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One of my issues is estrangement from 2 of my children , estrangement they call it , i call it not talking to me. If only they would realise how much it hurts me mentally. Standalone.org.uk supports people like me , checking out the website i found i was not alone in fact many thousands are in the same position as me. Before anyone says have you tried this or that , iv’e tried everything . I just thought i would post about this in case anyone is in a similar position to me.

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Hi laura i hope you have told your son what happened i’m sure he will understand and never put you in that position again. You say tell someone who will monitor my spending , could you ask your son ? just an idea, either way let us know your okay and coping with life .

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Another beautiful day , time for a cup of tea in the garden . Life may not be ideal but i can’t change or undo the past only the present and future is in my hands.

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Day 21 ( 3 weeks ) and the days are mounting up nicely .

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20 days and £20 = i must be doing something right , hope everyone else is finding their focus and doing well.

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Wise words focused and on track , we all have our own methods to keep both of these going.

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Day 24 and counting like me as well Darren it’s good to mark our progress/recovery .

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Day 19 and an early post from me because i have had quite a strong urge to gamble today , could be because i finished night shift this morning a bit wound up. Also think i might be thinking you have finished your shifts and now have 6 off , reward time via a bet. Iv’e really had to sit and think this through today . Day £19.

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Day 18 and another new number , Vera i reward myself each day with a £1 not a great amount but i can spend it on something i like big or small depending on how long i let it build up i’m not trying to buy myself peace of mind iv’e already started to address other issues in my life by being stronger and concentrating on things i can change (including being sober) . I-did-it not sure what i’m going to spend it on but i will let you know when i do . Day £18.

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Thanks Lizbeth i totally agree one day at a time and the rewards just happen . Day 17 and £17 now in my kitty , getting up today with a clear head and no anxiety etc brought on by gambling is just so mind altering , i am embracing the days now .

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Day 16 lots of thoughts today on my recovery so far and where i want to be tomorrow, next week, next year and in the next 5 years , life is good, i choose life . ( and £16 in my kitty )

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Thanks Charles much appreciated. Day 15 another milestone , everyday is a new number and therefore a new milestone .

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At the moment my kittys right beside me in a tin but i do take on board your point charles if it reaches a significant amount before i treat myself i will bank it.

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New day 14, 2 weeks a fortnight and everyday gets better and better. In town today and got the urge to gamble it lasted about 10 seconds as i quickly thought it through inside my head why i was in town and what for. I did have £10 in my wallet and when i think about it you can buy alot for £10 .

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new day and new number 13 , getting that i need more time in the day feeling now thats how good life is .

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