[lizbeth4]

I reread my post! I have the answer: if people are hurtful, negative or make you feel sad then you shouldn’t be around them. Regardless if they are family!

[lizbeth4]

Self care is a must for us CGs. Unfortunately we let that go by the wayside. HELP! I NEED ADVICE FROM YOU WISE PEOPLE!!! I’ve always been very super sensitive and take everything to heart. I’d rather walk away from a situation or person than be confrontational. I think this has lead to many gambling episodes and becoming a target for family members. It’s also lead to low self esteem. My Sister has behaved badly the last 2 visits. Between my Mother and her , I have had enough. My job was the target her last visit. I was made FUN of being a cleaner. She was so mean and rude to a waitress when we went out to eat that I cringed. She reminds me of my Mother. Hot tempered and rude and mean. My question is, other than not being around them, How do I tune out the crap? Or should I? Other things are happening that concern the holidays that are aimed at not including my children, grandchildren and myself. Very hurtful!!! I’m not able to go to my counselor once a week because of my job. ANY ADVICE WOULD BE APPRECIATED! I’M SCARED THAT I WILL BECOME OVERWHELMED WITH ALL OF THIS NEGATIVITY AND WILL WANT TO GAMBLE! Thanks!

[lizbeth4]

I’ve been off all day. I’ve had a slight headache I can’t get rid of. I didn’t get,much accomplished. Going to work soon. Tomorrow I’m planning on cleaning up the front yard. The leaves are falling from the trees. No gambling thoughts or urges.

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your post. I didn’t sleep much last night????? I watched the movie “The Zookeepers Wife.’ Very good. About the holocost. This morning I gathered more baby winter clothing to donate to the Granddaughter of a woman who lives in my town. She’s 6 months younger than my Granddaughter. I will be able to keep handing down clothing. My Daughter found a new job closer to where she lives and more dependable transportation from a friend. The rain here was horrid last night. I bundled up warmly for work. Nick, my prize is going to be debt free. That’s my plan. Although there are going to be bumps in the road ahead, I can do it!! Gambling will never be the answer.

[lizbeth4]

UGH! That’s what happens when you sleep in! Watching movies. Work went well. I’m getting into a routine. I trained for 2,days and was handed the keys to buildings and alarm codes. Basically figuring it all out and trying to be efficient plus getting the work done in the alloted time frame. This is all new to me. I’ve never done this type of work. No complaints plus my last mystery inspection was a success. Any issues, I have to text my boss as he is 2 hours away. I’ve been able to trouble shoot and figure out answers to my questions myself. Started a list of needed supplies as I email them and supplies are sent to me. The only personal issue is when it’s cold and rainy and I don’t want to venture out at night. LOL! It’s providing the extra money to pay for my basics so other money can be put towards debt. I’ve figured out that 3 years from now I will be credit card, IRS, auto loan and personal loans free!!! I’m plugging away but remembering to treat myself once in a while. When I deprive myself the gambling urges begin. ???? It could be a special meal, jewelry making materials, book. Something small. Well, enough rambling. Good night.

[lizbeth4]

You can do it! I stopped 7 years ago because of health reasons. My Mom and Sister have stopped. I truly don’t miss it! I tried patches, gum, being hypnotized. Cold Turkey worked for me. Wow, what are you going to do with all of the money??? Take care.

[lizbeth4]

You can do it! I stopped 7 years ago because of health reasons. My Mom and Sister have stopped. I truly don’t miss it! I tried patches, gum, being hypnotized. Cold Turkey worked for me. Wow, what are you going to do with all of the money??? Take care.

[lizbeth4]

I slept in and caught up on my sleep. Did some laundry and housework. It’s a rainy day. Nice! Miss my Granddaughter. My Daughter said she was looking out of the window asking for me. I had a dream/nightmare about the casino. All of the familiar sad faces. People acting !!! How many were losing everything? How many were running from their problems? And every time it was the same sad faces, just a different day. And the casinos offering free play and free gifts! Nothing is for free. I’m grateful I’m not experiencing that anymore.

[lizbeth4]

Sorry to hear that you gambled! Just a lapse. You are back and posting. Stay strong.

[lizbeth4]

I’m home from taking my Granddaughter home. I just lost a long post I wrote. Very tired. Going to work in 1 hour. It’s a busy night with both banks. My Granddaughter was a joy. She was very restless last night so I didn’t get much sleep. I will make up for it tonight. I pass 2 casinos there and back but I’ve banned myself from both of them and I haven’t had any gambling thoughts or urges lately. My pay was a surprise. They are paying me $1 more a hour. I have it direct deposited to a debit card and I use it for gas and groceries . I just leave what’s left over on it and it accumulates. Going to my friend’s house this weekend after work for a visit. About 1 hour one way from here. It will be good to see her and catch up.

[lizbeth4]

Grabbed a quick shower while my Granddaughter is sleeping. We are trying to break her from the bottle. It’s been hard at night but making progress. Today we took a walk (stroller) down to Great Grandmother’s for a visit, then we went to the pond by my house to look at the geese. The ducks have already left for the winter. We came home and picked tomatoes. She loves doing that. She had a bath and played in the water for awhile. She’s smart and funny! Tomorrow I’m taking her home when Mommy gets off of work. I’ve really enjoyed spending time with her. She loves hugs and kisses. No gambling thoughts or urges. I’m going to catch up with everyone in the next few days. I’m working tomorrow night when I get back from the city.

[lizbeth4]

Getting out of my funk. Waiting for 2pm so I can go to work. Happy anticipation to spend time with my Granddaughter. This morning I was thinking of some of the happiest times of my life. They didn’t involve money. Mostly they were times with my children and Grandchildren. Playing in the park and having picnics, swimming and barbecuing, watching movies . Family times!!! Just being together. It puts things into perspective.

[lizbeth4]

Don’t know why? Doing some laundry, stopping by the library, working, then going to get my Granddaughter. No gambling thoughts or urges. Just a little sadness.

[lizbeth4]

Please don’t give up on yourself. Have you put up barriers to make it harder to gamble? Are you using resources to help in your recovery? Most of us gamble because something is missing in our lives or we don’t have the coping skills to work through the the stressors of life. You can regain your life. Life is good! Keep posting!!! Stay strong!

[lizbeth4]

I’m still in my PJ’S. It’s going to be a lazy day. I clean both banks tonight. Saturday, I’m picking up my Granddaughter after work in the city. So my weekend will be fun and spent playing. My Grandson called last night. He is doing well and getting used,to the new middle school he attends. He’s so grown up and asks me how I am and how my job is. He loves his Nana. He always makes my day. No gambling thoughts or urges.

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