[matt w]

Hi Kathryn
The Room must have been a tough place for you to be with the conversation that was going on– you left before my  and flower got there— so here it is.
Bali is my wife’s most favorite place in the world to date, we have some very good friends there.
 Between now and July I will pass you their details and if you are near by on your trip I would recomend a visit to their part of the Island.
I for one will be kicking your bum if you even think about not going.
All gamble free days are special to a CG in recovery, some days we struggle with more than others, but by being amongst people who understand us best we can repair ourselves.
Sleep well and today will be Feb15th when you wake up– just another day on our journey so another  .
Matt
 Stay lucky/be lucky

[matt w]

Hi Jen the amount of ***** I jumped ship in my first 18 years trying to beat this addiction to gambling I lost ***** off the pain caused still haunts me. One of my recovery tools is this poem. It made me cry like a baby when I first read it but I am glad to say I have been clean over three years now and this helps me remind myself how close I am every-day to letting gambling back into my life.
I  Am Addiction

I start in small subtle ways promising many things.

I promise you enjoyment and pleasure beyond your wildest dreams.

I deliver guilt & despair more horrible than your worst nightmare.

I promise you power & courage.

I give you feelings of powerlessness & hopelessness.

I will force you to live in fear always.

I promise you relief and escape from all your daily problems.

I create for you greater problems than you ever imagined.

I promise you many friends.

I allow you only isolation.

I promise happiness.

I create much sorrow.

I will ***** from you your dignity, your families, your friends, your children, your homes, your demons, your spirit & your life, for love, freedom & happiness are impossible to find in my presence.

So never underestimate me,

I am devious and manipulating.

I have no preference as to who I pick as my victim, rich or poor, young or old, black, white, yellow or red.

I have no conscience.

So if you have met me, always be aware if you think you can beat me that I will be gone from your life and all will go well again…..Never forget that I will always be there, waiting in the dark shadows just around the corner.

I am very patient and I will laugh in your face if I can lure you into my evil world of **** on earth once again.

I am addiction.

…….author unknown………
I hope this helps
Stay lucky/be lucky
MattStay lucky/be lucky

[matt w]

Hi Carolyn we posted our messages here with in 10 mins of each other and had I not changed my gambling habits our situations could be so much the same.
I have been lucky that my wife was prepared to give me one more shot at getting clean from gambling (as I said one of the lucky ones).
The fantasy life of a Compulsive Gambler in action- always makes us believe we can get out of any situation or repair any damage we have done to ourselves and others just by having a winning streak or by changing poor choices in our past.
I don’t have a magic lamp and of your three wishes it sounds like they need a man with one to help out. However what I can do is give you hope that life Gambling free will (in my experience) open new doors for you and the opportunity to deal with the present rather than looking back at your past and the "what might have been scenarios"
Please keep the faith that with a willingness in you to change from your gambling past life will change for the better and good things will happen.
Stay lucky,
 Stay lucky/be lucky

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