[micky]

There comes a time when you totally exhaust yourself of something and finally accept it will not change anything the more you worry/ stress/ get anxious etc about it. Moving on has been the best thing for me recently.

[micky]

It’s taken me a long time but i am on the path i want to be on and sticking to it, no weeds , potholes, booby traps, mines, nettles but best of all no bookmakers. 🙂

[micky]

Yesterday and Today a few things have gone wrong , not major things but things which in the past may have sent me on an (escapism) but i have thought them through and took a step back and put them into the context they belong. Time for headache tablets and a cup of tea . 🙂

[micky]

There comes a time when you realise and understand why you gamble and mine has come , escapism was my reason. And now i have escaped from escapism and put to bed the reasons why i was using gambling as an alternative to facing up to what was bothering me in my life. No it isn’t easy and i would be lying if i said it was, but accepting the things i can’t change and appreciating the things i have is something i have finally come to terms with , it’s taken a long time but finally the pennies dropped .

[micky]

Another normal day ,what a difference it makes without thinking about or participating in gambling i am getting used to this and enjoying my life once again.

[micky]

The gambling therapy site is and always will be a haven where we can access our journals , support groups , live helplines etc etc etc. We can post 24 hours a day our feelings whether good or bad or middling and also meet like minded people who are in recovery or helping a friend / family who are in recovery . Not forgetting the hard working staff who never judge but give invaluable advice. I have been part of it for a long time now and will be for as long as it is available which i hope is forever . It says what it is on the tin. 🙂

[micky]

Normality is good and i am enjoying it , feels like a new beginning for me , never felt as calm in myself for a long time . A little bit of a problem earlier tonight but it will get sorted , thought process is working for me.

[micky]

Another great day , exercise, parents evening, coffee at my friends house it’s great doing normal day to day things. It feels like all the pieces are falling into place for me now .

[micky]

Having a lovely normal day today, we cannot have one if we are gambling whether losing or winning when were addicts.

[micky]

Looking Forward to Friday November the 13th and my last payment to my D.M.P. . I have been working my budget out again for when my December salary goes into my bank it is almost right but i will probably change it and tweak it before then until it’s exactly how i want it. Never thought i would get myself back into this financial position ever again. Thanks to Stepchange this has been made possible. It’s also helped that i have opened up to my Brother and my Sister in law and a good Friend over the last few months and that they have been very very supportive , it really is good to talk to the right people.

[micky]

In a group session on friday we were talking about independence day and how the americans celebrate it and how other nationalities celebrate their various days . Charles came up with an idea that we can have our own being the last day we ever gambled and celebrate it’s anniversary as our Independence day .

[micky]

Hi FG thanks for your support on my thread and i’m sorry to hear of your last slip too but you have moved on quickly like me from it so well done on that . Your post says “hope” and “hopefuly” i do not use that word i have changed it to “know” it’s called positive thinking “hope” no i “KNOW” you will like it. Thanks once again for the positive post on my thread. 🙂

[micky]

Yes Charles i have been discussing this with my brother and his wife about what to do with the extra cash , they have advised me on what to do , main things are sorting out a new mortgage deal where by my mortgage is paid off before i retire , a holiday account, a car account and a savings account. Recently i have been joining in the therapy groups i wish i’d done so sooner they really are what they say on the tin.

[micky]

I thought i was in control i suppose i got cocky , carrying all you need is a valuable tool to carry in our tool kit, iv’e added it to mine .

[micky]

It doesn’t get easier one day at a time in fact it gets harder , long days especially if your dealing with depression too when you are not yourself but put that false smile on anyway. Having said that when you look back on a day gamble free whether it was long or not it’s a great achievement in it’s self 🙂 I’m using a thought process at the minute when my mind tells me i’m down i talk to myself ( in my head of course) and tell myself “hey on november 13th my last payment to my D.M.P will be paid and i will have a very nice december so think positive micky lad” 🙂

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