[micky]

Got through my first day back at work today after 10 weeks off, was really chuffed with the support from the nurse after i told her of my problems ( i even told her about my gambling problem which i have never done before , so thats 2 people i have told in the last month , i must be getting brave or something?) Anyway was good to get back, it’s another piece of stability i needed back in my life. 🙂

[micky]

Hi john my first day back at work went very well thank you for the encouragement and wise words 🙂 i hope your day is going well , gamble free ,and your using the tools out of that tool box 🙂

[micky]

Back to work tomorrow after 10 weeks off, even though ive worked there 29 years im nervous 🙁 about going back , i suppose it’s the reason ive been off ( depression) some people just don’t get it , they think it’s a weakness a bit like addictive problem gambling because they don’t do it they see us as weak 🙁 . Anyway i’m better than them because i know the real me , they can like it or lump it, it’s my life and i’m just as good as any one them who thinks their better than me. Roll on tomorrow .

[micky]

Stick it out John, you are already planning ahead and you know as you have said the urges will come so prepare yourself for them , you have worked really hard over the weekend don’t gamble tomorrow because you know that will ruin it, like Vera says tomorrow morning pick that box of tools up and use them wisely. 🙂

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Into week 3 (22 days to be exact) and my life is so much better without the booze and betting. Iv’e replaced the betting with keep fit and the booze with tea and anything else that i do , what i mean is normal everyday things , things you can’t do when you have been boozing. Early days i know, but each day is a productive day now and i’m enjoying life. I tell myself not to be lazy mentally or physically and it’s working . Looking forward to tomorrow , going to the cemetery to see my mam first thing , then i’m going to watch remembrance sunday on tv. (sober and happy) 🙂

[micky]

Well done john “small steps” lead to” big strides” in the right direction 🙂 Micky

[micky]

(1) I Walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost…I am hopeless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.

(2) I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend i don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I’m in the same place.
But it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

(3) I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in – it’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where i am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

(4) I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

(5) I walk down another street.

By Nyoshul Khenpo.

[micky]

Yesterday i was taking my son home a little later than usual and waiting until that time he said he was bored so to kill time i put a film on (marmaduke) for half an hour or so , we ended up watching the full film , laughing together . It was great something we haven’t done in a long long time. After i took him home i couldn’t stop smiling , if thats whats being normal is about i love it. 🙂

[micky]

Hi Skevoula and welcome to our family of compulsive gamblers , we are all in the same boat as you one way or another. Well done on promising your baby daughter you will not gamble again it’s a great reason not to and something you can think about when you get the urge to gamble when you have money. Micky.

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Sorry to hear about your relapse John but i’m so glad your upbeat about it and ready to go again, you will beat it if your determined to , i have a saying “I will never give up giving up ” I think that applies to you too . 🙂

[micky]

Thanks for your encouraging post john, a whole new world has opened up for me, i now have ambitions and goals to look forward to. My friend mentioned to me that it will be my first christmas without my mam ( yours too) i said to her from now on i celebrate death and all the good memories because there were plenty of them , yes there will be tears but only for a short while because im not letting any negativity drag me down anymore. Your posts are really positive and i’ll echo your sound advice “keep at it ” 🙂 Micky.

[micky]

Day 19 and another normal day, washed and polished the car, picked my son up from school , took him home , life is normal and i’m enjoying it. Plenty of noise outside isn’t it wonderful that we still celebrate guy fawkes night or bonfire night as we call it , you can’t beat tradition . And only 7 weeks until christmas eve 🙂

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Hi Sad yes im still using the books ( i have 2 now) to educate myself on overcoming compulsive gambling , they are so educational , i have found out through them why i gambled. 🙁 And the reasons why i now do not 🙂 Hi Vera yes your right the gambling industry in the name of fun and entertainment does destroy human lives it’s nothing but a destructive industry full stop. Like i said in an earlier post Betfred made £69 million pounds profit last year , those profits only go to a small amount of people whilst the lives of thousands are destroyed. I totally abhor the gambling industry now .

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2 horses have died in the melbourne cup race, one from an horrifically broken leg and the other the favourite having finished last in the race collapsed and died. Re-inforcing one of my reasons i do not gamble anymore due to the cruelty horses have to suffer for greed and so called entertainment. Also last nights documentary about greyhound race fixing , disgraceful , poor dogs running with drugs in their systems to slow them down , thats apart from the awful death they face when they are around 4 years old and no good to race anymore when they will be shot. Glad i’m not part of it anymore i so hate the gambling industry now, it makes me sick just thinking about it. 🙁

[micky]

Yesterday was a great day again, not because of anything special just because it was normal and so today will be too . 🙂

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