 여유조차 없었을 것이라고 장담합니다. 아마 내 60년 인생에서 두 번째로 크리스마스에 아무것도 가지지 않았을 것입니다. 그래서 당신이 도박으로 상황을 악화시키지 않았다고 말할 때 그것은 내 상황에 대한 감사의 완전한 부족을 보여주고 모든 것에 대해 진부한 반응으로 보입니다. 아마도 언젠가는 개인으로서 사람들과 관계를 맺고 모든 것에 대해 모든 사람에게 동일한 응답을 제공하지 않을 수 있습니다. 욕해. 네, 제 상황과 GA가 뱉는 거짓말에 화가 납니다.

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C'est pendant combien de temps j'ai joué avec de longues périodes d'abstinence entre les deux. J'ai 45 livres pour vivre avec un mois, donc le jeu ne serait bien sûr jamais un choix pour le moment. Je parie que vous n'êtes pas mort de faim, que vous n'avez pas perdu beaucoup de poids sans nourriture et que vous n'avez même pas les moyens de quitter la maison. Je parie que tu n'as rien eu pour Noël pour probablement la deuxième fois dans ma vie de 60 ans. Donc, quand vous dites que vous n'avez pas aggravé la situation en jouant, cela montre un manque total d'appréciation de ma situation et apparaît comme une réponse banale pour tout. Peut-être qu'un jour vous pourrez vous identifier aux gens en tant qu'individus et cesser de donner les mêmes réponses à tout le monde pour tout. Râler. Oui, je suis en colère contre ma situation et les mensonges que GA débite.

[Monica1]

Ese es el tiempo que jugué con largos períodos de abstinencia en el medio. Tengo 45 libras para vivir en un mes, por lo que el juego, por supuesto, nunca sería una opción en este momento. Apuesto a que no te moriste de hambre, perdiste mucho peso sin comer y ni siquiera pudiste permitirte salir de casa. Apuesto a que no tenías nada para Navidad probablemente por segunda vez en mi vida en 60 años. Entonces, cuando dices que no lo has empeorado con el juego, muestra una falta total de aprecio por mi situación y se presenta como respuestas triviales para todo. Quizás algún día puedas relacionarte con las personas como individuos y dejar de dar las mismas respuestas a todos para todo. Despotricar sobre. Sí, estoy enojado por mi situación y las mentiras que dice GA.

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Det var hur länge jag spelade med långa avhållsamheter emellan. Jag har 45 pund att leva på en månad så spelande skulle naturligtvis aldrig vara ett val just nu. Jag slår vad om att du inte svält, tappade massor av vikt utan att ha mat och inte ens hade råd att lämna huset. Jag slår vad om att du inte hade något för jul förmodligen andra gången i mitt liv på 60 år. Så när du säger att du inte har gjort det värre genom att spela så visar det en fullständig brist på uppskattning för min situation och framstår som snuskiga svar på allt. Kanske kan du en dag relatera till människor som individer och sluta ge samma svar till alla för allt. Rant över. Ja, jag är arg på min situation och de lögner som GA sprutar.

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Foi quanto tempo eu apostei, com longos períodos de abstinência entre eles. Tenho 45 libras para viver em um mês, então o jogo, é claro, nunca seria uma escolha agora. Aposto que você morreu de fome, perdeu muito peso sem comer e nem mesmo teve dinheiro para sair de casa. Aposto que você não tinha nada para o Natal, provavelmente pela segunda vez na minha vida de 60 anos. Portanto, quando você diz que não piorou as coisas com o jogo, ele mostra uma total falta de apreço pela minha situação e aparece como respostas triviais para tudo. Talvez um dia você possa se relacionar com as pessoas como indivíduos e deixar de dar as mesmas respostas a todos para tudo. Rant over. Sim, estou zangado com a minha situação e com as mentiras que GA diz.

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Zo lang heb ik gegokt met lange periodes van onthouding tussendoor. Ik heb 45 pond om van een maand te leven, dus gokken zou op dit moment natuurlijk nooit een keuze zijn. Ik wed dat je niet verhongerde, veel gewicht verloor door geen eten en zelfs niet in staat was om het huis uit te gaan. Ik wed dat je waarschijnlijk voor de tweede keer in mijn leven van 60 jaar niets voor Kerstmis hebt gehad. Dus als je zegt dat je het niet erger hebt gemaakt door te gokken, getuigt het van een compleet gebrek aan waardering voor mijn situatie en komt het over als afgezaagde antwoorden voor alles. Misschien kun je op een dag met mensen omgaan als individuen en ophouden iedereen voor alles dezelfde antwoorden te geven. Razend voorbij. Ja, ik ben boos op mijn situatie en de leugens die GA uitspuugt.

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