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Hi Gov well done on closing down the last one sounds like thats the last barrier you needed to sort out 🙂 M.

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Hi Adam well done you have reached your century of days i’m quite a bit off that 80 to be exact but it’s something to aim for 🙂 M.

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Hi liberty pleased you like my three a day . I had the same problem as you with the councellor i told him at the first consultation what was wrong , 6 sessions later and no further forward i stopped them . I am on medication for my depression and it works when im well, im happy with life. I think one day at a time is the way forward with small goals along the way , bigger goals also to look forward to and the patience to just let them happen in time. i’m going for my walk a little later on today 🙂 M.

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1.Reading (i am reading leningrad by Anna Reed at the moment so much suffering people dying of starvation some stealing dogs to eat to survive. )
2. A warm bed.
3.A G.P. that understands ( Thank you Doctor F. ) some don’t.

Iv’e been working out my shift pattern because i work a 5 week rota which never changes i am currently filling the gaps in when i have time to myself . I think structure is something i need in my life and filling the gaps in will help towards that. Went for my paper this morning and came home and threw the sports supplement straight into the re-cycle bin. “Hey diddle di do , the re-cycle bin for you” 🙂 M.

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1. The present.
2. Wildlife.
3. Hot Baths.

Walked into town again this morning , saw two wild rabbits , nice to see them without a care in the world . 🙂

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Your going through alot right now lauren, but it will all be worth it in the end three words “EXPERIENCE, STRENGTH” AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST YOU DO HAVE “HOPE” . You have made the decision to go to GMA. because you want to , YOU ARE DOING IT . 🙂 M.

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Well that makes three of us practically skint 🙁 On a happier note yes your right i can see scotland and the isle of man on a clear day , i love the sound of the waves at my favourite place st bees and it’s only about 6 miles via the cliffs away 🙂 I hope your stay at GMA goes well for you and it’s the start of a gamble free life 🙂 M.

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Hi Liberty just been reading through your thread it’s almost a mirror image of how i feel somedays, anxious, manic, depressed you are very honest and up front about it all and i like that ,i too have suffered from depression for many years now 🙁 There is hope for us all who reach out and for it 🙂 M.

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1. Never giving up giving up .
2. Sunny days.
3. Clean Clothes .

Today i walked into town because i had to, walked back via the the cliff path overlooking the irish sea, pleased i did because much more to see and farther to see it and the fresh air was good. 🙂

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Thanks Harry you have given me a few things to think about. I have had counselling through gamcare in the past and this time after going private i felt as though i was getting nowhere the guy just wanted me to talk about my childhood and it brought so many bad memories it was really getting to me. I have been to AA and if GA is the same format i don’t think that would work for me either. I hope i’m not sounding negative but thats the way i feel right now however i will take on board what you have said . Thanks . M.

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1. The royal family.
2.Being patriotic.
3.Happy memories of my Mam/Dad.
One for me to remember “Accept the things you cannot change and appreciate the things you have ” ( this is in reference to 2 of my children who i don’t have contact with) I have 4 children the other two i am in contact with. Although because my daughter will not speak to me i don’t get to see my 2 grand daughters whom i used to see if they were visiting my late mother. Complicated i know but in the cold light of day it hurts me so much to know they are out there and i can’t see them . Which is why i should concentrate on the two i do see . 🙂 M.

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Thanks for your post, yea the money thing is really dragging me down , 12 days until payday 🙁 Thanks for asking about Joey , he pulled through and is still with us he is two and a half years old a good age for a hamster, he sleeps most of the time then eats the other times , wouldn’t it be great if our lives were that simple . I’m doing the three things a day to remind me life isn’t that bad. I have no family support whatsoever which doesn’t help . Iv’e done things on my own for years now so anyway i’m used to it , main thing is i’m not gambling or abusing alcohol . I need what little money i have for food . When my mam died last year i didn’t realise how much i would miss her it’s left a big void in my life , it’s something you which you can never prepare for . On a good note however it’s good to look back on the good times we had together, our love of the royal family , patriotism, tennis, manchester united, and boy could she drink coffee and smoke , smoked and lived to the ripe old age of 86 , was cremated on what would have been her 87th birthday and the day she died her passport ran out, coincidence i know. Sorry for rambling on i just realised i was . M.

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1. Music.
2. Sport.
3. My faith.
I love my music the jam being one of my fav bands, sport england rugby union being one of my fav teams, and i have always believed in god, love the footprints story. ( the amount of times he’s carried me he must have a sore back by now )

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Hi lauren i have read a few of your posts , having read the last one on Bonobo’s thread i was touched by how you empathised and explained lots of things in a few sentences it was very uplifting and i could read it over and over 🙂 Plus the video was excellent i stated laughing after 1.09 minutes , i haven’t laughed properly for 16 days. Thank you . M.

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I went to the bank today and applied for an arranged overdraft to tie me over until payday , i prayed to god to help me get it . I didn’t get it so i’m here again all emotionally wrecked inside . I’m not blaming god i believe in god i’m a christian and i know he doesn’t always answer our prayers. Iv’ e been far lower than this in my life and thought there was know way out so i know i will get through this . I have an appointment next month at the CNWL but having read one of charlsters posts i think i may have been put off it . I’m not sure what to do anymore . GMA looks a great place but how on earth do you get 12 weeks off work. ? I’m looking out the window right now . It’s dull and grey i can see a tree a sea gull and rain . M.

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