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Lizbeth, amica mia, è bello vederti combattere ed essere onesti è l'unico modo, sì scivoliamo / scommettiamo…….. e sappiamo che è sbagliato, sappiamo che provoca dolore e sofferenza, lottiamo duramente contro di esso ma a volte falliamo, dovresti essere orgogliosa Lizbeth perché lavori per il recupero ogni giorno ed è quello che serve, pensavo di essere in un buon posto ma sono finito in un giorno uno…….lavorare al recupero ogni giorno è il unico modo…..perchè so che per me in un giorno posso fare anni di danni ! n nAbbi cura di te e il mio meglio per te

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Lizbeth, minha amiga, é bom ver você lutando e sendo honesta, é a única maneira, sim, nós escorregamos / apostamos … e sabemos que é errado, sabemos que causa dor e sofrimento, lutamos muito contra isso mas às vezes falhamos, você deve se orgulhar Lizbeth porque você trabalha na recuperação todos os dias e isso é o que é necessário, eu pensei que estava em um bom lugar, mas acabei em um dia ……. trabalhar na recuperação todos os dias é o única maneira ….. porque eu sei por mim em um dia eu posso causar anos de danos! n nTome cuidado e meu melhor para você

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Lizbeth, můj příteli, je hezké vidět tě bojovat a být upřímný, to je jediná cesta, ano, my sklouzáváme / hazardujeme …….. a víme, že je to špatně, víme, že to způsobuje bolest a utrpení, tvrdě proti tomu bojujeme ale občas se nám to nepovede, měla bys být hrdá, Lizbeth, protože každý den pracuješ na uzdravení a to je to, co jsem potřebovala, myslela jsem si, že jsem na dobrém místě, ale skončila jsem v jeden den ……. jediný způsob ….. protože vím, že za jeden den mohu napáchat roky škod! n n Dávejte na sebe pozor a budu se vám moc snažit

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Lizbeth min venn det er hyggelig å se deg kjempe videre og ærlig det er den eneste måten, ja vi sklir / gambler …….. og vi vet at det er galt, vi vet at det forårsaker smerte og lidelse, vi kjemper hardt mot det men til tider mislykkes vi, du bør være stolt Lizbeth fordi du jobber med gjenoppretting hver dag, og det er det som trengs, jeg trodde jeg var et bra sted, men endte opp på en veldig fin dag. eneste måte ….. fordi jeg vet for meg på en dag at jeg kan gjøre års skade! n n Ta vare på deg og mitt aller beste til deg

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Lizbeth very sorry to hear about your friend and yes you are right she is making friends on the other side already and having fun, really nice to see you are doing well, gambling kills us, destroys us and there is no good to come of it, take care lizbeth and look after yourself, hope this finds you well and speak soon.

Maverick

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Steev, Kin, Charles and Lizbeth your replies are really appreciated thank you very much.

I gambled and messed up……..again…..it’s not the first time and really hope it’s the last……as always that’s down to me and only I can control that outcome but I can use all the tools I can to help me in my quest for a better life !

I have worked out my recent triggers…….drinking silly amounts of alcohol didn’t help my cause as I seemed to loose all my senses and hit the self destruct button, it had been building up inside on me for a few weeks, I had alot of family stresses (lost another person close to me) work stresses (will always be the way as just the nature of my job), health issues (we all have them) but the problem was I didn’t talk to anyone about them, I didn’t share with anyone and therefore kept them to myself and in the end just overloaded and let loose in a silly gambling rampage and in turn did some major financial damage. I had been doing well, going to meetings, managing money, was in a very good place to be honest and had just started to enjoy life again……………you all know it I know it……….gambling destroys life’s there is no happiness with it………gambling and unhappiness go hand in hand I know this I am not a silly man I promise you all that……just a recovering compulsive gambler, I have always said it that if I didn’t want to stop I wouldn’t be here I wouldn’t go to meetings, I wouldn’t put barriers in place but I do want to stop and have done for years.

I mentioned along time ago years ago now something just clicked for me wanting to gamble to wanting to stop, sInce that day I have been in recovery because that’s where I want to be…….yes sure I have slipped / gambled many times over those years but have always got back into recovery, this time I think I also got a little complacent…….let my guard down……stopped posting……cut down / stopped meetings………everything just started to fall back into old ways…….almost no barriers……..not trying to test myself but I suppose in some way I was, anyway thanks again for posting and reading will always wish you all well, keep fighting it’s the only way.

Take care

Maverick

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Just for today I gambled………..what’s life all about made a massive mistake today and I am really in a big hole………no self pitty I am just one big areshole , been there before many times but this time just can’t understand……..ok i had been drinking heavy but just no excuse……….gambling kills me I know this and also destroys my life I know this also…………I am in total disbelife and at a total loss……………really down this one going to be tough to bounce back from……………I do hate gambling and destroying my life but keep find myself going back to it !!!

Take care love to all

Maverick

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Lizbeth it’s great to hear things are going well for you my friend and so very happy for you, stay focused, stay positive and keep enjoying life while staying gamble free…….as we both well know it’s the only way !

Take care and speak soon Always wish you well !

Maverick

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Thanks Jen that means alot, great to hear from you and hope you are doing well , I am doing ok thanks very much for asking will update more tomorrow, wish you well and speak soon, thanks again for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.

Maverick

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Life is like a rollercoaster…………….you just have to ride it, just for today I did not gamble and with that I am very happy, really hope you are all doing well, take care and speak soon.

Maverick

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MSKBR wish you well and looking forward to sharing with you in your recovery, take care and all my very best.

Maverick

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MSKBR желает вам всего наилучшего и с нетерпением жду возможности поделиться с вами в вашем выздоровлении, проявлять заботу и делать все, что в моих силах. Maverick

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MSKBR thanks for sharing and hope this finds you well, I have gambled to chase losses and also just to continue to play, I am a compulsive gambler if I had £10 I would gamble until I lost the lot (however long that took 1 hour 1 day 1 month 1 year) if I had 1 million pounds I would gamble until I lost the lot (1 hour 1 day 1 month 1 year) we continue to PLAY just to PLAY until the money runs out……I believe its the same, I have gambled many times when I didnt need the money and in truth if I didnt need the money when I started that session they thats just to PLAY or continue PLAYING, once I start I cannot stop simple as that it is chasing but its not because I am just PLAYING……….confusing yes and no….hope it answers your question……..just for today i will not gamble to play or to chase !

Take care

Maverick

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Beem really well done on 50 days gamble free thats a fantastic achivement, great to see you doing well and reading over your posts, was nice to meet you in chat, take care and keep doing what you are doing its great to see it working as always one day at a time.

Wish you well.

Maverick

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Hope you are keeping well Brerio and hope this finds you enjoying life gamble free, good to read your posts and of you doing well, likewise what Tiekisha said about free play I know for me that would be a massive trigger as keeps that fire inside me burning and wanting more, keep sharing and wish you well.

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