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Always good to hear from you jonny. I think yoU nailed it re living in the moment. Simplicity, no complications nd recognising emotional triggers. Good luck with the new Job!
Along with Laura, I just prayed for you and your daughter to receive heavens help.
I admire your daughter for doing the right thing. Many people do not know what to do in these circumstances. As long as you get the right sort of help jp i.e. Addictions counselling. A section is only a good thing if you are an immediate danger to yourself. You are not mentally ill although you have an addiction that is classified as a Mental health issue. You have an addiction that has played itself out to its conclusion. When we lose thousands and thousands as I did and lace ourselves with nothing we kind of have a mini breakdown but there is a way out. The question is whether you feel able to cope going forward. I declined to get admitted or sectioned as I felt it would only prolong something that with the right sort of help I could move forward without the trauma of a psychiatric admission, but only you know that. An admission could give you the space you need and give you the supports you require, Within A and e there is usually mental health liaison who can refer you on to a crisis team or addictions counselling. I think it unlikely that you will be sectioned unless you are an immediate danger to yourself. Your daughter cares for you a great deal clearly. I care about what happens to you. We are powerless against this addiction unless we get the right support and help and connect wit our higher power who can help,us out of this cycle of despair. Keep,posting and let us know what happens.
Yes, jp this is your rock bottom. I have been there. I gambled away everything and the rent money. I got a repossession order on my home. Do you privately rent? Perhaps your daughter can help with the immediate like food and a bit of money to see you through the next few days and for you to get to work. You mention you are in work. I was not. I fessed up to my housing association and I still have my home. Hanging on by a thread but I am still here. And got sick on top of this with all the stress. Gambling will only take us down further, the insanity of just keeping going and frittering away thousands in the illusory world we create for ourselves. I went to see my Gp although it took weeks for me to do this of sitting in the abject misery that this illness brings and it is an illness. And there can be recovery. Little steps. Someone said to me when I signed up to this site that I needed time to heal and they were right. But we cannot do it without support. I though I was way past helping and went on the last binge to the same place you are in now. And I can say is that there is help out there and you have to reach for it. We all reach our individual rock bottoms. I hit mine, others when they end up in a psychiatric ward,
Prison or homeless. That is the downward spiral of this addiction. Have you ever been to GA? There you will find hope. There is hope and no one is not worth saving. I mean that, no one. You do not want to destroy yourself, it is the illness running the show that makes you feel like this. Things can and will change. That is for sure but you need to face up to the fact that compulsive gamblers never win, they NEVER win because it always goes back and more. There is light, you are alive and destrying yourself makes the illness the victor. But you can gain mastery over the illness one day at a time. You are better than they. Gambling takes away everything of who we really are and we can get ourselves back over time.Yes, jp this is your rock bottom. I have been there. I gambled away everything and the rent money. I got a repossession order on my home. Do you privately rent? Perhaps your daughter can help with the immediate like food and a bit of money to see you through the next few days and for you to get to work. You mention you are in work. I was not. I fessed up to my housing association and I still have my home. Hanging on by a thread but I am still here. And got sick on top of this with all the stress. Gambling will only take us down further, the insanity of just keeping going and frittering away thousands in the illusory world we create for ourselves. I went to see my Gp although it took weeks for me to do this of sitting in the abject misery that this illness brings and it is an illness. And there can be recovery. Little steps. Someone said to me when I signed up to this site that I needed time to heal and they were right. But we cannot do it without support. I though I was way past helping and went on the last binge to the same place you are in now. And I can say is that there is help out there and you have to reach for it. We all reach our individual rock bottoms. I hit mine, others when they end up in a psychiatric ward,
Prison or homeless. That is the downward spiral of this addiction. Have you ever been to GA? There you will find hope. There is hope and no one is not worth saving. I mean that, no one. You do not want to destroy yourself, it is the illness running the show that makes you feel like this. Things can and will change. That is for sure but you need to face up to the fact that compulsive gamblers never win, they NEVER win because it always goes back and more. There is light, you are alive and destrying yourself makes the illness the victor. But you can gain mastery over the illness one day at a time. You are better than they. Gambling takes away everything of who we really are and we can get ourselves back over time.If you still feel suicidal you can stay with this organisation in London in a non medical setting. They talk with you and that is it. I have been exactly where you are and believe me living and kicking this addiction is the way to go. I decided not to commit suicide, the gambling for me was a slow suicide anyway. Suicide is not the answer. Please keep posting. There are a lot of people on this forum who have been exactly where you are and can help and provide support.
If you read my journal you will see that I was much in the position you are. Bankrupt with a repossession order on my home. Unemployed with my work coach suggesting I go into a hostel for the homeless. As if I would ever do that. Suicide seemed a viable option to stop the pain. But it isn’t. You are caught in the deep emotional sickness of gambling addiction. There is a way out. There is help available. I too am in London and I have found the help and support I needed through GA. please go to a meeting. There are no quick fixes for this but there is a way out. Suicide will cause huge distress for the rest of their lives to those who love you. There is no going back on that decision. And even if you think that no one loves you like I did, you are wrong. Accept that you have a compulsive gambling addiction, that this is an emotional illness and that our thinking gets completely clouded by the self destructive nature of the addiction. That you are not alone and that many other people have become caught up in this illness and have recovered from the brink. if you still feel suicidal, there is an organisation in London where you can stay for a few days to talk things through. I will find their details.
Just to say I looked in on your journal and caught up. Like velvet I really liked your post on the walk in the woods. Very simple pleasures that were lost to us when gambling. I like your honesty. Well done!