[lizbeth4]

Keep going. It will be okay. Don’t give in!!

[lizbeth4]

How scary for your Granddaughter! That really upsets me that no one intervened. This world is scary. I hope she will realize that the other girl is the one with low self esteem. Normal people don’t behave that way!!! I understand your Son’s reaction. It’s hard to see our children suffer. I will be thinkimg of your Granddaughter. Take care!

[lizbeth4]

I deposited the check into my savings! Yeah! I stopped by my Mom’s to check on her. She still drives and functions on her own. I had to limit my time with her to 2 times per week. That’s all I can handle. The NEGATIVITY is so depressing. The jabs and putting me down, I wouldnt tolerate from anyone else. I guess out of a feeling of obligation I check on her. How sad is that? The good news is that I no longer feel any guilt over it. She used to be a big trigger for me. But no more! The lesson I’ve learned from her is that I don’t want to be like that!  Life is what we make it!

[lizbeth4]

Happy birthday to your Son. I can relate to your post. I never knew if and when my youngest Daughter would show up for birthdays, holidays. Thank goodness that has changed. But i remember the frustration and worries. I hope he gets in touch with you. We both know that gambling won’t change or help matters. Im putting up my tree this weekend. Finally figured a place for it (not the usual) so maybe my little Granddaughter has room to play! Have a good day Vera!!!!

[lizbeth4]

I slept well. I woke feeling good that i hadnt gambled. I dreamed last night about my big trip! I was hiking a canyon in Utah. Oh my, it was so beautiful and serene! I was looking around with tears of joy. These are the feeling that i want to experience. Not the feelings of despair and the gambling hangover. I want to be at peace with myself. To the bank when it opens to deposit the check. The start of my trip fund!!

[lizbeth4]

Just finished work. Today is one of my easier days. I finally picked up my mail. Mostly ads but I had a surprise. I had overpaid a bill and there was a refund check. Not big but could buy a lot of beads and other jewelry making materials. First thought was that I could gamble. I even got as far as changing my clothes and putting on make up. I stood in front of the mirror looking at myself. How sad I thought! NO! This is not going to happen!!! How can I reach my goals? I put my PJ’s on and washed my face. Watching a movie. Also, I’ve recieved many pre approved credit card offers. No interest for a period of time then high interest rates. I have tore them all up and opted to be off of their mailing lists. I am proud of myself. I’ve been able to think things through and not act impulsively. The check goes into my savings account tomorrow.

[lizbeth4]

Good to see your post. I think everyone hates the dentist! LOL! Good on being smoke free. It’s very hard to do. I couldnt believe the price of cigarettes the last time I  looked. Amazing how much they have gone up since i stopped smoking. You are a very busy lady. Isn’t it awesome how we can afford trips and things when we aren’t gambling? Well, have a good day. You deserve it!

[lizbeth4]

I slept a little better. I think I was exhausted. Today more yard work in the back yard. Rain and some snow is predicted for the next few days. That would be a good time to work on my jewelry gifts for Chrtistmas. I can’t wait for payday so I can buy a few jewerly supplies. I have a few cool ideas for my Daughters gifts. My stove is officially fixed. Time to make some Christmas breads. Nothing can beat the smell of fresh bread baking. I’ve had no gambling thoughts. I’ve been thinking and planning my veggie garden for next year and contemplating of making peach and apple jams from my trees. Really thinking of my big road trip. It will take a lot of planning. I have many things to fill my days. Gambling cant be a part of it. Life can be good!

[lizbeth4]

Glad that you had a good vacation and didn’t gamble. Temptation is all around us. We choose whether we gamble or not. Barriers-like not carrying money helps us fight this addiction. Happy that the storm intervened! Take care.

[lizbeth4]

Still having sleeping issues. My prescription is the lowest dose and it’s too much for me even when I cut it in half. I don’t like the foggy feeling the next day. I’ve used tea tree  oil on both small spots on my face and arm and they have disappeared. I think I’m a lot like my Grandmother. She always tried alternative medicine. The stove guy will be here this afternoon to replace the burner on my stove and it will be completely repaired! I have more yard work planned for today. Gambling hasn’t crossed my mind. It can’t be in the picture if I’m going to achieve my goals and dreams.

[lizbeth4]

Happy birthday! I hope your day is full of wonderful things. You deserve it!!!

[lizbeth4]

I’ve been busy running errands. Making egg salad and waiting for it to warm up a little more before doing yard work. Thursday rain and light snow showers are expected. Miss my girls and Grandkids. But before you know it Christmas will be here! Thinking of putting up the Christmas tree this weekend. No gambling thoughts!

[lizbeth4]

Yes, self care. I’m getting better with that. I do rest and I’m still trying to improve my sleep. I’m looking forward to payday as I’m purchasing a few jewerly making supplies. I’m making a few Christmas gifts. The only ones I’m buying is for my Grandchildren. I’m going to rake the front yard when it warms up a bit. The house is very quiet with everyone gone. Back to my life, working, taking care of my house, but taking time for myself also. Life is good. No room for gambling!

[lizbeth4]

Thanks for your post on my thread! My 2020 trip is going to be a car trip. I’ve decided to save money by categories: hotel, gas, food, entrance fees, ect! It’s going to be quite the adventure! There are a lot of things I would like to do to my home to update it. It’s ongoing process. I’m happy that your blocker and barriers are working for you! Being gamble free =more money, being present for the people in your life! It makes life better!

[lizbeth4]

For myself, I’ve found it difficult to have my Daughters living with me as adults. I would do it if necessary though. I hope it all works out with your Son living with you. Maybe I’m just too set in my ways! LOL! I know you feel a duty with your current job but would you be happier with the new job offer? Decisions. Have a good day! Take care.

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