[lizbeth4]

We are getting the remnants of Tropical Rosa. It’s been a light steady rain here. Of course, my trees, roses, and tomato plants are loving it! I completed my medical test this morning, paid bills and went grocery shopping. I was able to buy healthier foods. I purchased some beads and other things for my earring jelwery. I even had enough for a bead organizer. Excited!!! I’ve gone to the library for my movies and music. This afternoon I’m buying a whole winter wardrobe for my Granddaughter. On the FB selling site here, I found the lot of winter clothing for $30 and she lives 3 mins from me. It’s s deal I can’t pass up. My Sister was in the city over the weekend and saw my youngest Daughter and Granddaughter. She bought the baby some pjs, a jacket and new tennis shoes. What a great Auntie and Great-auntie. Cleaning both banks tonight! Life is good! I have nothing to complain about. I picked up my prescription for the antidepressant. I’m going to start them tonight. Hope it helps my sleeping difficulty.

[lizbeth4]

Hi. Please don’t gamble your next paycheck! We just keep feeding this awful addiction and it makes it harder and harder to ever recoup. Stopping is not easy but the more days we have gamble free the stronger we become. Do you think you could get a extra part time job for awhile? The creditors can only garnish your wages up to a certain percent after a judgement in court has been filed. I truly believe we can retrain our brains to stop this behaviour. Just take it one day at a time. Your happiness will come back. Stay strong!

[lizbeth4]

The health system here has a lot to be desired. I believe in alternatives to regular medicine. Doctors here just want to hand out pills. My Grandmother used her own treatments for common illnesses and I still use them. I have all kinds of herbal teas which I use to calm my nerves, upset stomach, ect. I’ve been semi vegan, I eat fish, for over a year now. I usually make my own food, as some of the prepared vegan foods are yucky and bland. Sometimes being alone isn’t bad. In fact I think it’s good. A lot of people can’t function without someone by their side. Hope you have a pleasant work week. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I love seeing my veggies grow. Fresh producs is the best! 4 years ago I started gardening as before then I had lived in a condo and had no yard. I enjoy housekeeping as weird as that may sound. Maybe that’s why I like my job. Everything is sparkly clean when I’m finished. I’m tired today and can’t find any motivation. I will do laundry and maybe vegg. There’s nothing wrong in taking a day off. Early tomorrow morning I have my mammogram. It’s payday, so bills will be paid and I will do some grocery shopping and purchase some items for my earring jelwery. It’s getting cooler here. I took stock of my clothing and boots. I will only need a few pairs of jeans and some boot socks. I have jackets, ect. I love autumn/winter. I just looked at my calendar and October will be a busy month for me, work, Sister visiting, Granddaughter visiting, going to my friends house in the city. Busy is good!

[lizbeth4]

Congrats on your 5 weeks gamble free time. I  think you are feeling the withdrawals from gambling. Gambling is a addiction and your brain is going through chemical changes right now because you’re not fueling your desire to gamble. There’s a reason we gamble. Something in our lives lead us down this path. Maybe getting to that source will answer a lot of questions. We,have to find our happiness again. Maybe find hobbies or activities to occupy your time. Keep going.

[lizbeth4]

I read your story and it really touched my heart. Don’t give up hope. The fallout from our gambling addiction is devastating and helps keep us prisoners looking for the BIG WIN to solve our money problems. There are options, bankruptcy, debt consolidation. Gambling can never be in the picture again. There are support groups here, GA, ect… I’m forever a different person because of my addiction. Does your Wife know of your addiction? The burden of carrying the secret was heartbreaking. Do you have someone to confide in for extra support? Get through everyday. Little steps !!! Stay strong.

[lizbeth4]

I’ve decided that on payday I’m investing in some more jewelry making materials. I have quite a few earring design ideas. I need to get my creativity going again. Not gambling will afford me a few extras this month. I saw my Mom today after work as she invited me over. Nothing has changed. Why did I think it would? Wishful thinking! But I had forgiven her before I went over there. I had to so i could move forward. Sadky, i have to continue to limit my time with her. But ny heart feels less burdened, Tomorrow will be spent doing laundry, a little yard work and maybe some reading and a afternoon nap!!!

[lizbeth4]

My painting is finished. Looks great! My arms are quit sore. LOL! Had a phone conversation with my Mom this morning. My Sister is coming next weekend. My Mom will play nice as my Sister if provoked will cease to talk to her for a year or 2. Anyways it is what it is. Stressing about it only brings anxiety.
Work will be easy today. Only 1 bank to clean. Another week gamble free. Feeling a lot better about myself.

[lizbeth4]

I’ll be painting again this morning. Then to the library for some new movies for the weekend. I clean both banks tonight. I can feel the soreness in my upper arms and back. It will get better with time. I’m having trouble forgiving my Mom this time. I know in my heart I need to forgive her but not accept her behaviour. This is something I’m working on. I’ve made a lunch date for next week with a friend here. A new Chinese food restaurant has opened and I want to try it. My days are busy which I find good. Next month I have 2 days off because of Columbus day. I get paid for 6 of the holidays. Being gamble free has lead me to experience other avenues in my life. I’d forgotten how good life could be.

[lizbeth4]

I painted for 2 hours this morning, did some laundry and cleaning. I have about 2 more hours left. Maybe I’ll finish up tomorrow as we are expecting rain on and off all next week. Ive agreed to watcb my Granddaughter on a Sunday and most of Monday next month as my Daughter’s babysitter is going out of town for a wedding. I’ll have to travel back and forth to the city as my Daughter has no transportation. Monday night I have to work but I can sleep in on Tuesday. Lots of cuddling and playing. FUN!! I went over my finances and I will have more left over than I thought after paying all bills. The job opportunity came at the right time and I’m so grateful. I could care less about gambl8ng. I’m keeping my focus on the now, today. I get urges when I’m overwhelmed , stressed, or trying to solve everything. I’m finding myself more at peace.

[lizbeth4]

Sounds like you’ve had 2 days of hell regarding work! But you keep persevering! That’s one of the qualities that I admire about you. Sorry to hear that your Mom is having health problems. A few days off would be good for you. I hope you have a good day!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your posts on my thread. The last time I purchased a new phone was 3 years ago as my other one died. I was at the place for 2 hours while they activated and transferre all of my info onto the new phone. I’m holding on to this one as long as I can. It serves it’s purpose. I don’t feel the need for the newest top of the line phone. I hope you have a great weekend get away. Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I’ve finished painting about 1/3 of the trim. 2 more days and I should be done. I then have a couple touch up places on the front of the house. I only have cherry tomatoes left in my veggie garden. I only have sold 1 shirt. My jewelry isn’t selling  Payday is coming up for many. We will see what the weekend brings. I’ve had a realization today: I live for the future and what If s. I’m going to live for today and take it all in!!! Why waste it on the worries of tomorrow. They will be there tomorrow. Taking a shower and heading to the library. Did I say that they have a big selection of music cds????

[lizbeth4]

Home from work! I’m sore tonight as I clean the lobby floor thoroughly. LOL! I stopped by our 24 hour store to pick up a few grocery items, thete were only a handful of people there. That’s why I love small town living. The town closes down at 9pm on weekdays. Going to get up early and start painting the trim on the back of the house. Ther weather is getting cooler. I can have it done this week. I talked to my youngest Daughter today and she has 2 people giving her rides to work. She’s staying positive. She can save and get a car. My Granddaughter babbled to me. My Nana!!! I’m calling my insurance company as I think I have to pay 20% of the dermatologist fees. I might not be able to go till November. The spot is small and hasn’t changed. I will get it removed as soon as possible. Well, I’m having a snack them I’m going to bed and rest these bones.

[lizbeth4]

Monica, Your job sounds very draining! My main career which lasted for 28 years involved working with people who did very little, called in sick a lot and weren’t team players. Everyone had to pick up their slack. Nothing much was done to them but they did get in trouble for the absences. It’s very disheartening. How much time do you have left there? I must say the main thing I like about my job is that I only rely on myself. Sorry you had to give up your writing class. We only have so much energy. When this job is over you will find something with a better environment. Take care.

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