[lizbeth4]

Congrats on being cigarette free. It’s not easy. I’m sorry to hear about your Aunt. I lost my last Aunt last year. No Aunts or Uncles remaining. Thanks for your post on my thread. Both of my Daughters and Grandchildren were with me and it was awesome. I’m with you on Christmas. I’m ordering the Grandkids presents in a week, payday. I think that will relieve some of the stress related to the holidays. Everyone else is receiving homemade gifts, jewelry! Thanks for your support. I hope you have a good week.

[lizbeth4]

My Daughters and Grandchildren left for the city. My oldest was able to give her Sister and Neice a ride home. I was able to give my youngest the money I would have spent taking her home. I have gas on my car, food and all my bills are paid. 7 days till payday. Thanks to not gambling I am in a better financial position. Little steps! Today we all just watched Disney movies, ate and talked. It was a good day! I don’t know if it because I’m getting older but I seem to weather the blips that happen such as the Thanksgiving incident and yesterday’s dinner fiasco. It all worked out. Not the way it was planned but that’s ok. I-did-it, my trip will be by car. I’m rethinking that I will go in the spring instead of summer as it may be easier to find hotels on the way and less crowded. I’m going to plan out the trip but do other stops if something catches my interest. I’m making categories such as, hotel fund, gas, food, entrance fees, ect… I’m saving that way! Of course I will have a emergency fund in case of car problems. I may need new tires beforehand. I have my car serviced regularly. Going to work in a few hours. I’m a little tired. Last night after the tree lighting and other activities, I had both banks to clean. I didn’t get home till midnight. Maybe I can get a little nap in!

[lizbeth4]

I can relate to moving things as my Granddaughter is a meddler and climber. Lol! The Christmas tree lighting was awesomer. My Granddaughter didn’t get pics with Mr and Mrs Clause as the line was very, very long! Thanksgiving and today didn’t go as planned. Let’s just say that some people consumed too much alcohol! I just went with the flow. Amazingly, it didn’t trigger my gambling urges! The last 2 days have been stressful! My youngest Daughter is without work again. She is relying on her,friends and the church to take care of her and my Granddaughter. I’m concerned and worried. She’s being picky in her job choices when she should be taking anything job to bring in some money. She’s trying to hatch up a scheme with a friend to make money, it’s legal but I can see it not working. I don’t mind helping her a little but I’m in no position to financially support her. I don’t get it. Kathryn, I can’t wait till my 2020 road trip! It will probably be in the summer months. Everyone thinks I’m crazy to be traveling alone. No one is going to burst my bubble! I’m going to start my planning after the holidays. It’s mostly going to be National parks. I may have to downsize to a 30 day trip as it’s going to be costly. I’m so excited. Gambling can’t be a part of my life!

[lizbeth4]

Welcome to GT! Can you give the finances and bill paying over to your Husband? I know it’s hard to give up that control but would be better so you can get your finances straighten out. Maybe GA or the chat groups here would be beneficial also. Our minds keep telling us to chase the win. But we always keep losing. We never walk away with our wins. Keep posting! Stay strong!

[lizbeth4]

Finished helping my Mom with peeling potatoes and making deviled eggs for tomorrow. I will be up early to travel to the city to get my youngest Daughter and Granddaughter. Then my oldest Daughter and Grandson will be here on Friday! Friday night is the town’s Christmas tree lighting and we will see Mr and Mrs Clause. Fun! I’m feeling blessed to have them all together with me! I have a lot to be grateful for. Sometimes I lose sight of that. I was paid today from my part time job, 22 hours. I payed my car payment, filled my gas tank and purchased some grocieres and have some left over. I seem to relapse when I’m close to making a financial break through. Not this time!!!! I will have all 3 loans paid off by next September, my car and 1 large credit card debt! $1200 a month paid off!!!! That can go into savings for a emergency fund and towards my road trip in 2020. No self sabotaging! I’m worth a happy gamble free life!!! 🙂

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your support. No raking since the wind has kicked up! Yes, I need to keep the holidays in sight. I’ve been able to keep the urges at bay. Trying to keep the big picture in view
If I gamble, I will have to take out a high interest loan to make up for my losses. Right now i have 3 of those because of my gambling relapses. The last one will be paid off next September. It takes a big chunk of my money but is a reminder of what i don’t want to repeat. Today, I made progress with one of the companies whom wouldn t get on my debt repayment plan. I can’t mess up my set up payments with them. It will be paid off in June. THE BIG PICTURE : To be debt ftee!!! Wednesday is my payday from my part time job. Enough to make my car payment. Eight payments left! Some left over for gas to go to and from the city to get my Daughter and Granddaughter. I CAN’T MESS UP ANYMORE! THIS IS IT!

[lizbeth4]

Trying to get motivated. I’ve had thoughts of gambling. Payday is a few days away. I keep thinking of the consequences. Not paying bills, bring broke and the holidays are approaching. I will keep thinking of the end results. I’m making earrings for my Daughters and Sister for Christmas. Getting ready to rake the front yard. Life is good!

[lizbeth4]

I’m happy that you didn’t gamble. I’ve had thoughts also but keep thinking about the consequences, being low on funds! Have a great day!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Made it through work. Monday and Fridays are my hardest days. Didn’t sleep much last night as I kept a watch over my Mom. I think it was a stomach bug! The stove will be completely repaired tomorrow afternoon. Yeah! I’m feeling a bit low as this month and next my finances will be tight! But my bills will be paid. No money for extras. I need to stay my course as hard as it may be. Financial responsibility is part of my recovery also .
Christmas presents will be bought only for the Grandkids again. Somehow I’ve lost 10 lbs! Maybe it’s because I’ve been so busy. Another 15 lbs would be awesome. LOL. Had some gambling thoughts this evening but I know I can’t GAMBLE!

[lizbeth4]

My oldest Daughter is having Christmas dinner at her house this year. Actually 2 days before Christmas and on my day off of work. Very exciting! I spent the night with my Mom as she wasn’t feeling well. Today she is much better. I’ve come home to take a shower and do a few things before work. No gambling thoughts or urges today.

[lizbeth4]

My oldest Daughter just called and she, my Grandson and her boyfriend will be coming the day after Thanksgiving. She will cook dinner for us and they are spending the night. It’s not often that I have both of my Daughters and Grandchildren at my house at the same time. HAPPINESS!

[lizbeth4]

Regrets: Yes, I have some caused by my gambling addiction. My biggest being that I can’t help my youngest Daughter and Granddaughter as much as i would like to. Guilt, yes I feel guilty about it. Answers: I can’t change the past only the future. I can only do what I can do. This doesn’t only pertain to money. I can help in other ways. Understanding what this addiction has cost me, monetarily, spiritually, physically, helps me to not gamble.

[lizbeth4]

You’ve come a long way since a year ago! Your persistence has really inspired me! There will always be obstacles in our way but you’ve taught me that if we have faith we can face anything. Thanks.

[lizbeth4]

I’m getting unexpected visitors. My Grandson and ex son in law! A good surprise!!! I think I get too caught up in my little life. You know, the daily routines. I’ll be glad to see both of them. I went to the library and found some Marvel movies that my Grandson likes and we can watch together. Maybe we’ll play some games. No gambling thoughts or urges!

[lizbeth4]

I just finished work! I spent 4 hours today doing yard work. Tomorrow will be the same. For some reason, I’m feeling lonely. Most of the time I like being alone. Well, Thanksgiving is next week so there will be family visiting and cooking to do. Then I’ll want to be alone again. LOL! No gambling thoughts or urges.

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