[lozziegee]

Sorry not posted for a few days been busy with work and family. Still no gambling been keeping myself busy so that’s helping. But I do keep thinking payday in a week. Luckily I’m in work, but I know if I really want to gamble I’ll find the time. So will have to keep myself busy.
And I sort of told my partner. I said I’ve not had money recently because I’ve been gambling too much and I’d like him to hold my money so I don’t get in this state again. He sometimes does bets but doesn’t have a problem, so he said he will also not do anymore so we can do it together. I think that’s going to help me a lot.

[lozziegee]

Yeah. Its the look of the thrill. And I think doing it when you know you’re not supposed to adds to that as well.
Have you fully recovered? You did well to ban yourself though. I still haven’t and probably should before I go in. The casino I use is Grosvenor and if you ban yourself from one they ban you from them all. But living near a city centre there are many different casinos near me. Luckily I don’t drive though

[lozziegee]

Ohh thanks, I’ll have to have a look on that will be a big help not having to deal with everything on my own. And can try get my mum to have a look when she’s ready to help herself.
Other than the scratch card I’ve been doing well

[lozziegee]

Hi sorry didn’t post yesterday 12 hour shift followed by a night out. Had a great time and not hungover. Did get a scratch card was a £2 one, didn’t win. But I felt not great that I got one because I knew I let myself down a bit. And didn’t get that rush feeling I have in the past. So maybe it’s a good thing, or am I just kidding myself. On the bright side I think a lesson was learnt.
Hope everyone else is doing ok

[lozziegee]

Thanks for the support. I’m really glad I came on here it’s helping me a lot.
Yeah, I’ll see my boyfriend tonight and will tell him. His support will help me even more.
And to make things better I’m having less urges to gamble. Still have a few, but not as many as I have done. Thinking of the hand bag I want is helping a lot too. Also one of my friends lives in Cyprus. And said I can go over and see her. I just pay for flights. So I will save and go there. It will be another reward.
At fist I was feeling down about life because of my gambling problem. But now I feel like everything is getting better and on the up.
Thanks again for all the support

[lozziegee]

Yeah. Glad I’ve acknowledged when it will be most difficult for me. Just hope I’m strong enough to not get tempted then.
I was thinking of telling my boyfriend. He’s caring enough to help, and to be honest will probably be happy I’ve come to him for help. Will have to have a chat with him and see what he says. He might have some ideas as he’s good with things like that.
Thanks for the support, got me through a tough day at work.
And still no gabling =]

[lozziegee]

Thank you for the support. Just knowing I’m not alone is a big help.
Posting is helping me, as its getting my thoughts out without having to tell anyone
I know what you mean with being addicted to the shame and guilt. Its like I know if I put a little more in I’d feel bad. But it feels good at the same time.
The treats have been helping, got an awards night on Sunday with work. So if I don’t gamble by then, I’m going to have a good night and let my hair down a bit. And then I’ve seen a handbag I like, so if I get to payday, that’s my treat. I think having treats help because it gives me a goal and something to look forward to. And I don’t feel bad about spending a little on me as I’d usually be gambling it away anyway. Chocolate is a great treat, not expensive and taste great =]

[lozziegee]

Hi.
Sorry about the late reply had the boyfriend over and he doesn’t know.
Still managed to not bet on anything. Was tempted to do a £5 bet because that’s not much. But managed not to. Not even bought a scratch card. Pretty happy with myself. And now I feel I have enough to get by.
Thanks I will go to citizens advice as I do owe some debts through being stupid.
Yeah I thought having a lot on me could be bad. So I might just tell my boyfriend I’m saving up and ask him to keep hold of my cash.
Thanks for your help though.
2 weeks until I get paid now. Hopefully I’ll be saying pay day and still not had a bet. The real challenge will be when k get paid though as I know I have money to spare

[lozziegee]

Went yesterday without any gambling. Had some urges today, and managed to not do any so far. Feel like doing a bet now, but I decided to come on here instead. Will find something to watch to keep myself occupied. And going to get myself some chocolate as my treat for now, as that’s all I can afford. Chocolate is always a great reward though

[lozziegee]

Thank you for your advice. sorry took me a while to reply, long day at work.
There’s nobody I can really give my money to as I live with my mum and she’s an alcoholic, so that will just go on beer. Was thinking of going to the bank and seeing if I can set up an account where I can transfer money in online but can only get out by going in the bank or at a cash machine as I only really gamble online. I’ve blocked myself from all the sites I’m on. And just have my phone bill to pay as a direct debit until I get paid. So was thinking if I pay that as soon as, then take the rest out as cash I know I can’t try to gamble online and have what I have left to live on.
I think starting a journal will really help as I’ve not told anyone I know about my problem. Guess its embarrassment that stopping me.
Didn’t know there was agencies to help like that. I’m from the UK. What are these. Could do with a bit just to ease myself until I get paid.
Again thanks for the advice

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