[Monica1]

Сигурен съм, че ще се оправиш. По -добре е както беше … трудно за четене в сегашния му формат.

[Monica1]

Jsem si jistý, že to vyřešíš. Je lepší, jak to bylo …. v současném formátu se to špatně čte.

[Monica1]

Ich bin sicher, Sie werden es klären. Ist besser, wie es war….schwer zu lesen in seinem aktuellen Format.

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Jeg er sikker på, at du vil ordne det. Er bedre som det var …. svært at læse i sit nuværende format.

[Monica1]

Je suis sûr que vous allez régler ça. C'est mieux comme c'était… difficile à lire dans son format actuel.

[Monica1]

Tenho certeza de que você vai resolver isso. Está melhor do jeito que estava …. difícil de ler em seu formato atual.

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मुझे यकीन है कि आप इसे सुलझा लेंगे। जैसा था वैसा ही बेहतर है…. इसके मौजूदा स्वरूप में पढ़ना मुश्किल है।

[Monica1]

Saya yakin Anda akan menyelesaikannya. Lebih baik seperti itu …. sulit dibaca dalam format saat ini.

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Always good to hear from you Laura and thanks for the post.
Today, I woke up at 6pm having been up till 9am watching the gymnastics on the commonwealth games. It was really enjoyable watching it and how the United Kingdom home teams are doing.
I feel a combination of upset and anger today as my last two days pay have still not been authorised 3 weeks later with no indication that there is an issue. .It is hitting me where it most hurts, my self esteem and my pocket.
Pete cooked me a meal which was nice. No sign of anything shifting there with the end of April deadline looming. I have put off writing to Universsl Credit re rent decrease now for ten days and must do it. This is all upsetting me somewhat cos I really don’t want to go back to where I was. It hurts me a lot even to think about.

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went for a walk in the rain and stillness of the park. Don’t mind walking in the rain on a bad hair day… Meandering mind and I was reflecting on whether I would come back to this planet again. The answer aside from no, would be that the circumstances would need to be right or else forget it buddy… why do we come to the planet anyway, why would we? Answers on a postcard.
There would need to be robots who could do all the menial tasks, cleaning etc cordon bleu cooking, act as a companion when required
Teeth would have stem cells that would justregrow when you lost one. Dentistry would move out if the Middle Ages.
All healing would be energetic and painless, trauma would be eradicated
The right foundations would be there in the first place so that we could fulfil our potential, solid loving parents. We would all have mentoring in the skills and talents we have plus emotional support as and when required.
There would be no loneliness allowed for anyone.
Just meandering today…… and just stuffed two cream cakes. 8 had lost a bit of weight again but filling out my jeans a wee bit more now. Weight up and down according to how the guts are functioning.

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Well, we all seem to be in the same boat. Finding a sense of purpose and fulfilment. We have to right on the inside before the outside follows, I know that, it’s one of those truths I know like the certainty of death and taxes. But it is about what we do now. I never fulfilled what I was meant to do in this life, I know that but it is about what we do now. Finding a passion isn’t easy. There are a number of things I was passionate about and learning and then I wasn’t as they were flawed and didn’t deliver the healing they promised. So we need to go within, peace resides there but on a human level we do need to self actualise, to find something we are passionate about and then live it. Maybe we have looked to leaders in the past and now in the U.K. and US We have idiot leaders so that is difficult. No role models to follow, no values except the buck.
I would take this time to experiment. Can you improve your necklace making process so it isn’t so time consuming isn’t? Just a thought…

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Thanks Sara, there is more on Wopg.org on Prem Rawat. Wopg is words of peace global. Basically, he gives the tools to go within and experience peace. I have t seen him for probably the longest gap ever since I first saw him aged 23 and unfortunately local events just stopped a few years ago. I used to present and it coincided with this awful addiction getting its grips into me. I would see him globally at least twice a year.
Yes, I can’t wear red either, but it’s a lovely colour so I wear red shoes instead which I think really flatter the feet. Joe Browns is lovely in their use of colour and sense of fun in their clothes. Nice to talk about something other than the awful situation I have put myself in through gambling.

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Made me smile the willy nilly comment. Joe Brown not to everyone’s taste but I love their use of colour.
I get so many emails RE law of attraction, attract abundance etc. I have felt for a long while now that I hve to surrender my life to God, which is very different to being the Co creator, w,though Neale Walsch will tell us in this world of duality the opposite can be equally true. One thing I know is that the universe, or god, of higher self, orhowever we see our higher power is far smarter than me and it knows what we require at any time. When I needed to get well after cancer it sent me a fab job by the sea, and I did get well. But I did t learn and made the same mistakes RE gambling at home on the weekends and now I am paying a hefty price. Patterns repeat in life until we drop them and learn something. For us gambling addicts I believe the learning is on a very deep level. I have been saved in my life at 23 and it was nt through the Christian religion but it was very real so I do believe that god has many messengers. This was through Prem Rawat. Because of my experiences with bad healers while learning the art, I now only trust in Jesus as the master healer. I have kind of been there done that but struggle to heal myself. Monochrome colours are very nice and tasteful but I love colour in a wardrobe, what colours are your favourites?

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Look at Christina Onassis, one of the richest women in the world, but unlucky in love, poor,self esteem and ended up committing suicide. So it helps, money but it,isn’t the source of joy and happiness.
Now to puta other viewto Sara’s post when I was most active gambling I certainly didn’t have lack, I had,loads of hard earned money, earning five figures a month. The reasons I threw it all away run much deeper than just feeling a lack, I was more like Christina Onassis, ie a lack of love in my life whilst I supported everyone in my family but could not find that love back. Anyways, glad you had a good time idi, wish I could have been there.

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I am very sceptical of all of it really and that is after a lifetime of spiritual study. There are very few what I wou,d call gods messengers who are the real deal. One of them is conversations with god author Neale Donald Walsch, I have read all of his books. Prem Rawat is the real deal who says it is all within us and directs us within through meditation. I read eat pray love when it first came out. I liked the book and thought it was sweetin the fairy tale sense of sweet. Self,discovery is always good and as Neale Donald Walsch
Would say we are seeking to become the next grandest version of ourselves. Whatever that is. For me I no longer know what that is. I always did know up to the last few years and it is no longer that. I have met many bad healers with good intentions who cause more damage to expel than they know.

Anyways having said all that I had another late one and enjoyed watching the gymnastics and triathlons. Rather emvious of their fitness. I wonder what it feels like to have a really fit body…
I was surfing round channels and rather lethal on qvc they had one of my favourite clothes designerswhjch is joe brown largely,for their use of colour. Having, not spent anything on clothes for a year I bought around 4 items. Made me feel a bit better in that there are positive moves we can Make RE our self esteem and how we feel about ourselves. I have a long way to go on that particular journey as there are many things that need fixing with me physically.
Within an hour today of arising had an ocular migraine triggered again by a computer screen and the light reflection. It is wasn’t bad. Still have to get up and start clearing my clutter. Denise Linn, another authentic new age writer is ofthe view that doing this is one of the best things we can do for ourselves,

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