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Thanks Pea, great to see you around and really hope you are keeping well.

Just for today I will not gamble and with doing that my life instantly improves!

Maverick

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Fair comment Vera, its good to see you around, as always I wish you all the very best.

The answer to the question is – no it doesnt but it does if I let it!

Thanks for posting and your ongoing support.

Maverick

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My life in this world seems to reflect me on a snakes and ladders board………….what with all the ups and downs, however as long as I am still in the world I will stay in the game, I can never win the game as there is a snake on number 100, but thats ok as all I really what to do is take part, so if I am on number 1 or just got to number 100 and dropped down the snake it doesnt mater as long as I am doing the best I can as always one day at a time.

Just for today I will not gamble.

Maverick

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Karmybab,

Thanks for sharing and I am really sorry you are going through such a tough time at the moment, this addiction will take everything from us if we let it (as I am sure you well know) our time, money, family, friends, the ones we love, husbands, wives, children and then eventually our life, I can’t tell you what to do my friend as I struggle to do it myself but all I do know is we must stay away from that next bet, that first bet…….thats the one that if we can stay away from making that first bet then we can keep on the right road, if we decide to make that first bet again then that opens up a massive door that leads us into everything bad we knew and have done before.

“I am in a hole at the moment, a very big hole and I honestly can’t see a way out, however I have faith (just like you) and I know in time if I do the right thing either someone will walk pass the hole and offer me a life line or the ground will slowly grow (as it does) and the hole will slowly get smaller”

What I am trying to say is there is always hope, so stay strong and do the right thing, it’s never easy but it is better than the alternative, keep sharing and I wish you all the very best, take care and keep fighting.

Maverick

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Vera thanks for the post and support as always, it means a lot to me.

3 days gamble free and I can tell you it has been bloody hard work and tempted everyday, today was the worse, my wife and children have gone away and I am home alone, I managed to get my hands on some money (for food and petrol to last me while my wife is away) I went fishing by myself for half the day but found that really hard work (I like fishing) everything just seemed a struggle, came home and got cleaned up, got my money and jumped in the car, went to get few cans and then was as close as you possibly can be to having a bet without having one, fought hard with myself and came home.

I have to stay away from that first bet and if I can keep doing that I will keep winning, I am weak willed I know that so I must be mindful of everything I do and all my actions, this week is a hard week at work and in the evenings I plan to work even harder and make some extra money (legally) while my wife and kids are away enjoying there holiday, hope to make some inroads in paying off the people you don’t want to be paying off (if you know what I mean).

It still amazes me that I am who I am and do what I do yet still struggle everyday with an addiction I can’t seem to control or keep at bay……………lost for words…….

Thank you to each and everyone of you for being here, listening, reading, hearing, understanding and commenting it means a lot to me and some days is the only thing that keeps me going.

Maverick

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Keep fighting Adam………..I honestly dont know what to say as in truth apart from I am in exactly the same place as you my friend, I have had really good recovery time and like you my happiest days of my life have been when ai have been in recovery and gamble free.

Also like you I have slipped up and really struggling to get back on track, now we all know the importance of the phrase but I have to ask myslef the question do I………..”we must always stay away from our next bet” I am fine…..life is great but as soon as I place “that next bet” it opens up every door I have worked so hard to close and sets my life back on that path of destruction.

Adam you have done it before and you can do it again my friend, just for today I made the choice to gamble and as always it was the wrong one, like you I have placed myself in a massive hole and more than I choose to share with you tonight as you have your own issues, you can get yourself out of it my friend and trust me so can I but we just have tobdo what we know is right.

I cannot tell you what to do as I cannot seem to do it myself, but what I do know is we have a choice and I just wished I choose to do the right thing 25 years ago when I placed my first bet.

Please trust me when I say I understand how you feel, today I feel worthless, desperate, destroyed, angered and many more feelings I just cant express at this point in time.

I share this so you know you are not alone but I mainly share this to say you know if we fight hard and do the right thing our lives will get better.

Adam I wish you well my friend and stay strong, keep fighting and never ever give in.

Maverick

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Life isnt easy but just for today I am breathing and for that I thank God because it could have been so very different.

I am not the best person in the world and in truth so very far from it…………..all I do know is that “I am a lucky man”

Maverick

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Sorry meant to say very well done on your gamble free time, great effort and you are an inspiration to me and very many.

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Jen,

I just wanted to say thank you very much for you post, it meant and means a great deal to me, it’s so very hard to explain sometimes but when you are so down just knowing someone is thinking and caring about you means more than I could ever express, so from my heart I thank you so very much for taking the time to post and support me.

Perhaps we can work on recovery together and work our way through this addiction, I know we can do it I have done it before and had long periods in recovery without gambling……..in truth the best times of my life, we must always stay strong and keep sharing, you are a good kind person and I wish you all the very best in the world.

Take care my friend and hope this finds you having a good day in recovery, as a dear friend once said to me “a bad day without gambling is a great day”

Maverick

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Kin,

Just wanted to say thank you for all your help and support, you are a very kind soul and never forget that, I know you are also struggling and life can be so very hard at times, so stay positive and stay focused, you are wonderful person with such a great inner depth, I can tell you speak from your heart and in truth that takes some doing, look after yourself always and keep plodding on as always “one day at a time”

One word for you today my friend……”belief”……………belief in yourself, you are more than you know you are…trust me I know!

Take care and speak soon.

Maverick

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Good question my friend and the answer is far too much…..

However the time we have lost is far much more…………

I hope this finds you well and wish you all the very best in recovery.

Maverick

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Great job Micky, really glad to see you doing well, on the right track and enjoying life as you rightly should.

Always stay strong my friend and no mater what always keep posting, thanks for all your help and support it means a great deal to me and will never go unnoticed.

Three things I am grateful for today……..

1. Gambling Therapy
2. Micky
3. Determination

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First of all very well done for sharing as it takes courage to share and also be honest.

Worriedmama comes up with a great quote and too me so very true, In my honest opinion no compulsive gambler could embrace recovery totally on the back of a winning “last bet” it is impossible because that last “buzz” that last “win” (I know we never win) will always be the last thing in our mind, I have always said to my wife if I am actively gambling (i.e not in recovery) If I had 1 million pounds I would lose it all, I know to many people this will sound stupid but me being an addictive compulsive gambler means if I choose to gamble I honestly cannot stop no matter what, the only time I can is if I am not gambling and in recovery, I know and understand myself and how my mind works but even knowing that I still struggle (at the moment) to stay in recovery, although I am a very knowledgeable and clever person (not trying to sound like a bighead lol) I am very weak willed and seem to give in to many things far to quickly.

I spoke to a person today who hasn’t got much time left in this world and believe me they would give up everything they have just to have another few days on earth, this is where we can understand and let go off our financial losses because in truth they mean absolutely nothing (as I am sure we both well know).

Stay strong my friend and I hope you can work at getting your life back on track, well done for sharing how you feel and life can get better, this addiction will take everything if we let it…………but there is always hope.

Take care and wish you all the very best in the world, keep sharing.

Maverick

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Joejo,

It’s never to late my friend and at 26 years old you have your whole life ahead of you, you say “you are not a bad guy” I already know that before you typed a word, this addiction takes over……consumes the individual………if we let it, I have let it control me for years and still fighting to stay sane, I am 39 years old and please believe me when I say to you “there is only one way this can get better” I will get better I know that for a fact and like you I am sure you will too, this addiction leads us to many things…………….many I have experienced first hand but not the last one……as I am sharing this with you now………

Lying uncontrollably
Loneliness
Hatred
Dispare
Disbelief
Bankruptcy
Suicidal thoughts
Death!!

You don’t need me to tell you my friend as I am sure already know this, I have had good jobs all my life (dont get me wrong I have worked bloody hard all my life) but made good money, I sit here now sharing with you and as God is my witness I dont have one penny, I couldn’t lay my hands on one penny piece……………..I don’t want to bore you Joejo I just wanted to share with you and wish you all the very best my friend, you can change, you can have a wonderful life and in truth whats happened to you could end up being a blessing in disguise, as we wonder down the road of life many things happen to us and when we look back most times we find the things that have happened were for a reason and they make us stronger.

Don’t follow my lead my friend and make 26 the age you stopped and took control over this addiction, if you wait until 39 you might be apart of that last one on my list, I know I am only holding on by the skin of my teeth.

Joejo in short………….”Life is a gift, enjoy it don’t waste it”

Well done for sharing and keep postings, I know you are not a bad guy mate we just have a few issues and they can be controlled.

Maverick

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Lorraine,

It’s always good to see you around my friend and I love reading your honest posts, I know what you are trying to say I promise I do, sometimes at that precise moment in time you just need a little support and unfortunately that wasn’t the right place at the right time. I have heard that phrase “the right place at the right time” many many times over my years and at first thought I don’t think I have been in the right place at the right time ever………….but now when I come to think of it I have……….many many times, I am still alive for one thing (that wouldn’t be the case if I hadn’t been in the right place at the right time) anyway I don’t want to ramble on Lorraine just wanted to share with you and wish you all my very best, you are a wonderful person who I am so very happy to know, look after yourself and stay safe K, always remember you can kick my fence anytime!

“I always remember when I am in the wrong place at the wrong time but very rarely remember when I am in the right place at the right time”

Maverick

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