Hello Exhausted12
I know how you feel and understand. I have been hiding my addiction for more than 5 years and it is a lonely horrible place to be. Last week I finally came clean to my partner – yes he was angry but you know what – it was a huge relief to finally tell someone, and he has actually been really supportive. The fact is this is something you need help with (as did I) I have turned over all my finances to him so I can’t gamble and the relief is huge. Please please reach out to your family and ask for help.
PS one week since my last bet – no longer thinking about my losses which I can never get back, instead focussing on an image of myself in a few months when I know I will be in a much better place.