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Кэтрин, так приятно видеть вас здесь, а также видеть, как вы публикуете сообщения, вы любящий человек с очень доброй душой, позаботьтесь о себе, мой друг, вы действительно бесценны, всегда желаю вам удачи и скоро поговорите. Maverick

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Lizbeth Lizbeth Lizbeth my dear friend, just because you didn’t make it to church doesn’t make you a bad person my friend I can promise you that, I have been to church many times in my life although not for the last 5 or more years (I am 41 now) belive you me my bond with God now is greater than it has ever been but hey that’s a different story……..just wanted to share with you and wish you well, life is like a roller coaster my friend and I have two free tickets so why don’t you join me in the front cart and we can chat and share together, keep smiling Lizbeth and keep the faith I promise you all will be well!

So very happy to know you and very glad our paths crossed in life your effort and determination will not be wasted, speak soon my friend and always wish u well.

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Lizbeth I honestly believe if it wasn’t for my gambling addiction and finding recovery I wouldn’t be the man I am today, I have learnt so much because of the road I have taken and in truth it’s made me a better person……like you we learn alot about ourself and yes we have many good parts, take care and hope this finds you well.

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Lisa Ann welcome and very well done on sharing and posting on here, it really does help to express how you are feeling and the thing being we totally understand you as are in the same boat so to speak, keep sharing and reading, I really wish you well and great work on 2 days gamble free, take care.

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Kin have faith as I know you do………..just float through the next few days and I just know something will turn up for you I have a really good feeling.

Stay strong and faithfull

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Lizbeth, Kin and Monica thank you for your kind posts and support you are all very kind.

Kathryn thankyou once again for your kind words before your support is always received with a smile and reading back over posts you have made your humour is just like mine, Kathryn I am worried about you now, I cannot find your thread to post so I will say what I have to on mine, you are so supportive to me and very many, you always help, offer advice and share honestly and I just love the way you come across sounds silly but in many ways you remind me of me lol, please just let me know you are ok……I know I am a fine one to talk and disappeared for months but hey whos perfect, always wish you well Kathryn and wherever you are you are in my thoughts and prayers, you are a good person and never forget that.

Ok all that’s me for the night I am drained, exhausted, beat, stressed, perplexed but also chilled……….just for today I didn’t gamble and trust me that’s a result, my love to you all.

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Sherrie, what can I say apart from you are a wonderful women, so very happy our paths crossed in life, it sounds like you are still going through awful lot in life and under immense pressure, I know your life has been far from easy but you really are a strong women and being truthful if you hadn’t of helped me like you did when I first found recovery probably around 7 years ago, I know for a fact I wouldn’t be here now, If I can ever help in any way I promise you I will, please keep posting Sherrie your words have so much meaning and your honest sharing offers so much hope to you and many, I really do hope you are keeping well and please share again very soon, I know many people miss you.

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Laura hope you are keeping well, first of all my very best wishes to your cousin with her upcoming surgery my thoughts and prayers with you both, secondly my friend it is perfectly normal for a husband and wife to annoy each other with certain habits……well so my wife tells me lol, joking apart we are all different and all have our own “little quirks” I don’t know how long you have been together I have been with my wife for 22 years and now 41 so we meet very young, now I have said this many times when she has spoken to her friends and comes back and tells me they have a perfect life and they never argue with there partners………yes the first word that comes to my mind is a swear world lol and starts with bull however being serious all couples argue, annoy each other (to some extent) and have habits the other doesn’t like, in truth you are right to point them out so he can address them, if you both love each other like I am sure you do then everything will be good, we are what we are and there is nothing wrong with that, keep being you and keep doing what you do because I am sure he loves you that way.

Take care and always good to see you around and read yours post, my very best to you.

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I-did-it what a wonderful uplifting post, thanks for your ongoing support, always so nice to see you around and will always wish you well, I like “quite healthy” I wont describe mine at the moment as just for today I don’t want to swear, I was told many years ago swearing is because we have a small vocabulary…………I have to disagree because over the years I believe I have built up a pretty good vocabulary however at times swear words just really seen to fit the bill lol

Anyway wish you well my friend and keep moving in the right direction as I know you will, take care and look after yourself.

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Monica thanks for your kind post on my thread, have just been catching up and reading through many over the last few hours and decided to respond to a few.

You make a wonderful statement when you say “as I come across so many spiritual people who do what I would call very unspiritual things” I know this to be true and like you rightly say Jesus would have a few things to say about it, we would be surprised in life about certain people who are close to God and say nothing about it………not being ashamed by it but just keeping it quite, anyway I have rambled on enough and in truth a conversation that could go on for weeks.

Hope you are keeping well and wish you my very best, thanks for posting on my journal means a lot.

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Kin thanks for your posts, prayers and inspirational words, you are a kind soul and God knows it, always wish you well.

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Just be there when she needs you Lizbeth that’s all you can do.

Take care

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Kids Lizbeth you gotta love them……..always keep you on your toes………..all your life from what I hear lol, take care my friend and you can only ever do your best, hope this finds you well!

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Lizbeth, SarahJ and Kin thanks for your posts and support always nice to read.

I am on my lunch break from work so thought it would be a good time to update, so after my wifes issue with sepsis and being in hospital for a long period of time she is back home safe and recovering really well. It’s been really tough and emotional, I didn’t go to work for 3 weeks as my kids were in a right mess with it all and in truth I was also, my lad is 11 and he seemed to handle it better than my daughter who is 8, although my boy is good at hiding his emotions! The problem being is I work long hours and although I love them very much they have there mother their for everything, while my wife was in hospital I grew to know my kids again did everything with them and it’s amazing to see how close they became to me again because I was the only one there, also my children were both I’ll in the time my wife was in hospital and just wanted mummy as kids always do, some nights once I had got the kids to sleep I would cry alone just in despair (not from gambling) just from all the worry grief and pain that was going on around me, I didn’t gamble for weeks and in truth I just had way to much going on, I prayed as I always do and in truth I know it is a mirace my wife is still alive and recovering well, I won’t share the whole story but in short got turned away from the hospital 3 times and doctors once each time I had to carry my wife out because she could not walk I could tell she was dieing as I know her so well you could see the life draining from her body and doctors and consultants kept saying it was just a viral thing.

I kept pestering and going back 4 different people in 36 hours and still be told go home rest she will get better, the last time she couldnt move, talk and looked deathly, I said to her I have to take you to the hospital again as this just isn’t right she looked at me and just about managed to say don’t move me leave me here I can’t move……………I cried picked her up and carried her to the car drove up to the hospital again and on the way my wife’s phone rings and was showing (16 missed calls) she hadn’t been using it and I never touch it however it rang again and I answered it and was just about to tell someone to Foxtrot Oscar and it was a consultant from the hospital saying we urgently need to see your wife there has been a mix up with her bloods and she is dangerously I’ll. ……….to which I answered no shit……….anyway the rest is history……..

I can’t get certain parts out of my head and have been having nightmares about the night she was so I’ll and in so much pain………I know this will pass in time and just need to work on myself and get myself back into a good mental place being honest while all this was happening I looked after my kids and wife but let myself slip as just didn’t have the time.

Anyway I have used up all my miracles for the rest of my life and in fairness that’s fine because I still have the women I love with all my heart and always will, I may be many things in life compulsive gambler being one of them but to name a few however I know for a fact I am also a loving husband and loving farther who would do anything for my wife and children!

Day 2 gamble free and just for today I will not gamble………the temptation is always there I can’t lie but just for today I have a hole to get out off and that’s exactly what I am going to do.

My very best to you all and as always wish you all well.

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Lizbeth, Idid it, Kathryn and Velvet thank you for your kind words and thoughts they are gratefully received, I am so tired and promise to post more today but I had to post today.

Last day gambled today 22nd April 2018 – I was really doing well but messed up – I will learn I know I will

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