[lizbeth4]

I couldn’t replace the window handle. Urrrrr!

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So today in my mail is a pre approved credit card offer. Of course with outrageous high interest. Why do these companies prey on people with bad credit and that have a lot of credit card debt???? I keep asking to be opted out of these offers then another company appears. I cut the cards up!!! Its just aggravating and sad for the people who are desperate enough to take the offer!

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My Daughter’s boss sent another co worker to pick her up for work. From work to where she lives is quit a distance. It made me cry! There are good people in this world. I feel right now that I am living quite the solitude life. It’s okay for now. Im feeling a bit frustrated and impatient at the moment. October will be tight even with the new job as I need to get caught up on my property taxes. But moving forward I will be ok. I’ve been productive this morning and went through my closet and posted online for sale 6 tops and 2 pair of jeans I never wore. I have 6 pieces of vintage jewelry for sale also. Getting rid of unused items and banking some money works for me. I’m going to tackle replacing a window handle/crank today. I’ve had the parts and tools but haven’t been motivated. I’ve had some thoughts of gambling but have gotten through them.

[lizbeth4]

No Vera as I have to work nights. Since I live in a rural area, thete are few street lights. I wouldn t feel safe.

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My Daughter couldn’t qualify for a car. Her friend was going to co sign but he doesn’t have enough credit. She can’t get to her job so she’ll have to quit. It’s a good paying job. Shell have to take a minimum paying job close to where she is living. Public transit doesn’t start that early and she can’t find a ride share. She’s been texting me all day. I don’t have the money or credit to help her. My stomach is turning. Why are so many roadblocks being put in front of her???? I don’t know what to say. It could have been a gambling night for me but I have work and no funds. I hope my Daughter doesn’t let her guard down either to her addiction.

[lizbeth4]

I’m posting nearly everyday as it helps me in my recovery. My relationship with my Mother is very painful. She has treated other family members badly which has resulted them to stop talking to her or limiting contact. My Sister has stopped talking to her several times for 1 to 2 years. My Mother’s behavior has been this way since I can remember as a child. It’s complicated. I need to keep a eye on her but I don’t want to see her a lot. Not healthy! I’m only working 15 hours a week, 6 day a week. Everything is 5 to 10 mins from my house. Its a very small town. More hours would be great but it’s extra money and honestly I like working. This isnt my first skin cancer. Years of sunbathing when i was young. I’m getting my mammogram next week, then I will call the dermatologist. Still worried about my youngest Daughter. I keep praying for her.

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I had my bloodwork done and stopped by the library. My youngest Daughter has been texting me. Her ride to work flaked out on her this morning. She had to call into work. She is looking for a car but has no credit and not a lot of money for a down payment. Please pray for her. She is doing all of the right things but roadblocks keep being placed in her way!!! She’s all I can think of today!

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I completed caulking the trim on the back of the house. This week I’ll be painting it. My Mom called after 1 week of no contact. It was a,very generic conversation. I won’t be going to her house unless I am invited. There will be no apologies from her. My contact will be limited. POSITIVE NOTE: I’ve made plans to visit a friend next month. Someone I consider a Sister. Looking forward to it! I think I have a small skin cancer spot by my lip. I need to find out what my co pay is and make an appointment with a dermatologist. Fasting tonight for my blood work tomorrow morning. Fun!

[lizbeth4]

Sleep is probably what you needed! Work sounds stressful. Hopefully it will get better! It was kind of you to send your Sister money. Sometimes hope is all we have. We have to keep going!!!

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I must admit I’ve been physically tired from this job. My upper body has been very sore. I’m sure with time that I will get used to it. Yesterday I talked to both of my Daughters and my Sister. It was nice to touch base with them as everyone is busy with their lives. Today is my one day off. I’m going to work on a small house project today. Just need to get motivated! LOL! Living gamble free !!!

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I was paid and was able to purchase gas for the car and a few grocery items. Going to the library then to work this afternoon. No gambling thoughts or urges! I really feel that I am working towards my goals. I feel like I am going to make it this time!! Have a great gamble free weekend everyone!

[lizbeth4]

I have 1 bank to clean this afternoon! I finally slept good last night. Today is my Sister’s birthday. I sent her a bday message this morning. We talked the other day about my Mom. She is the only person who really understands as she has lived it. It’s been almost 1 week since her outburst and throwing me out of her house. I’m not contacting her. She will have to make the first move or not. I’m tired of the behavior and just can’t be subjected to it anymore. And no, she won’t change. I know this might sound harsh to some but for my own well being I can’t be around her. I had limited my contact with her but that didn’t work. She knows no boundaries. I owe it to myself to love myself enough to stop this. It does make me sad!!

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I live on the west coast and want to travel across the U.S. to the east coast. So many states I haven’t seen and explored. There are many far away destinations on my list too! I see it now be coming a reality. Well, off to work!!

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I have scheduled my yearly mammogram and blood work, went to the library and straighten my house and did laundry. I have both banks to clean tonight. I’m thinking of getting a part time day job. Looking! My youngest Daughter is doing better. She has been able to get rides to work and someone she knows sells cars. He’s looking for a car with low payments for her. She talked to the couple she lives with and they are reducing her rent to help her. My prayers were answered. Through all of this, she told me that she never thought of doing drugs again. I’m so proud of her. She’s a example for me to follow!

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I’m glad to hear that you are feeling better! You know what will be good for you financially. I know many people who have filed for bankruptcy. Maybe it would be a relief for you. A burden off of your shoulders. Whatever choice you make, I’m sure it will be the best. Take care.

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