[Meghna83]

hi RG,

yes I see the Meghan thing. Meghna is an indian name. 

Thank you for taking the time to reply to my post. You’re right, I need to fill the time doing things I like. steev‘ s post reminded me of this also.

mummy group is a good ideA. I think I also need a holiday. Since falling pregnant in feb last year, I’ve not  been anywhere….perhaps a trip to Sicily or Rome and Naples or athens.

hubby works so hard and it would be a nice surprise for him. I start work in july so a nice break, before I’m back in the thick of it, will be uplifting.

thank you again 

[Meghna83]

when I first experienced by big loss, it was around £4000-£6000. Just finished my teacher training and moved to Paris. My ex boyfriend knew nothing about it. I won £14000 following three bets in the space a 2 weeks and I thought I was onto something good. Initiall, I signed up for the gambling site and deposited £20-30 as part of a cask back deal. I would be paid an extra £50 for just doing that. I randomly placed a bet on a monopoly game and won big. WOW I thought. Quick money and I felt lucky. Then played online whilst new in Paris and “won” £5000 twice. Of course I lost it all plus £4000-£6000 on my overdraft. 

Something clicked in my head to let go. I was good at putting myself in check back then. “You win some you lose some…lesson learnt…never again!” I said. It was just money and I never looked back. Did not consider myself a CG at all. Just acceptEd I was stupid and that gambling was a lie.

I never thought about it again but then I’d never played slots then either.

this time seems a lot harder to accept and leave behind. I, like you, find it extremely difficult to accept my losses and that it could happen to me. Someone who has always done well academically and is always in the green financially. Since having my daughter, the amount I spend on things has reduced drastically, despite having a relatively healthy bank balance.

my husband always commended me for being so good with our finances. In spite of being placed on That plinth (by him), I came clean about my recent massive losses. He was angry but forgave me. He still gives me £400 in cash per week, rent he gets weekly from his bureau de change unit in his store. This is his way of showing me the trust is still there so long as I don’t break it again. 

I have slipped over the past two days playing free spins and gambling small amounts but I don’t intend to do it again. No losses but I will not heal if this continues 

[Meghna83]

Your words have such clarity steev and I especially liked your explanation of “… but is that how we wanted to use up our limited resources … time and the good health we (mostly) currently have to enjoy it.” That stood out to me about how I feel about myself.

I began my own travels in 2012 and that stopped in 2016. Lived in france and moved around  then Switzerland. I fell in love with France. The language, drama, culture And men !!! 

I learnt so much about myself and the world beyond the U.K. I’m 35 now and wish I could still be on that road. Everything was a new discovery and taken by me as it was, without judgement.

I wish I could keep the French alive in me. So today I’m watching everything in French, YouTube clips and films.

i love languages always have 

 used to have so many dreams of making my place somewhere out there. Buy a house in France and travel more in Italy. Also a beautiful culture and country. 

Today i am going to plan a trip to Italy and speak more French 

thank you steev 

[Meghna83]

Сегодня я играл в азартные игры, и мне это не нравилось. Ничего не потерял, но если продолжу, то потеряю намного больше, чем в прошлый раз. Я понимаю, что на самом деле мне нужно самостоятельно заблокировать еще несколько сайтов.

[Meghna83]

I gambled Today and not feeling good about it. Didn’t lose anything but if I continue I will lose a lot more than I did last time. I realise that I actually have to self ban on a few more sites. 

[Meghna83]

Idi I agree, if I had the cash I think my gambling just wouldnt happen. Love the idea of going back to good old fashioned paying bills at the bank for everything!

[Meghna83]

I experienced that blur. scary. Lost 19,000£ within 30mins. Try to let go and look at what you can do here and now 

[Meghna83]

Szia Izzi Hogy vannak a dolgok? Van előrelépés a bf -vel való kommunikációban?

nem könnyű, ha szeretteinkről van szó. Reménykedj és küzdj a kapcsolataidért is. A távolodás nem mindig a válasz vagy könnyű. Dolgozzon végig és legyen türelmes

nehéz időszak, de ebből sokkal erősebben fogsz kijönni

[Meghna83]

Hoi Izzi Hoe gaat het? Enige vooruitgang met de communicatie met je vriendje?

het is niet gemakkelijk als het gaat om dierbaren. Heb hoop en vecht ook voor je relatie. Weglopen is niet altijd het antwoord of gemakkelijk. Werk er doorheen en heb geduld

moeilijke tijd maar je komt hier veel sterker uit

[Meghna83]

ਹੈਲੋ ਇਜ਼ੀ ਚੀਜ਼ਾਂ ਕਿਵੇਂ ਹਨ? ਤੁਹਾਡੇ bf ਨਾਲ ਸੰਚਾਰ ਵਿੱਚ ਕੋਈ ਤਰੱਕੀ?

ਜਦੋਂ ਅਜ਼ੀਜ਼ਾਂ ਦੀ ਗੱਲ ਆਉਂਦੀ ਹੈ ਤਾਂ ਇਹ ਸੌਖਾ ਨਹੀਂ ਹੁੰਦਾ. ਉਮੀਦ ਰੱਖੋ ਅਤੇ ਆਪਣੇ ਰਿਸ਼ਤੇਦਾਰਾਂ ਲਈ ਵੀ ਲੜੋ. ਦੂਰ ਚੱਲਣਾ ਹਮੇਸ਼ਾਂ ਉੱਤਰ ਜਾਂ ਸੌਖਾ ਨਹੀਂ ਹੁੰਦਾ ਇਸ ਦੁਆਰਾ ਕੰਮ ਕਰੋ ਅਤੇ ਧੀਰਜ ਰੱਖੋ

ਮੁਸ਼ਕਲ ਸਮਾਂ ਪਰ ਤੁਸੀਂ ਇਸ ਤੋਂ ਬਹੁਤ ਮਜ਼ਬੂਤ ਹੋਵੋਗੇ

[Meghna83]

Hai Izzi Apa kabar? Ada kemajuan dengan komunikasi dengan bf Anda?

itu tidak mudah ketika datang ke orang yang dicintai. Memiliki harapan dan berjuang untuk hubungan Anda juga. Berjalan pergi tidak selalu merupakan jawaban atau mudah. Kerjakan melaluinya dan bersabarlah

waktu yang sulit tetapi Anda akan keluar dari ini jauh lebih kuat

[Meghna83]

Hej Izzi Hvordan går det? Er der fremskridt med kommunikationen med din bf?

det er ikke let, når det kommer til kære. Hav håb og kæmp også for jeres relationer. At gå væk er ikke altid svaret eller let. Arbejde igennem det og vær tålmodig

hård tid, men du vil komme ud af dette meget stærkere

[Meghna83]

Hei Izzi Miten menee? Onko edistystä kommunikoinnissa bf: n kanssa?

se ei ole helppoa rakkaiden suhteen. Toivoa ja taistella myös suhteistasi. Kävely pois ei ole aina vastaus tai helppo. Työskentele sen läpi ja ole kärsivällinen

vaikeaa aikaa, mutta tulet ulos tästä paljon vahvempana

[Meghna83]

Hola Izzi ¿Cómo van las cosas? ¿Algún progreso en la comunicación con tu novio?

no es fácil cuando se trata de seres queridos. Ten esperanza y lucha también por tus relaciones. Alejarse no siempre es la respuesta o es fácil. Resuélvalo y sea paciente

tiempo difícil pero saldrás de esto mucho más fuerte

[Meghna83]

Hei Izzi Hvordan går det? Noen fremskritt med kommunikasjonen med din venn?

det er ikke lett når det kommer til sine nærmeste. Ha håp og kjemp også for forholdet ditt. Å gå bort er ikke alltid svaret eller lett. Jobbe gjennom det og vær tålmodig

tøff tid, men du kommer sterkere ut av dette

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