[Min83]

I was sick at myself too.

Outside, I am a full-time mother and hard working person at my job (I am a freelancer and work from home).

My husband trust me, my friends trust me, my colleagues trust me.

But inside, I am a gambling addict with no money.

I spent all my savings in gambling and my daughter’s savings as well.

I was okey with my money but spending my daughter’s saving?! What kind of monster I am…

I needed help so I came out to 3 people (my husband, my sister and my friend) and now I feel I am on the right track.

I got so much support from here as well,  I really do not feel I am not alone.

It took 2years to me to accept my problem and come out.. 

The embarrassing feelings, the guilt, the self hatred… 

I was suffering a lot but I learned & realised that this is the mental disease which you need to treat not to suffer.

Anyone can have an addiction so I want you to stop feeling miserable but focus on to beat this evil addiction! 

Past is past but we can change the future, right? 

When I come out, my husband told me everyone has it’s own flaws and it is not late to fix it.

Accept what you are, seeking help, come out and openly talking about yourself need a lot of courage.

And you did it!

So think this way, you are on the way to clean your mess and you will do it! 

As you wrote here you once  cleared up your debts before, so this time you can do it again. 

But the urges will come and you are much weaker now so that is why I think you should give all your financial control to your partner or someone you trust so you can block yourself from gamble again. 

Then step by step, you find your way to stop this addiction. 

For myself, I read stories in this forum, watch documentaries/ read psychological writing about gambling addiction to learn more about it and trying to beat it.

But I know urges will come to me and I hope I can pass those urges nicely. I really hope.

I am not really sure why I do not feel any urges yet, maybe it’s too soon (I am gamble free for 24days), or I am really determined or I have no money so I know I cannot gamble ?!

I do not know which but I know one thing that it will come to me.

I wanted to be prepared so hopely I can pass when it comes.

I hope you can do too! 

Never too late so be strong!

[Min83]

Hi and welcome.

Thank you for sharing your story.

I can feel your sadness and regrets, but I really would like to let you know that it is not late and you can beat this evil addiction!

I was also struggling with gambling addiction(mainly online) for 2 years (stop and re-start, thinking that I can still control, I can just gamble for fun occasion..) and recently realised that I cannot control myself and seek help here.

I was sad, confused and angry at myself just like you when I first write my story, but I got so much warm and nice support from here that I felt I am not alone and I can stop it.

Today is my 24th days of gambling free.

I think you being honest with your partner was great step towards to stop gambling and I really recommend you to give all your financial access to your partner (keep as little as possible for you) for awhile till you feel confident enough to handle your money again.

I got clean to my husband about my gambling addiction 24 days ago and i gave him all my financial control and kept 100 euro for me (for myself for a month).

This really works for me because,

First of all, you have no money to gamble. Simple fact.

Second, you get great support from your partner and it gives you great motivation to you to stop gambling.

I got enormous amounts of support from here as well so please write and seek help as much as possible.

Lastly, I really want you to know that You are not alone and you can do it!

Let’s do it together!

(There are so much I would like to write, but I am not Native English speaker therefore it is very hard to Express my opnions as much as I want to. I hope you understand it).

[Min83]

Ciao, come stai?

Ho letto il tuo diario e sei stata bravissima!

Quindi sono sicuro che puoi farlo di nuovo e in modo ancora più controllato!

Ho appena iniziato a smettere di giocare (14 giorni gratuiti) e non ho ancora ricevuto alcun impulso.

Ma so che può tornare da me in qualsiasi momento, quindi è per questo che ti ammiro che hai fatto 186 giorni!

Sono sicuro che questa volta, puoi gestirlo molto meglio e spero di poter fare come hai fatto tu quando ricevo stimoli.

Sii forte e sconfiggiamo questo male.

[Min83]

Hallo hoe gaat het?

Ik heb je dagboek gelezen en je hebt het zo goed gedaan!

Dus ik ben er zeker van dat je het opnieuw kunt doen en zelfs op een meer gecontroleerde manier!

Ik ben net begonnen met gokken (14 dagen gratis) en ik heb nog geen enkele drang gekregen.

Maar ik weet dat het op elk moment bij me terug kan komen, dus daarom bewonder ik je dat je 186 dagen hebt gedaan!

Ik ben er zeker van dat je het deze keer veel beter aan kunt en ik hoop dat ik het kan doen zoals jij deed toen ik aandrang kreeg.

Wees sterk en laten we dit kwaad verslaan.

[Min83]

Bok, kako si?

Pročitao sam vaš dnevnik i bili ste jako dobri!

Tako da sam siguran, možete to ponoviti i još kontroliraniji način!

Tek sam počeo prestati s kockanjem (14 dana besplatno) i još nisam dobio nikakav nagon.

Ali znam da mi se to može vratiti u bilo kojem trenutku pa vam se zato divim što ste radili 186 dana!

Siguran sam da ovaj put možete to podnijeti puno bolje i nadam se da ću moći učiniti isto kao i vi kad dobijem poriv.

Budite jaki i pobijedimo ovo zlo.

[Min83]

Merhaba nasılsın?

Günlüğünü okudum ve çok iyi iş çıkardın!

Bu yüzden eminim ki bunu tekrar ve hatta daha kontrollü bir şekilde yapabilirsiniz!

Kumar oynamayı yeni bırakmaya başladım (14 gün ücretsiz) ve henüz herhangi bir dürtü duymuyorum.

Ama her an bana geri dönebileceğini biliyorum, bu yüzden 186 gün yaptığın için sana hayranım!

Eminim bu sefer çok daha iyi başa çıkabilirsin ve umarım dürtüler aldığımda senin yaptığın gibi yapabilirim.

Güçlü ol ve bu kötülüğü yenelim.

[Min83]

ਹਾਏ ਤੁਸੀਂ ਕਿਵੇਂ ਹੋ?

ਮੈਂ ਤੁਹਾਡੀ ਜਰਨਲ ਪੜ੍ਹੀ ਹੈ ਅਤੇ ਤੁਸੀਂ ਬਹੁਤ ਵਧੀਆ ਕੀਤਾ!

ਇਸ ਲਈ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਯਕੀਨ ਹੈ, ਤੁਸੀਂ ਇਸਨੂੰ ਦੁਬਾਰਾ ਅਤੇ ਹੋਰ ਨਿਯੰਤਰਿਤ ਤਰੀਕੇ ਨਾਲ ਕਰ ਸਕਦੇ ਹੋ!

ਮੈਂ ਹੁਣੇ ਹੀ ਜੂਏ ਨੂੰ ਰੋਕਣਾ ਸ਼ੁਰੂ ਕੀਤਾ ਹੈ (14 ਦਿਨ ਮੁਫਤ) ਅਤੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਅਜੇ ਤੱਕ ਕੋਈ ਤਾਕੀਦ ਨਹੀਂ ਮਿਲੀ.

ਪਰ ਮੈਂ ਜਾਣਦਾ ਹਾਂ ਕਿ ਇਹ ਮੇਰੇ ਕੋਲ ਕਦੇ ਵੀ ਵਾਪਸ ਆ ਸਕਦਾ ਹੈ ਇਸ ਲਈ ਮੈਂ ਤੁਹਾਡੀ ਪ੍ਰਸ਼ੰਸਾ ਕਰਦਾ ਹਾਂ ਕਿ ਤੁਸੀਂ 186 ਦਿਨ ਕੀਤੇ!

ਮੈਨੂੰ ਯਕੀਨ ਹੈ ਕਿ ਇਸ ਵਾਰ, ਤੁਸੀਂ ਇਸ ਨੂੰ ਬਹੁਤ ਵਧੀਆ handleੰਗ ਨਾਲ ਸੰਭਾਲ ਸਕੋਗੇ ਅਤੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਉਮੀਦ ਹੈ ਕਿ ਮੈਂ ਉਵੇਂ ਹੀ ਕਰ ਸਕਾਂਗਾ ਜਿਵੇਂ ਤੁਸੀਂ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਬੇਨਤੀ ਕਰਦੇ ਸਮੇਂ ਕੀਤਾ ਸੀ.

ਮਜ਼ਬੂਤ ਬਣੋ ਅਤੇ ਆਓ ਇਸ ਬੁਰਾਈ ਨੂੰ ਹਰਾ ਦੇਈਏ.

[Min83]

Hi, how are you? 

I’ve read your journal and you did so well!

So I am sure, you can do it again and even more controlled way! 

I just started to stop gambling (14days free) and I have not get any urges yet. 

But i know it can come back to me anytime so that is why I admire you that you did 186days! 

I am sure this time, you can handle it much better and i hope i can do like you did when I get urges. 

Be strong and let’s beat this evil. 

[Min83]

Привіт, як ти?

Я читав ваш щоденник, і у вас все вийшло добре!

Тому я впевнений, що ви можете зробити це ще раз і ще більш контрольованим способом!

Я тільки почав припиняти азартні ігри (14 днів безкоштовно), і у мене ще немає жодних порад.

Але я знаю, що це може повернутися до мене в будь -який час, тому я захоплююся тобою, що ти провів 186 днів!

Я впевнений, що цього разу ви зможете впоратися з цим набагато краще, і я сподіваюся, що зможу вчинити так, як ви, коли я отримаю бажання.

Будь сильним і давайте переможемо це зло.

[Min83]

Salut comment ça va?

J'ai lu votre journal et vous l'avez si bien fait!

Alors je suis sûr que vous pouvez le refaire et de manière encore plus contrôlée !

Je viens de commencer à arrêter de jouer (14 jours gratuits) et je n'ai pas encore eu d'envie.

Mais je sais que cela peut me revenir à tout moment, c'est pourquoi je vous admire que vous ayez fait 186 jours !

Je suis sûr que cette fois, vous pouvez le gérer beaucoup mieux et j'espère que je pourrai faire comme vous l'avez fait quand j'ai des envies.

Sois fort et battons ce mal.

[Min83]

Yes, I already self-excluded many of online gambling sites and I am thinking to install gambling blocking software. 

Well done  and let’s be strong! 

I too, hoping that I can be like normal person and enjoy gambling time to time..  

But I know this is very dangerous thought.. 

The mind work.. I hope I can beat it.

For few days, i even stopped watching YouTube channel (i only follow one guy but he upload video daily).

I feel good myself and I hope you too!

Happy valentine’s 🙂 

[Min83]

10years!!

Its so good. Well done.

I hope one day, I could say same as you.

I will try to look for something else as you did and hopefully I can find it soon! 

Thanks again!

[Min83]

Thank you very much for your advice and I will try to focus on goodness and happiness in life.

I am pretty happy that I came out with this addiction. 

The support and advice I got from you guys.. is really really helping me a lot. 

I hope I can be a help to someone too in the future! 

[Min83]

It must have been very hard for you to telling me your story and I really really appeciate it.

I was same.

I mean in your head you know house edges and all but it always makes you think that ‘today is my lucky day, today will be different’. 

I totally understand you and I would like to tell you that I trust you and you can beat this devil I am sure.

You have a good future ahead and let’s not this devil take your happiness. 

I am sure when time goes, you can build trust again with your parents. I am sure about it.

This is disease and we are victim about it, really…

But we say, ‘you gotta clean up your own mess’. 

Let’s focus on clearing up the mess which we caused but do not blame yourself too much. 

I was quitting and relapsed again, quit – relapsed…like fast 2years so I totally understand your feeling and those urges.

But this time, I feel strong because I have support from my family and you guys.

I hope when it comes, I can get over it! 

Thanks a lot for your advice again and as you said, 

It is never too late! 

[Min83]

Thank you very much for your good and honest advice. 

I thought somehow those videos will make me not to gamble with my money as well. 

I am so glad to ask this question and I know now that I should avoid thses too.

I really would like to stop but as time goes by,  I know that some moment I will have urges to gamble again.

When it comes, I really would like to avoid and win over this feelings. 

What do you do usually over come urges? 

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