[micky]

Thanks John you made alot of sense of the situation he is a young adult and his mother need not know if he decided to contact me i think i may approach him personally rather than by letter which maybe being intercepted . P your a mind reader i am not gambling at the moment so alls good on that front 🙂

[micky]

Thanks Kpat

[micky]

ITS A PRIVATE STORY 🙂 THE NAME . On a much serious note folks i have a son called ROSS he is 21 i have not seen him seen he was 8 years old. He isn’t dead i have paid child maintenance until he was 19 and i have sent christmas cards and birthday cards every year in the last few years leaving my contact numbers inside the card as well , when this all started the non contact etc i got a solicitor on the job basically cost me a couple of thousand quid in 1999/ 2002 i have not had contact with my son since . What am i supposed to do i think about him every day .

[micky]

I’m still here sad just a bit deflated at the minute 🙁

[micky]

Thanks Sad and John for the encouraging posts , Harry i will definitely pop in sometime this week 🙂

[micky]

I think the frustration of this addiction gets to all of us, it just will not go away. No matter what we do it’s everywhere, adverts on tv, street corners, folk talking about it, and then in april the grand bloody national takes the nation over 🙁

[micky]

Thanks everyone i,m okay will post later 🙂

[micky]

12 HOURS AGO I WROTE A HEARTFELT PLEASE HELP ME COMMENT I.E. I HAVE URGES AND CRAVINGS AND NOT ONE OF THE SO CALLED GAMBLING THERAPY TEAM HAVE REPLIED ????????????? SOMETHING WRONG HERE I THINK SURELY TO GOODNESS AT LEAST ONE OF YOU SHOULD BE CHECKING THE MESSAGES 24/7 OR ARE YOU IN YOUR OWN COMFORT ZONES NOW ??????

[micky]

My stomach is churning as i get the urge and craving to go and gamble but i’m not giving in to it too many negatives can come of it too many horrible outcomes .

[micky]

Hope you have a safe journey home john , you sound in good spirits still 🙂 Hit the ground running on your return and you will be fine ” ONE DAY AT A TIME ” 🙂

[micky]

Thanks for your post , Sounds like your holiday is doing you the world of good John you sound very upbeat 🙂 hope it continues for you when you get back to old blighty 🙂

[micky]

Thanks P and Kpat for the encouraging thoughts , music to my ears as well 🙂 Three words Think- Plan- Do. Easier said than done i know but in that order we can all beat this addiction . 🙂 Think-Plan-Do One day at a time 🙂

[micky]

I wasn’t going to but i feel i have to post this , i have just had a great day today , not because something fantastic happened like winning the lottery or i finally got to pay all my debts off or i discovered a money tree in my back yard. I just had a normal day iv’e no doubt the fact i did not drink or gamble helped but i havn’t done those things for about 2 weeks anyway !!!!!!!!!!!! I just had a normal ( great ) day. So if anyone who is reading this thinks they will never get back to normality again , guess what you can i just did. 🙂 (and i never thought i would say that again) 🙂

[micky]

Just realised it’s been 2 weeks since my last re-lapse and i havn’t gambled since then and also checking my spends diary just how little i need for everyday expenses. Still working hard on my “patience” sometimes i have to tell myself to slow down because there is absolutely no rush to do most things 🙂

[micky]

Started my 10 days off today , a bit tired still, having just finished doing 2 night shifts, lots of things to do around the house i have set myself a target of completing at least one worthwhile task a day . Still teaching myself patience , listening to other people attentively definitely works towards it. 🙂

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