[mmyy11]

Geordie

Thank you for your reply.

I have some of the work that i did at GMA and have read and do understand that i have ignored all the signs.after i finished i was very busy with work and life in general. I had to sort out a big mess that i had created over the years, and i did sort my life out beyond believe.

Yes Its FOBs that i gamble on. i cant gamble online as i have a block on my phone and i cant gamble in casinos.

I do understand what you say about been in recovery but when you have two jobs and other responsibility its not easy to attending GA meeting and keeping in touch with outreach team or ex-residents. I thought i had all the tools that i needed to survive but unfortunately i didn’t work hard to live a gamble free life.

The main problem now is that i keep thinking about gambling and pay-day. I have ripped my cards out and will arrange for money to be paid in someone else’s account but unfortunately the damage its done! all the hard work that my self and GMA has done its all diminished.

Thank you for you advice

[mmyy11]

It is really encouraging to hear that. Thank you!
What i find very difficult is the first step as i am on this never ending circle of constantly thinking about my next gamble.

When i came out of GM i was really confident and had every barrier and technique not to gamble and i didn’t even think how to pick myself up in case i did relapse!

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[mmyy11]

Today i have joined as the gambling has taken over my life! I’m an ex resident of GM and was gamble free for a full year! Than i had a relapse and recovered for few months but i did manage to stay away for some times. but for the last 6 months i have gambled every time i have had any money! I just don’t know how to stop as the minute i get payed i don’t think but go straight to the bookies! I feel like i want to end my life as there is no point been around on this state!
I never thought it would be as hard as this!

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