[mickdeno]

ODAAT is something i really bellieve in and something that we can all achieve. and each and every day we get through is an achievement to be proud of. Today i did the shopping for my ex, watched a film and played with the kids, ate a meal, wasnt late for anything and put my kids to bed. All small things but all things i struggled to do in past. Been a great february so far (despite the weather!) and lets hope the rest of it will be too. Good luck everyone!

[mickdeno]

Hi Lorraine

I dont know your story but reading your first post on this strikes a lot of chords with me. I do not doubt all the troubles you have but as you can already see from other replies you are not alone and you are not without hope. The fact you have came on this shows to me you have not given up and nor should you. My own experience tells me each and every problem we create for ourselves is not the end of the world, taken in isolation they can all be dealt with, but we struggle not to see it all as one whole heap of crap we cant deal with. But we can, it sounds to me like you have dealt with a lot in the past and you can do it again. Keep the faith, take care, Michael

[mickdeno]

Hi everyone. Well i am approx 6 weeks further on into my non gambling life from when i last updated and i am happy to say with pride i am still gambling free
The 6 weeks have not been easy in many ways. My nan suffered a major stroke and sadly passed away after 2 weeks in hospital. This has obviously been hard in many ways, not least seeing the effect it has had on my mum, a fantastic lady who has suffered so much over the years through my gambling. But on the positive side i am really glad i was able to support her through such a tough time
The effects of all this are still ongoing and i have not been able to settle into the routine i had hoped to. But what i keep telling myself is that i have built so many bridges and overcame so many barriers since i got home, even though the “rewards” are not always obvious. I guess like a lot of you guys will know a lot of the things am doing will reap rewards in the long term, hopefully people are slowly slowly starting to build trust in me.
I have gone through a phased return to work and am now back on full hours. In 6 weeks ive managed not to stay off sick as i couldnt face work due to some gambling catastrophe, which day by day doesnt seem much but sitting here now i can recognise as an achievement.
Ive built my relationship with Becky, mum of my 2 kids, and my 2 wonderful kids a helluva lot and i do feel like a proper dad. Despite all the debts, all the misery from the past, i have a lot going for me and i continue to work to recognise that.
There have been some other tough moments, some friends havent been as welcoming as id hoped and maybe unexpectedly. ive realised some people will always look negatively at me, people i didnt expect to, but really thats the price i have to pay. it hurts at the time, of course it does, but as i mentioned i have a lot going for me and this time last year id have never have thought id say that so im truly grateful. Thank you and goodnight!

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