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I chose happiness!

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Stopped by my Mothers house. She’s already bringing up Thanksgiving-November. My Nephew and his family want to come up. My Sister, oldest Nephew don’t talk to my oldest Daughter. From where I sit, they all were at fault. My oven is dead. I need to either get it fix or get a new one so I can just have dinner for my kids and grandkids. I’m so sick of the B.S. I’m glad I don’t drink. I’d be hitting the bottle. Not much money to access, so no gambling. Sick of this.

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One day at a time! From my experience, this site has helped me the most. Find something that’s works for your recovery, GA meetings, counseling, the groups that are offered here. We can’t do it alone. Stay strong. Keep posting!

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Wow! Our small town is bustling. I had to do a few errands. My town is the place to get gas, food, for the campers and outdoors people. We aren’t too far from the city and the gateway for camping, fishing, hiking trails, hunting ect….The traffic has really became worse the last 2 years. I try to take back roads and stay out of the main part of town during the busy season. In fact my oldest Daughter and her boyfriend ate on their way up to drop off the mortgage and go camping further north of me. The are real outdoorsy people. I couldn’t sleep last night and the pills I have from the doctor aren’t working for me. I’m experiencing many of the side effects. I have both banks tonight. I’m kinda blah today. Can’t tell you why. Feeling a bit down but I will survive.

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Try not to let the man at work get you down! He is rude! Why are there so many rude people in this world? He knows that you’ve got his number and how he really is! He’s just deflecting his short comings onto you. Disgusting man!!! Also, I say follow your heart with Pete. My Husband and I were together for 31 years, second marragues for both. We separated and were divorced for 5 years. We stayed friends and remarried. We stayed that way till his death. People didn’t understand why we would remarry. I’d get unwanted comments all the time. In fact, I was engaged during our separation but called it off as I knew that I still loved my ex. He was my soulmate and we were always pulled towards each other. Your heart knows!! Your GA friend sounds great. It’s good to have support. Hope your weekend is great! Take care.

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I was approved for the loan. I will have the money tomorrow. I will pay the remaining months bills and have a little left to get me through the month. I plan on cleaning the house today and going to the library before work this even ing. Saturday before work I’m going to a lavender farm in a nearby town. I
They have different products that they sell. It’s a beautiful drive and I’m curious about the place. It’s lightly raining here. I’m really striving for a more complete life. Free of gambling.

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Thanks Laura for your post and support! I hope you get your meds in sync. Take care.

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Thanks Kin for your support! Keep moving forward!

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Thanks Laura! I am relearning how to process conflict and my emotions. I think I’ve made progress. I try to be a good role model for my children and Grandchildren. You are right about protecting myself from my Mother. I do limit my time with her and more so if she’s being nasty. Now that I’m working, taking care of my house and yard, I really do have limited time. I’m going to be going to a lot of craft fairs as small towns love those. I’m picking up my youngest Daughter and Granddaughter on Sunday and they are staying 2 days with me for a visit. So excited! I think I have my money or lack of situation figured out. I’ve applied for a small loan and will know if I’m approved tomorrow. I just paid one off but my gambling put me back in this sad situation. I can’t gamble ever again if I want to see progress and be able to fulfil my dreams of traveling. My oldest Daughter will turn 40 next month. I’m making her some cool earrings. As soon as I can get a bigger selection of earrings made, maybe I can sell them. Everything is in my hands. I have to make the right choices.

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I just can’t get going today! I am feeling a bit defeated. I know what I should do, STOP GAMBLING, PAY BILLS! I haven’t gambled and don’t have money to. I always have the best intentions but then I don’t follow through. I remember when my girls were little and money was tight. We would go to the park for hours. Playing on the playground and having picnics. In fact, those are some of the best memories! I wish I could go back to the simple times!

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So, I’m going to get garnished by the IRS! I was late twice (1 day) with my payments and now I have a missed payment. I owe,about $3500. From everything I’ve read, they can garnish only 15% of my prnsion/social security. Honestly, my credit is already shot and with a garnishment it will be paid off sooner than the payment plan. That’s the results of gambling away bill money. I’ll survive! I had the worse night at Work! First ban, part of the rubber mat by the entrance of the door, fell apart when I vacuumed it. Second bank, I accidentally dumped over the rolling bucket of water for mopping in the hallway. It took for ever to clean it up! I took a picture of the mat and sent it to my boss. He said not to worry about it. Really tired. Going to bed.

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Thanks for your post! I know that my kids and Grandson would be devastated if I was to commit suicide! Honestly, that’s what has stopped me. I could care less if I even find a guy. Let alone a rich one!!!! My heart belongs to my late Husband and always will. Monica, I keep forgiving my Mother
Shes almost 81 years old and i see the decline in her health. I do forgive her because I know she will be gone one of these days. I want no regrets. Right now, I’m broke because of my gambling and can’t pay all of my bills this month. Although they can’t garnish my pension, I’m not sure about my social security offset I get because of being a federal government employee. At this point, garnish me and get your money. I will survive. What gets me is that I do this to myself, then I worry and fret. I’m tired of it all!!!! No gambling!!! That’s the only way that I will live a normal life.

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I was told that everyday gets better!! And the more gambling time we,have behind us, the journey gets easier. You’re not alone! Please keep posting! Just make it through the day. Tomorrow will be easier.

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Thanks Kin for your post and support! I really need it now! After work tonight, I stopped by the grocery store and bought a lot of junk food! LOL! Better than gambling.

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Thanks Kin for your post and support! I’m sorry that you gambled. I need to do GA meetings more regularly also. We can do this!

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