[lizbeth4]

Yes, I’ve made 2 rings. My first attempt.  I need to perfect them a bit. I need to try and buy a few things every month. I have the bare basics. Everything will fall into place with the jewelry making. I was just side tract for awhile.

[lizbeth4]

Yesterday was a long day! I took my Granddaughter home (2 hours each way) My Mom came with and sat in the back and entertained baby. A stop each way to change diaper, walk around and get a cold water. It rained really hard 25 miles from home. Cool mornings and evenings. Autumn is almost here. I thought of blowing the leaves today but since it’s a holiday I’ve decided to do laundry and clean the house. Tomorrow is payday. Bills to pay and I’m getting a overdue haircut. I’m getting 4 inches taken off so it’s just hitting my shoulders. Mote manageable. Wednesday, Mom and I are off to my Cardiologist appointment in the city with a lunch out and a trip to the mall. Big deal for us as we don’t have a mall at home. I picked more veggies from my garden that I will be steaming today. Feeling content.

[lizbeth4]

I have 4 items for sale on the FB site. No interest yet but any items I sell, the money will be saved for September. I used to waste so much money on gambling and buying items I didn’t need. Most of them have been resold and I don’t miss them at all. My Granddaughter is napping. I’m taking her back to the city this afternoon. I haven’t thought of gambling as it would have disastrous consequences for me. Bills unpaid, ect… I can’t do that anymore. I need to keep going in the right direction.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Monica, I feel the delima you are in. When I had money, I helped family members with large amounts of money. My situation is different now. I help myself first. Then I help them with small amounts of money if I can. It may sound selfish but I think we need to take care of ourselves first. We aren’t gett ing any younger. Just my thoughts. I know it is hard to say no. And to put yourself first. Just my thoughts.

[lizbeth4]

Can’t sleep. Baby us sleeping soundly. I will get through September. I’ve held on to a little money now for 3 weeks and haven’t spent it. I’ve been loading up my pantry every time there’s a sale at the local grocery store. I could make it a month on what I have. I still have projects to accomplish around the house before winter. Really hopeful that I will find employment sometime in September also. I’m just going to keep my positive thoughts going. No gam8ng urges. I’m am blessed with a,lot. I just have to keep my path and move forward.

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I’m taking a moment to post while my Granddaughter is sleeping. I grabbed a quick shower and a bowl of cereal. She is a delight. 16 months old and full of energy. I’m taking her home tomorrow as my Daughter has Monday off as it’s a holiday here. I put 3 pieces of my jewerly up for sale. Not expensive pieces and not sentimental either. I’m selling 1 to someone I know here. So it will help me get through September. I will be able to pay my bills and be in a better position moving forward. I haven’t thought about gambling. 

[lizbeth4]

The A.C. is up and going. The part was replaced on the 16 year old air handler. I will eventually have to replace the air handler. I’m hoping to get through to next summer. All the better for me to find employment. My Daughter called and her babysitter had a emergency and had to go out of town for a few days. So I went down this evening and picked up my Granddaughter. She is so precious.

[lizbeth4]

Sorry that you had a setback! You have to keep trying. Don’t  give up. Do you have all barriers in place to prevent this from happening again. We all come to the dead end whete we can’t get anymore credit or over drafts. Looking back, I wish that my credit had been denied sooner. It would have saved me a lot of debt. Forgive yourself and move forward. I’ve been gamble free since my last relapse. Although it’s been hard at times, I have to stay gamble free to keep my sanity. Stay strong. Keep going!

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That’s good news about Jenny’s cancer. Our insurance system needs to change. The limitations they impose are ridiculous. I hope it all gets sorted out. Everyone in my family has stopped smoking. I’ve been smoke free for 8 years now. Very hard to do but  I feel much healthier. I also have a hair appointment coming up soon. My hair is the longest it’s been for years. What wonders a simple haircut can do. I hope everything gets sorted with Jenny so you can proceed with your surgery. Sleep well! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

My Daughter was able to get a advance at work and purchased another phone and text me this evening. I also called my Grandson to say HI! Family is everything to me! That’s where my heart is. I’ve decided to place a ad online in our local FB site. I’m going to advertise my services as a Elderly companion. I will do meal preparations, errands, grocery shopping, ect….My community exists of 15,000 people. Many are elderly. Although I’m considered a senior at age 60. With the jobs I get, I can pay for my CPR card and my fingerprint clearance card. We will see how it goes. I can pursue other avenues for employment if this doesn’t pan out. I feel like I’ve been stuck in my head for way too long. Dwelling on the negatives in my life. It’s time to take action and try to accomplish the things I’ve been dreaming of. I feel like today is a new beginning for me!!

[lizbeth4]

I had a scare today. I hadn’t heard from my youngest Daughter and I was getting worried. We message daily and I see her on social media. I reached out to the woman she lives with via FB and just like I thought my Daughter had lost her phone. Everything is fine. She’s working and her friend is watching my Granddaughter. My Daughter has come a long, long way and she inspires me! Nothing new today, I donated clothing to our woman’s shelter and visited the library. I’m feeling better mentally but still feeling anxious about my A.C. final repairs
which will be addressed tomorrow afternoon. Don’t know if they will be covered by my home warranty. But I have to deal with it, right? I have a Dr’s appointment for my yearly physical, later next month. I’m really thinking about asking for a light antidepressant. This last bout with depression was very overwhelming and debilitating. It couldn’t hurt.

[lizbeth4]

Today I was very productive. I trimmed large shrubs and cut off some large branches from a tree in my backyard . Then I cut them all up so they would fit in my trash can. I’m tired but I like that feeling of looking at my work and saying, hey that looks better. My garden is producing squash, tomatoes and I’m getting strawberries again. The peaches are finished for the year. So, I’m incorporating the fresh veggies in my diet. Love them! Going to take a shower and head to my Mom’s house. She is making a pot of vegetarian beans!!! I am feeling some relief from the car loan. It lightens the load for awhile. I need to find $100 for my CPR card and my fingerprint clearance card. It may have to wait till October. In the meantime I’m still looking for part time work. I feel like things will get better with time.

[lizbeth4]

Hi Karo, I’m sorry that you gambled again. Barriers! Banning You may want to join GA and continue counseling. I self sabstoge myself because I feel unworthy of anything good due to my past mistakes. I’m working with a counselor now. A lot of things have surfaced concerning my childhood. Things I never dealt with and just carried with me. There is a reason why we gamble and cause ourselves grief. It’s never too late to figure it out! Recovery is hard and sometimes painful. But don’t we owe ourselves the best life we can have? Keep strong. Keep going.

[lizbeth4]

Hi. You are doing all the right steps to help.your recovery. I couldn’t get in the support groups either. ????? Keep going. Things will get better.

[lizbeth4]

I’m hoping that Thursday the A.C. is fixed, No complications!!! Then I fell that I can move forward. Maybe resume the vision board. Yesterday I sold 2 baby jackets. The woman who bought them is around my age and a caregiver. We talked and I got some insights from her. I need to get my CPR card and my fingerprint clearance card. The need for caregivers is great in my area. She maybe able to help me in getting jobs also. That’s what I’m planning on doing. I can set own hours and I’m available evenings and weekends. I’m feeling better mentally. September will be tight for money but October will be better.

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