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First, thank you for your concerns, I appreciate the replies. I wish all of us the best.

This is embarrassing but I owe you guys an update and its not a good one, after a couple of weeks not gambling, and liquidating some stuff, I was able to have about 7k in cash, its safe in my bank account. A close friend who works overseas came back to have a vacation last Friday with a couple of foreign buddies. They are staying at the hotel situated near the airport as they will fly the next day to explore island beaches for a week. After dinner however they told me they want to “play” a little, I was hesitant at first and told them my max will be 400$ and that was it. Withdrew the 400$, placed bets and we actually won and had fun! l got a free room for the points I earned and went with them at the hotel too and called it a night. But as I am still in rush of it all, I went down and gambled again alone but I won some more! I went back to my hotel room at about 5am feeling all good, had to wake up early as we’ll have breakfast by 8am before they fly to a nearby island here by 11am. All good, they went there way and this was the time I should have went home too, but then I decided to gamble again! I won again! But then the losing streak happened and to make it short I lost all my winnings and the 400$ plus 3000$ more after I decided to get a room again and decided an all nighter. I have done it again..

This addiction can really take over, and you cannot trust yourself once you are inside the casinos. It just takes over. I still can’t ponder why it is so hard to stop playing after losing 50% of your winnings, you always think you can get them back until its gone and you are infront of the ATM withdrawing hard earned cash and playing all night long until you cannot withdraw any more cash. Its sickening.

I am thinking of the tips of finding_laura offered. I will also make it a routine to log in to this website every morning just for me to see and reaffirm my decision to quit and then log in at night to seal my non-gambling day. I will also print this out and place it at my office desk as a reminder everyday why I quit and will remain gamble free. Until one day I have paid all of my debts, regain my life, business life, and be of help to everyone here struggling like I do. That’s the vision. I know its hard but I am positive about this.

One day of no gambling starts today, August6,2018.

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