[micky]

I for one love Christmas the other day i was marvelling at all the windows with lights in them and the christmas lights in town and the people busying themselves round the shops doing their christmas shopping. I think it’s a wonderful christian tradition and i love to see all the people joining in. I will be having christmas dinner for one again since my mam died almost 2 years ago because i used to have it with her. It’s hard to believe that i have 3 grown up children whom i never spend christmas with but thats another storey . So i’m happy in my own way and looking forward to christmas day plus the added bonus that my 10 rest days off start on christmas day this year 🙂 Happy Christmas everyone, 🙂

[micky]

Had a really bad moment about an hour ago , well it still is bad but although my head was saying gamble gamble gamble escape escape escape i didn’t . So pleased i’m home safe and sound , my head is telling me to let go , my heart is saying i can’t , i hope i find a happy medium to my dilemma.

[micky]

Being gamble free is the most wonderful feeling i have had in a long time. My moneys mine, my minds fine and best of all my lifes mine.

[micky]

I am currently learning to “surf the urge “, had one today when i saw how much my salary is next week, got those thoughts in my head and feelings in my stomach but surfed them and eventually they did go 🙂

[micky]

Thanks Vera “Progress not Perfection” is a good way of looking at my recovery, each day is progress now 🙂 .

[micky]

Just checking in folks, my treatment with the NPGC is going really well. My life is a bit like a jigsaw puzzle at the moment i have all the pieces and am fitting them altogether. I have a strange feeling though that i should have done more sooner to help myself overcome my addicton it’s like i’m now on a guilt trip. Having said that all said and done i’m a whole lot happier in my new life now, hope this makes sense 🙂

[micky]

Not sure where the time is going now i have my life back since i stopped gambling . I’m so happy and have not felt this good for years 🙂 so much to look forward to i have to keep pinching myself to remind myself it’s really happening 🙂

[micky]

Well done fg on finding the help thats working for you i tried everything and anything and i’m now so relieved it’s hard to explain the feelings i’m going through. Thanks for your post on my thread it is a strange feeling being debt free after all these years but i’m loving every minute. 🙂

[micky]

My treatment is going great with the N.P.G.C. it has coincided with my D.M.P last payment so i’m so pleased it’s working out . I would advise anyone who is thinking of getting treatment to do it as early as you can and get the ball rolling as these things take time to get started, self-help is a great but i think everyone needs some other kind of help and after trying everything else this is working for me. 🙂 🙂 🙂

[micky]

Every non-gamble day is a happy normal one 🙂

[micky]

Like i said Vera i hate confrontation, anyway it’s in the past now. I have and have had better things to worry out. Coffee morning tomorrow in aid of the charity i volunteer for i’m on the door 🙂 meet and greet .

[micky]

Today this morning i had a bit of an a arguement with a work colleague probably the worst time as we were waiting to go home for our 10 rest days off. I didn’t like what he was saying and told him so and he didn’t like me saying my bit. Anyway we did speak on the way home as i was sitting in the back of the car with him. I so hate confrontation but felt as if i had to say my piece, now i’m regretting it and still feel pissed off with myself i’m usually very diplomatic. So not to let it spoil my day i have got on with my usual normal day and resisted the urge to find solace and escapism in the bookmakers which i would have done in the past. 🙂

[micky]

Today i have used my thought barriers, i did get a passing thought about gambling but quickly imagined losing the first bet and then another and what it would lead too and it worked very well. Then later i imagined all the goals i have and what would have happened to them had i acted on that negative thought. I am proud to say everything i have put into place is working for me and that my treatment with the NPGC starts on monday , i have never felt so positive about my life and future in a very long time.

[micky]

Hi Mick and well done on your gamble -free new you , i am also 51 and ive been gambling 35 years so were almost the same on that score too. I enjoyed meeting you on chat the other day 🙂 keep up the good work . Micky .:)

[micky]

Normality is good and getting better, not enough time in the day now to do normal things . 🙂

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