[Makingachange]

Today has been tough, I really want to put a bet on this evening. Since last Friday and losing £600 I’ve been really good but I have that itch for the champions league.

Will push through though as I know it’s for the best!

This is so tough!

[Makingachange]

Today has been a really tough day.

Again I woke up thinking about gambling, I walked past 6 bookies on the way to and from work today, 4 William Hills on one road, surely that’s not acceptable. Anyway I’ve stayed strong and I haven’t had a bet yet. I had £13 in my pocket after buying some food earlier and normally I’d nip into the bookies and try and turn it into £500. Naturally I never would and that food would always cost me £20 instead of £7!

Football tonight has made me want to gamble but I’m not watching it and instead concentrating on other stuff.

Been tough but am sticking with it. Don’t want to fall back into the trap but a long way to go yet!

[Makingachange]

So today has gotten off in an odd way.

I haven’t gambled anything since let’s say 9pm Friday, and to be honest I haven’t yet had the gripping temptation to just pop into the bookies on the way back. I have a job I do sometimes at the weekend tutoring, it pays well and today I’ll have £150 cash in my hand leaving the building. I have to walk past 2 bookies on the way back…. If I could tell you the number of times that’s been my first stop after tutoring and I’ve lost every penny…. It makes the job pointless really doesn’t it. Well not today. Today that money is going straight into savings because I’m not a gambler any more.

I had some weird dreams last night about a roulette wheel spinning and playing roulette, isn’t it funny how those dreams are always about winning and never about the crushing feel of a big loss. I lost £620 on Friday but the £150 I’ll get today feels like such a huge sum to me whereas that £600 at the time was just like ‘oh well’.

Thanks for everyone’s support and I’ll drop a message later this evening when I’m back and hopefully clean for another day.

[Makingachange]

Hi guys, thanks for all the support.

Just a quick update, I’ve made it through day one! Kept myself really busy and although my mind wandered it wasn’t terrible and I kept on the straight and narrow today. A lot of football tomorrow and my team Chelsea are playing so I’ll have to be strong.

Read a few articles today about saving money and also about FBOT’s, I’m so happy with the decision I’ve made for my life and I can’t wait for more days like today, free from the clutches of gambling. I hope the itch to have one more spin fades soon.

I’ll be posting every day so all your comments of support are great!

[Makingachange]

Thanks guys appreciate the comments and yeah today is going to be day 1 of the change. I’m feelin positive and know I can avoid gambling. I’ve planned out a day, off to see some friends this morning then to the driving range with my girlfriend then this evening either dinner or relax, either way no time and I’m going to make sure instead clear. Day 1 leads to say whatever I want, and I’m bigger than this! Thanks guys

[Makingachange]

Early start today and mind instinctively was drawn to the football today. Lots of sport on so going to have to find distractions! Will be a long day but appreciate the support.

[Makingachange]

Try not to dwell on the loss today.

Take a long cold shower in the morning, gather your thoughts together and make a plan, make a vivid plan of the next week. How much you want to have saved by the end of the week, fill this week with activities, when you make it to Friday you will be shocked at how great you feel with your new found freedom, savings and wellbeing. You can do this, slowly!

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