[Monica1]

Hope you haven’t got work in the morning!

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Sorry only just caught this post s was charging up the iPad. A bit too late for the Chinese group. No matter, hope,to catch you tomorrow night.

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I logged into chat at 20 to 1 and waited for 15 mins. You were logged in but busy on the forum. When r u next on chat? I am Ok today. Pete bought some meat bac k from the church so ate ok today.

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Really like your posts and responses. I too think that good services for escape lady gamblers just aren’t there and I look forward to my time on the gm programme to see what I can learn. I 100% agree with you about GA and I personally think how we see GA is actually with a large degree of observation plus,for me three months twice a week of participation. I found it psychologically dangerous with the degree of introspection required to do the steps and sponsors are not counsellors though they try to be. That’s what is dangerous. Plus I like your observations on the fat thing. This is exactly what iam going on about, the labelS, the sackcloth and ashes approach. I don’t buy into their literature or the character defects. It is really old hat and thinking on all of these issues is so much more up to date than GA is. Still,stuck,in the 50s and 60s. To me that all just sucks. No freedom in that.
I think what happened on here hurt you a lot and as this is our main means of support it is difficult to trust writing about our our inner being and thoughts. I sometimes think maybe I should not have said certain things buttishonest andis how I feel. We lay ourselves on the line every time we post with honesty. What Harryis trying to say I think is to let it go. I don’t get what the inferior thing is and the Roosevelt quote cos that’s not the issue at all here. It’s is just a clever sound bite that doesn’t fit the occasion. You don’t feel inferior at all but are noticing like I do a certain attitude occasionally from the staff plus you were hurt from regular posters. It,would have hurt me too. That needs acknowledging and then we can let it go and move on having learned about how,difficult it is to be honest Ona public forum and possibly to forgive and let go. You are way too smart and whichever way you look at it the perpetrators of the hurt have gone back and reflected a lot on what happened. They too will have formed their conclusions and learned something in the process. Lots of love to you dear friend.

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Well, this country has been slammed by the United Nations for abuses on vulnerable and disabled people. We have a very sick Government in a sick and out of balance country.
Idi, my sister will send me the Fare to go to her house for Xmas. They lie in the middle of nowhere with no mobile signal. Pete doesn’t do Xmas, never has, and spends it alone. He is working security as a volunteer on Xmas day at the church Xmas dinner for the homeless. I really appreciate your kind gesture But won’t accept. You are a lovely caring person. Broke the mould when they made you. And, no I don’t have a paypal account, I fell out with the, many moons ago,when they took a massive commission on a transfer from overseas on a casino win funnily enough years ago. Bless you for the gesture.

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Drago mi je da vas objavljujem. Kad imamo gripu, moramo izbjegavati mliječne proizvode jer povećava sluz. Lijepo lol ali istinito. Da, smiješno, prije par dana sam samo razmišljao o kristalnoj kugli. U mom životu postoji oko četiri ili pet ključnih točaka i apsolutno bih promijenio svoju odluku i smjer putovanja. Ponekad samo uz dobro razmišljanje vidimo ključne točke životne promjene i uvijek se čini da sam donio pogrešnu odluku. Sve je ovo moj način i bez žaljenja mnogi ljudi kažu da bih 100 posto promijenio neke stvari. Ali ne moja djeca, volite ih. Biće sve u redu s tvojim vjerovnicima Liz.

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Good to see you post. When we have the flu, need to avoid dairy as it increases mucous. Nice lol but true. Yes, funnily enough I was just thinking this a couple of days ago re the crystal ball thing. There are about Four or five key points in my life and I would absolutely change my decision and direction of travel. Sometimes it is only with the benefit of far hindsight where we see crucial life change points and I always seem to have made the wrong decision. All this my way stuff and no regrets a lot of people say, I would 100 per cent change some things. But not my children, love them. It will be ok with your creditors Liz.

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Thanks so much for your post. You are a good friend. I was going to do the midnight group but my daughter rang me at 5 to 12 and we were on the phone till now. She gets where my moods are swinging as she is going through exactly the same thing. Some of it is the dance between the dark and the light and seasonal, but it does seem to be stronger vibe wise this year. We really understand each other except she is even more sensitive than me. She also wanted to talk through a couple of family things both from a long time ago but unresolved. It wasn’t an easy conversation.
Has there been a response to my thread on the topics? If there is I dont want to read it! I never like to write a post when I am cross and probably shouldn’t have. But I do find some of the responses and repetitive attitudes really demeaning and lack sensitivity and understanding. I have decided to avoid those groups or respond to any of the posts because it is a waste of time. It feels like a machine programmed with the same responses and stance. I guess we all have things that push our buttons and one of mine is a lack of sensitivity to people and situations. Because I know that I have that in droves but a lot of people simply don’t. Sometimes folk who are there to help really don’t help, so it is best we avoid those situations. So, like yourself and your situation that the only thing to do is avoid, I have found my situation that I also need to avoid. We just need to agree to disagree. And move on.
You know, whoever it was I would have pulled someone up on that sort of response and attitude, but I wonder if there is a better than thou slightly smug attitude because of where we are as cgs. I don’t like this at all! All support should be about empowering that individual no matter where they are at, and should make an attempt to understand the person. That’s all we want really as human beings, to be understood.
Fab to hear from you. I think you and I are on exactly the same page when it comes to the support that is available. We can see straight through the dogma and know that a lot of it is on shaky ground. When you described GA as having to say you your greatest flaw, I also saw the insanity of that as well. It is like a group for damaged individuals that have to keep reaffirming that they are damaged. Madness.

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Sorry I missed you in group earlier. Thanks for your posts. There is no help really. I saw my Gp on 7th December when I was feeling suicidal. Urgent help? Nothing as yet. 6 month wait for counselling. This country truly sucks. I hope I get a job abroad until the government changes. The odd thing is is that my daughter has been feeling it too. I am sensitive to energy but she is even more so. Laura your kindness means a lot. I have just had a large cheese sandwich plus the walnut whips. So I am Ok foodwise for now. It was the past couple of days where I had very little as too reliant on pete for food, and naturally he has had a family bereavement to deal with.

[Monica1]

それは私がその間に禁欲の長い発作で賭けた時間です。私は1か月に45ポンドのお金を持っているので、もちろん今のところギャンブルは決して選択できません。私はあなたが飢えなかったに違いない、食べ物がないことでたくさんの体重が減り、家を出る余裕さえなかった。私の60年の人生でおそらく2度目のクリスマスのためにあなたは何も持っていなかったに違いありません。ですから、ギャンブルで悪化していないと言うと、私の状況に対する理解が完全に欠如していることを示しており、すべてに対するささいなパットの反応として出くわします。たぶんいつの日か、あなたは個人として人々と関わり、すべての人に同じ反応をするのをやめることができるでしょう。うそつき。はい、私は自分の状況とGAが吐き出す嘘に腹を立てています。

[Monica1]

Ennyi ideig szerencsejátékokat követtem el hosszú tartózkodásokkal. 45 fontom van, hogy egy hónapig éljek, így természetesen a szerencsejáték soha nem lenne választás. Fogadok, hogy nem éheztél, nem fogytál sokat, ha nem ettél semmit, és nem is engedheted meg magadnak, hogy elhagyd a házat. Lefogadom, hogy 60 éves életemben valószínűleg másodszor nem volt semmi karácsonyod. Tehát amikor azt mondod, hogy a szerencsejáték miatt nem rontottad a helyzeten, az megbecsülés hiányát fejezi ki a helyzetem iránt, és elcsépelt válaszként jelenik meg mindenre. Lehet, hogy egy napon az emberekhez, mint egyénekhez tud viszonyulni, és nem fog mindenkire ugyanazt a választ adni. Rant vége. Igen, dühös vagyok a helyzetemre és a hazugságokra, amelyeket a GA kijelent.

[Monica1]

Niin kauan minä pelasin ja pidätin pidättäytymisen välillä. Minulla on 45 puntaa elää kuukaudessa, joten uhkapelit eivät tietenkään olisi koskaan valinta. Lyön vetoa, ettet nälkää, menetit paljon painoa ilman ruokaa ja sinulla ei ole edes varaa lähteä kotoa. Lyön vetoa, että sinulla ei ollut mitään joulua varten luultavasti toista kertaa elämässäni 60 vuoden aikana. Joten kun sanot, ettet ole pahentanut sitä uhkapelillä, se osoittaa täydellistä arvostamattomuuttani tilanteestani ja tulee kevyiksi pat vastauksiksi kaikkeen. Ehkä jonain päivänä voit liittyä ihmisiin yksilöinä ja lakata antamasta kaikille samoja vastauksia kaikesta. Lopeta. Kyllä, olen vihainen tilanteestani ja GA: n valheista.

[Monica1]

Arada uzun perhizler yaparak bu kadar uzun süre kumar oynadım. Bir ayda yaşamak için 45 sterlinim var, bu yüzden kumar elbette şu anda asla bir seçim olmayacaktı. Bahse girerim açlıktan ölmedin, yemek yemeden çok kilo vermedin ve hatta evden çıkmayı bile göze alamadın. Bahse girerim 60 yıllık hayatımda ikinci kez Noel için hiçbir şey almamışsındır. Bu yüzden, kumar oynayarak durumumu daha da kötüleştirmediğini söylediğinde, durumum için tam bir takdir eksikliği gösteriyor ve her şey için basmakalıp tepkiler olarak karşımıza çıkıyor. Belki bir gün insanlarla birey olarak ilişki kurabilir ve her şey için herkese aynı tepkileri vermeyi bırakabilirsiniz. Rant bitti. Evet, durumuma ve GA'nın söylediği yalanlara kızgınım.

[Monica1]

To je, jak dlouho jsem hazardoval s dlouhými záchvaty abstinence mezi nimi. Mám 45 liber, které bych žil měsíc, takže hazardní hry by samozřejmě teď nebyly volbou. Vsadím se, že jste neumřeli hlady, neztratili jste spoustu váhy bez jídla a dokonce jste si nemohli dovolit opustit dům. Vsadím se, že jste na Vánoce pravděpodobně neměli nic podruhé v mém 60letém životě. Takže když říkáte, že jste to hazardem nezhoršili, ukazuje to naprostý nedostatek ocenění mé situace a přijde mi to jako banální reakce na všechno. Možná se jednoho dne budete moci chovat k lidem jako jednotlivci a přestat na všechny dávat stejné odpovědi všem. Přemítat. Ano, jsem naštvaný na svou situaci a lži, které GA chrlí.

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Толкова време залагах с дълги пристъпи на въздържание между тях. Имам 45 лири, за да живея с месец, така че хазартът, разбира се, никога не би бил избор в момента. Обзалагам се, че не сте гладували, отслабнали сте без храна и дори не сте в състояние да си позволите да напуснете къщата. Обзалагам се, че не сте имали нищо за Коледа за втори път в живота ми от 60 години. Така че, когато казвате, че не сте влошили ситуацията с хазарта, той показва пълна липса на признателност за моята ситуация и се вижда като банални отговори за всичко. Може би един ден можете да се отнесете към хората като личности и да спрете да давате едни и същи отговори на всички за всичко. Рант над. Да, ядосан съм на моето положение и лъжите, които ГА изрича.

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