[Monica1]

Hope you haven’t got work in the morning!

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Sorry only just caught this post s was charging up the iPad. A bit too late for the Chinese group. No matter, hope,to catch you tomorrow night.

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I logged into chat at 20 to 1 and waited for 15 mins. You were logged in but busy on the forum. When r u next on chat? I am Ok today. Pete bought some meat bac k from the church so ate ok today.

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Really like your posts and responses. I too think that good services for escape lady gamblers just aren’t there and I look forward to my time on the gm programme to see what I can learn. I 100% agree with you about GA and I personally think how we see GA is actually with a large degree of observation plus,for me three months twice a week of participation. I found it psychologically dangerous with the degree of introspection required to do the steps and sponsors are not counsellors though they try to be. That’s what is dangerous. Plus I like your observations on the fat thing. This is exactly what iam going on about, the labelS, the sackcloth and ashes approach. I don’t buy into their literature or the character defects. It is really old hat and thinking on all of these issues is so much more up to date than GA is. Still,stuck,in the 50s and 60s. To me that all just sucks. No freedom in that.
I think what happened on here hurt you a lot and as this is our main means of support it is difficult to trust writing about our our inner being and thoughts. I sometimes think maybe I should not have said certain things buttishonest andis how I feel. We lay ourselves on the line every time we post with honesty. What Harryis trying to say I think is to let it go. I don’t get what the inferior thing is and the Roosevelt quote cos that’s not the issue at all here. It’s is just a clever sound bite that doesn’t fit the occasion. You don’t feel inferior at all but are noticing like I do a certain attitude occasionally from the staff plus you were hurt from regular posters. It,would have hurt me too. That needs acknowledging and then we can let it go and move on having learned about how,difficult it is to be honest Ona public forum and possibly to forgive and let go. You are way too smart and whichever way you look at it the perpetrators of the hurt have gone back and reflected a lot on what happened. They too will have formed their conclusions and learned something in the process. Lots of love to you dear friend.

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Well, this country has been slammed by the United Nations for abuses on vulnerable and disabled people. We have a very sick Government in a sick and out of balance country.
Idi, my sister will send me the Fare to go to her house for Xmas. They lie in the middle of nowhere with no mobile signal. Pete doesn’t do Xmas, never has, and spends it alone. He is working security as a volunteer on Xmas day at the church Xmas dinner for the homeless. I really appreciate your kind gesture But won’t accept. You are a lovely caring person. Broke the mould when they made you. And, no I don’t have a paypal account, I fell out with the, many moons ago,when they took a massive commission on a transfer from overseas on a casino win funnily enough years ago. Bless you for the gesture.

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Drago mi je da vas objavljujem. Kad imamo gripu, moramo izbjegavati mliječne proizvode jer povećava sluz. Lijepo lol ali istinito. Da, smiješno, prije par dana sam samo razmišljao o kristalnoj kugli. U mom životu postoji oko četiri ili pet ključnih točaka i apsolutno bih promijenio svoju odluku i smjer putovanja. Ponekad samo uz dobro razmišljanje vidimo ključne točke životne promjene i uvijek se čini da sam donio pogrešnu odluku. Sve je ovo moj način i bez žaljenja mnogi ljudi kažu da bih 100 posto promijenio neke stvari. Ali ne moja djeca, volite ih. Biće sve u redu s tvojim vjerovnicima Liz.

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Good to see you post. When we have the flu, need to avoid dairy as it increases mucous. Nice lol but true. Yes, funnily enough I was just thinking this a couple of days ago re the crystal ball thing. There are about Four or five key points in my life and I would absolutely change my decision and direction of travel. Sometimes it is only with the benefit of far hindsight where we see crucial life change points and I always seem to have made the wrong decision. All this my way stuff and no regrets a lot of people say, I would 100 per cent change some things. But not my children, love them. It will be ok with your creditors Liz.

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Thanks so much for your post. You are a good friend. I was going to do the midnight group but my daughter rang me at 5 to 12 and we were on the phone till now. She gets where my moods are swinging as she is going through exactly the same thing. Some of it is the dance between the dark and the light and seasonal, but it does seem to be stronger vibe wise this year. We really understand each other except she is even more sensitive than me. She also wanted to talk through a couple of family things both from a long time ago but unresolved. It wasn’t an easy conversation.
Has there been a response to my thread on the topics? If there is I dont want to read it! I never like to write a post when I am cross and probably shouldn’t have. But I do find some of the responses and repetitive attitudes really demeaning and lack sensitivity and understanding. I have decided to avoid those groups or respond to any of the posts because it is a waste of time. It feels like a machine programmed with the same responses and stance. I guess we all have things that push our buttons and one of mine is a lack of sensitivity to people and situations. Because I know that I have that in droves but a lot of people simply don’t. Sometimes folk who are there to help really don’t help, so it is best we avoid those situations. So, like yourself and your situation that the only thing to do is avoid, I have found my situation that I also need to avoid. We just need to agree to disagree. And move on.
You know, whoever it was I would have pulled someone up on that sort of response and attitude, but I wonder if there is a better than thou slightly smug attitude because of where we are as cgs. I don’t like this at all! All support should be about empowering that individual no matter where they are at, and should make an attempt to understand the person. That’s all we want really as human beings, to be understood.
Fab to hear from you. I think you and I are on exactly the same page when it comes to the support that is available. We can see straight through the dogma and know that a lot of it is on shaky ground. When you described GA as having to say you your greatest flaw, I also saw the insanity of that as well. It is like a group for damaged individuals that have to keep reaffirming that they are damaged. Madness.

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Sorry I missed you in group earlier. Thanks for your posts. There is no help really. I saw my Gp on 7th December when I was feeling suicidal. Urgent help? Nothing as yet. 6 month wait for counselling. This country truly sucks. I hope I get a job abroad until the government changes. The odd thing is is that my daughter has been feeling it too. I am sensitive to energy but she is even more so. Laura your kindness means a lot. I have just had a large cheese sandwich plus the walnut whips. So I am Ok foodwise for now. It was the past couple of days where I had very little as too reliant on pete for food, and naturally he has had a family bereavement to deal with.

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Det var så lenge jeg gamblet med lange anfall av avholdenhet i mellom. Jeg har 45 pund for å leve på en måned, så gambling ville selvfølgelig aldri være et valg akkurat nå. Jeg vedder på at du ikke sultet, mistet mye vekt uten mat og ikke engang hadde råd til å forlate huset. Jeg vedder på at du ikke hadde noe til jul for sannsynligvis andre gang i mitt liv på 60 år. Så når du sier at du ikke har gjort det verre ved å spille, viser det fullstendig mangel på takknemlighet for situasjonen min og fremstår som beskjedent svar på alt. Kanskje du en dag kan forholde deg til mennesker som individer og slutte å gi de samme svarene til alle for alt. Rant over. Ja, jeg er sint på situasjonen min og løgnene som GA spruter.

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Foi quanto tempo eu apostei, com longos períodos de abstinência entre eles. Tenho 45 libras para viver em um mês, então o jogo, é claro, nunca seria uma escolha agora. Aposto que você morreu de fome, perdeu muito peso sem comer e nem mesmo teve dinheiro para sair de casa. Aposto que você não tinha nada para o Natal, provavelmente pela segunda vez na minha vida de 60 anos. Portanto, quando você diz que não piorou as coisas com o jogo, ele mostra uma total falta de apreço pela minha situação e aparece como respostas triviais para tudo. Talvez um dia você possa se relacionar com as pessoas como indivíduos e deixar de dar as mesmas respostas a todos para tudo. Rant over. Sim, estou zangado com a minha situação e com as mentiras que GA diz.

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هذه هي المدة التي راهنت فيها بنوبات طويلة من الامتناع عن ممارسة الجنس بينهما. لدي 45 جنيهًا للعيش في شهر واحد ، لذا لن تكون المقامرة بالطبع خيارًا في الوقت الحالي. أراهن أنك لم تتضور جوعًا ، وفقدت الكثير من الوزن بسبب عدم وجود طعام ، ولا يمكنك حتى تحمل تكاليف مغادرة المنزل. أراهن أنك لم يكن لديك شيء لعيد الميلاد ربما للمرة الثانية في حياتي التي تبلغ 60 عامًا. لذلك عندما تقول إنك لم تجعل الأمر أسوأ من خلال المقامرة ، فإن ذلك يظهر نقصًا تامًا في التقدير لوضعي ويظهر على أنه استجابات مبتذلة لكل شيء. ربما في يوم من الأيام يمكنك التواصل مع الأشخاص كأفراد والتوقف عن إعطاء نفس الردود للجميع على كل شيء. انتهى التشدق. نعم ، أنا غاضب من وضعي والأكاذيب التي ينشرها GA.

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इस तरह मैंने बीच-बीच में लंबे समय तक संयम के लंबे मुकाबलों के साथ जुआ खेला। मेरे पास एक महीने में जीने के लिए ४५ क्विड हैं इसलिए निश्चित रूप से जुआ अभी कभी भी एक विकल्प नहीं होगा। मुझे यकीन है कि आप भूखे नहीं रहे, बिना भोजन के बहुत वजन कम किया और घर से बाहर निकलने का खर्च भी नहीं उठाया। मुझे यकीन है कि आपके पास मेरे 60 साल के जीवन में शायद दूसरी बार क्रिसमस के लिए कुछ नहीं था। इसलिए जब आप कहते हैं कि आपने इसे जुए से खराब नहीं किया है, तो यह मेरी स्थिति के लिए पूरी तरह से सराहना की कमी को दर्शाता है और हर चीज के लिए तुच्छ प्रतिक्रिया के रूप में सामने आता है। हो सकता है कि एक दिन आप लोगों से व्यक्तिगत रूप से संबंधित हों और हर चीज के लिए सभी को समान प्रतिक्रिया देना बंद कर दें। अधिक शेख़ी मारना। हां, मैं अपनी स्थिति और GA द्वारा बताए गए झूठ पर क्रोधित हूं।

[Monica1]

È per quanto tempo ho giocato con lunghi periodi di astinenza nel mezzo. Ho 45 sterline per vivere in un mese, quindi il gioco d'azzardo ovviamente non sarebbe mai una scelta in questo momento. Scommetto che non sei morto di fame, non hai perso molto peso senza cibo e non sei nemmeno in grado di permetterti di uscire di casa. Scommetto che non hai avuto niente per Natale probabilmente per la seconda volta nella mia vita di 60 anni. Quindi, quando dici che non hai peggiorato le cose giocando d'azzardo, mostra una completa mancanza di apprezzamento per la mia situazione e si presenta come risposte banali per tutto. Forse un giorno potrai relazionarti con le persone come individui e smettere di dare le stesse risposte a tutti per tutto. Raccontaci. Sì, sono arrabbiato per la mia situazione e per le bugie che GA dice.

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Štai tiek aš lošiau, o tarp jų – ilgas susilaikymas. Turiu 45 svarus, kad galėčiau gyventi mėnesį, todėl, žinoma, azartiniai lošimai niekada nebūtų pasirinkimas. Lažinuosi, kad nemirėte badu, numetėte daug svorio nevalgę ir net negalėjote sau leisti išeiti iš namų. Lažinuosi, kad turbūt antrą kartą per savo 60 metų gyvenimą neturėjote nieko Kalėdoms. Taigi, kai jūs sakote, kad dėl to lošimai nepablogino situacijos, tai visiškai neįvertina mano situacijos ir atrodo kaip paprasti atsakymai į viską. Galbūt vieną dieną galite bendrauti su žmonėmis kaip su asmenimis ir nustoti visiems vienodai atsakyti už viską. Pasibaigė. Taip, aš piktas dėl savo padėties ir melo, kurį skleidžia GA.

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