[Monica1]

Hope you haven’t got work in the morning!

[Monica1]

Sorry only just caught this post s was charging up the iPad. A bit too late for the Chinese group. No matter, hope,to catch you tomorrow night.

[Monica1]

I logged into chat at 20 to 1 and waited for 15 mins. You were logged in but busy on the forum. When r u next on chat? I am Ok today. Pete bought some meat bac k from the church so ate ok today.

[Monica1]

Really like your posts and responses. I too think that good services for escape lady gamblers just aren’t there and I look forward to my time on the gm programme to see what I can learn. I 100% agree with you about GA and I personally think how we see GA is actually with a large degree of observation plus,for me three months twice a week of participation. I found it psychologically dangerous with the degree of introspection required to do the steps and sponsors are not counsellors though they try to be. That’s what is dangerous. Plus I like your observations on the fat thing. This is exactly what iam going on about, the labelS, the sackcloth and ashes approach. I don’t buy into their literature or the character defects. It is really old hat and thinking on all of these issues is so much more up to date than GA is. Still,stuck,in the 50s and 60s. To me that all just sucks. No freedom in that.
I think what happened on here hurt you a lot and as this is our main means of support it is difficult to trust writing about our our inner being and thoughts. I sometimes think maybe I should not have said certain things buttishonest andis how I feel. We lay ourselves on the line every time we post with honesty. What Harryis trying to say I think is to let it go. I don’t get what the inferior thing is and the Roosevelt quote cos that’s not the issue at all here. It’s is just a clever sound bite that doesn’t fit the occasion. You don’t feel inferior at all but are noticing like I do a certain attitude occasionally from the staff plus you were hurt from regular posters. It,would have hurt me too. That needs acknowledging and then we can let it go and move on having learned about how,difficult it is to be honest Ona public forum and possibly to forgive and let go. You are way too smart and whichever way you look at it the perpetrators of the hurt have gone back and reflected a lot on what happened. They too will have formed their conclusions and learned something in the process. Lots of love to you dear friend.

[Monica1]

Well, this country has been slammed by the United Nations for abuses on vulnerable and disabled people. We have a very sick Government in a sick and out of balance country.
Idi, my sister will send me the Fare to go to her house for Xmas. They lie in the middle of nowhere with no mobile signal. Pete doesn’t do Xmas, never has, and spends it alone. He is working security as a volunteer on Xmas day at the church Xmas dinner for the homeless. I really appreciate your kind gesture But won’t accept. You are a lovely caring person. Broke the mould when they made you. And, no I don’t have a paypal account, I fell out with the, many moons ago,when they took a massive commission on a transfer from overseas on a casino win funnily enough years ago. Bless you for the gesture.

[Monica1]

Drago mi je da vas objavljujem. Kad imamo gripu, moramo izbjegavati mliječne proizvode jer povećava sluz. Lijepo lol ali istinito. Da, smiješno, prije par dana sam samo razmišljao o kristalnoj kugli. U mom životu postoji oko četiri ili pet ključnih točaka i apsolutno bih promijenio svoju odluku i smjer putovanja. Ponekad samo uz dobro razmišljanje vidimo ključne točke životne promjene i uvijek se čini da sam donio pogrešnu odluku. Sve je ovo moj način i bez žaljenja mnogi ljudi kažu da bih 100 posto promijenio neke stvari. Ali ne moja djeca, volite ih. Biće sve u redu s tvojim vjerovnicima Liz.

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Good to see you post. When we have the flu, need to avoid dairy as it increases mucous. Nice lol but true. Yes, funnily enough I was just thinking this a couple of days ago re the crystal ball thing. There are about Four or five key points in my life and I would absolutely change my decision and direction of travel. Sometimes it is only with the benefit of far hindsight where we see crucial life change points and I always seem to have made the wrong decision. All this my way stuff and no regrets a lot of people say, I would 100 per cent change some things. But not my children, love them. It will be ok with your creditors Liz.

[Monica1]

Thanks so much for your post. You are a good friend. I was going to do the midnight group but my daughter rang me at 5 to 12 and we were on the phone till now. She gets where my moods are swinging as she is going through exactly the same thing. Some of it is the dance between the dark and the light and seasonal, but it does seem to be stronger vibe wise this year. We really understand each other except she is even more sensitive than me. She also wanted to talk through a couple of family things both from a long time ago but unresolved. It wasn’t an easy conversation.
Has there been a response to my thread on the topics? If there is I dont want to read it! I never like to write a post when I am cross and probably shouldn’t have. But I do find some of the responses and repetitive attitudes really demeaning and lack sensitivity and understanding. I have decided to avoid those groups or respond to any of the posts because it is a waste of time. It feels like a machine programmed with the same responses and stance. I guess we all have things that push our buttons and one of mine is a lack of sensitivity to people and situations. Because I know that I have that in droves but a lot of people simply don’t. Sometimes folk who are there to help really don’t help, so it is best we avoid those situations. So, like yourself and your situation that the only thing to do is avoid, I have found my situation that I also need to avoid. We just need to agree to disagree. And move on.
You know, whoever it was I would have pulled someone up on that sort of response and attitude, but I wonder if there is a better than thou slightly smug attitude because of where we are as cgs. I don’t like this at all! All support should be about empowering that individual no matter where they are at, and should make an attempt to understand the person. That’s all we want really as human beings, to be understood.
Fab to hear from you. I think you and I are on exactly the same page when it comes to the support that is available. We can see straight through the dogma and know that a lot of it is on shaky ground. When you described GA as having to say you your greatest flaw, I also saw the insanity of that as well. It is like a group for damaged individuals that have to keep reaffirming that they are damaged. Madness.

[Monica1]

Sorry I missed you in group earlier. Thanks for your posts. There is no help really. I saw my Gp on 7th December when I was feeling suicidal. Urgent help? Nothing as yet. 6 month wait for counselling. This country truly sucks. I hope I get a job abroad until the government changes. The odd thing is is that my daughter has been feeling it too. I am sensitive to energy but she is even more so. Laura your kindness means a lot. I have just had a large cheese sandwich plus the walnut whips. So I am Ok foodwise for now. It was the past couple of days where I had very little as too reliant on pete for food, and naturally he has had a family bereavement to deal with.

[Monica1]

Толкова време залагах с дълги пристъпи на въздържание между тях. Имам 45 лири, за да живея с месец, така че хазартът, разбира се, никога не би бил избор в момента. Обзалагам се, че не сте гладували, отслабнали сте без храна и дори не сте в състояние да си позволите да напуснете къщата. Обзалагам се, че не сте имали нищо за Коледа за втори път в живота ми от 60 години. Така че, когато казвате, че не сте влошили ситуацията с хазарта, той показва пълна липса на признателност за моята ситуация и се вижда като банални отговори за всичко. Може би един ден можете да се отнесете към хората като личности и да спрете да давате едни и същи отговори на всички за всичко. Рант над. Да, ядосан съм на моето положение и лъжите, които ГА изрича.

[Monica1]

So lange habe ich gezockt, mit langen Abstinenzphasen dazwischen. Ich habe 45 Pfund, um von einem Monat zu leben, also wäre Glücksspiel jetzt natürlich nie eine Wahl. Ich wette, Sie haben nicht verhungert, viel Gewicht verloren, indem Sie nichts gegessen haben und sich nicht einmal leisten können, das Haus zu verlassen. Ich wette, du hattest zum wahrscheinlich zweiten Mal in meinem 60-jährigen Leben nichts zu Weihnachten. Wenn Sie also sagen, dass Sie es durch Glücksspiel nicht schlimmer gemacht haben, zeigt dies einen völligen Mangel an Wertschätzung für meine Situation und wirkt auf alles als abgedroschene Antwort. Vielleicht kannst du eines Tages auf Menschen als Individuen eingehen und aufhören, jedem für alles die gleichen Antworten zu geben. Aufregen über. Ja, ich bin wütend auf meine Situation und die Lügen, die GA verbreitet.

[Monica1]

Itulah berapa lama saya bertaruh dengan serangan pantangan yang lama di antaranya. Saya memiliki 45 pound untuk hidup dalam sebulan jadi perjudian tentu saja tidak akan pernah menjadi pilihan saat ini. Saya yakin Anda tidak kelaparan, kehilangan banyak berat badan tanpa makanan dan bahkan tidak mampu meninggalkan rumah. Saya yakin Anda tidak punya apa-apa untuk Natal mungkin untuk kedua kalinya dalam hidup saya selama 60 tahun. Jadi, ketika Anda mengatakan Anda tidak membuatnya lebih buruk dengan berjudi, itu menunjukkan kurangnya penghargaan untuk situasi saya dan tampil sebagai tanggapan tepuk basi untuk semuanya. Mungkin suatu hari Anda dapat berhubungan dengan orang-orang sebagai individu dan berhenti memberikan tanggapan yang sama kepada semua orang untuk semuanya. Mengomel. Ya, saya marah dengan situasi saya dan kebohongan yang disemburkan GA.

[Monica1]

Tieši tik ilgi es spēlēju azartspēles ar gariem atturēšanās gadījumiem. Man ir 45 dolāri, lai nodzīvotu mēnesi, tāpēc azartspēles, protams, nekad nebūtu izvēle. Varu derēt, ka jūs nebadojāties, zaudējāt daudz svara bez ēdiena un pat nevarējāt atļauties pamest māju. Varu derēt, ka, iespējams, otro reizi manā 60 gadu laikā Ziemassvētkos nebija nekā. Tātad, ja jūs sakāt, ka neesat to pasliktinājis ar azartspēlēm, tas parāda pilnīgu nenovērtējumu par manu situāciju, un tas nāk kā niecīga pat atbilde uz visu. Varbūt kādu dienu jūs varat attiekties uz cilvēkiem kā indivīdiem un pārstāt visiem sniegt vienādas atbildes par visu. Rant pāri. Jā, es esmu dusmīgs uz savu situāciju un meliem, ko izsaka GA.

[Monica1]

Det var så lenge jeg gamblet med lange anfall av avholdenhet i mellom. Jeg har 45 pund for å leve på en måned, så gambling ville selvfølgelig aldri være et valg akkurat nå. Jeg vedder på at du ikke sultet, mistet mye vekt uten mat og ikke engang hadde råd til å forlate huset. Jeg vedder på at du ikke hadde noe til jul for sannsynligvis andre gang i mitt liv på 60 år. Så når du sier at du ikke har gjort det verre ved å spille, viser det fullstendig mangel på takknemlighet for situasjonen min og fremstår som beskjedent svar på alt. Kanskje du en dag kan forholde deg til mennesker som individer og slutte å gi de samme svarene til alle for alt. Rant over. Ja, jeg er sint på situasjonen min og løgnene som GA spruter.

[Monica1]

Foi quanto tempo eu apostei, com longos períodos de abstinência entre eles. Tenho 45 libras para viver em um mês, então o jogo, é claro, nunca seria uma escolha agora. Aposto que você morreu de fome, perdeu muito peso sem comer e nem mesmo teve dinheiro para sair de casa. Aposto que você não tinha nada para o Natal, provavelmente pela segunda vez na minha vida de 60 anos. Portanto, quando você diz que não piorou as coisas com o jogo, ele mostra uma total falta de apreço pela minha situação e aparece como respostas triviais para tudo. Talvez um dia você possa se relacionar com as pessoas como indivíduos e deixar de dar as mesmas respostas a todos para tudo. Rant over. Sim, estou zangado com a minha situação e com as mentiras que GA diz.

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