[lizbeth4]

Jen, thank you again for your encouragement. It means a lot. The Sunday chat really helped and it’s my 1 day off work and at a good time also. I’ve decided to try and find a positive in everyday, even if it’s a bad day. We can do this! I hope you have a great day!

[lizbeth4]

It’s going to be okay as long as you don’t gamble again. Are the default notices on your house? If so, call the mortgage company. You may have to tell a little fib as to why you are late. There are different options that can help you. When I started my DMP, they pulled a credit check on me also. I couldn’t even tell you all the cards I had. $24,000! I have 15 more months and then they wiill be paid. Can you sell anything to make some cash to pay bills? You will get through this. You’ve taken the first positive steps!!! Be proud that you’ve done that. It isn’t easy and stopping smoking on top of that. I’m a ex smoker. Take care. Try to find something positive about today! Thinking of you!

[lizbeth4]

Woke with a sore throat and headache. It’s because of stress. I’ve paid my delinquent property tax bill and now I’m working on the current one (next month). House insurance is due after that. I may have to buy 2 tires at a time. I can only do what I can do. I knew the first 4 months of this year would be hard. Because of poor planning and gambling slips. I have to keep going. No gambling!

[lizbeth4]

I deposited my paycheck into my bank account. All of it! I replaced the o ring in my oil cap and I no longer smell oil. I think that was the problem. I am still de-cluttering my closets. I sold 3 items today and someone is coming for 3 items tommorow. Money for gas and miscellaneous groceries. I’ve never received a item I asked my boss for 3 weeks ago. I’m going to the home improvement store tomorrow and getting one. I will email the recipient to him for reimbursement. No gambling thoughts today.

[lizbeth4]

We do all deserve a gamble free life, free of the insanity. We can do this!

[lizbeth4]

It was nice chatting. I will fo it again! I do feel better. My problems are still there but I realuze that gambling isn’t going to help. I must remain calm and keep trudging along. Things will get better with time.

[lizbeth4]

It has been a long time since I was in chat. It helped me connect with everyone and my spirits are better. The tires have to wait till March. My Grandsons 13th birthday is in 2 weeks. Between the tires and work, I may not be able to attend. Bummer. But he knows that Grandma loves him. I’ve never been good with credit cards and finances. Not having credit cards makes it hard sometimes when you need things but I’m better off without them. I just was paid. Checked my account. Vague thoughts of gambling entered my head but I can’t!!!

[lizbeth4]

I was just on chat. Thanks everyone. I feel more hopeful. Tomorrow is a new day.

[lizbeth4]

Ok. Thanks. It was 1pm here. So, I’m 1 hour behind you. I will check ar 5pm and see if I can get in! Have fun walking your dog.

[lizbeth4]

Jen, Great advice. My Amazon account is in my debt consolidation program and has been closed. I just applied online for the Overstock card and was turned down. Not surprised! That’s what happens when you gamble. Everything goes to hell.

[lizbeth4]

Jen, Is the next group at 9pm our time?

[lizbeth4]

I have bad,credit so no chance of financing. Also, no one to help me. I has seen that tires are a lot cheeper online. I’m having another car issue and my warranty has expired. I troubleshooted it on you tube. It could be 5 different things. 2 of which are easy fixes. I can do. I’m going to check it out tommorow. I found a retired certified mechanic with over 30 years experience. I will use him if necessary when I have the money. I’m going to see the chat times and if I can get in!

[lizbeth4]

Jen, I do live in the U.S. Any ideas would be appreciated. I live in a small rural community. No public transit, no recovery groups, no counseling services. I have to travel to the city, approximately 1 hour 45 minutes one way from my house. Nut we have a casino, which I have banned myself from. We only jave a casino as there is a indian reservation here. That was the beginning of a lot of the addiction issues in the U.S.

[lizbeth4]

I’m scared and wary as I get paid tomorrow from my cleaning job. I can’t use the money for car repairs as it is slated for automatic payments for bills. Gambling has been present in my head. Why does it keep telling me that I can win and have plenty of money? We know that is a lie. I’m battling my demons today!!!!

[lizbeth4]

Yes, I don’t have contol of many things in my life. It’s just that I feel overwhelmed and hopeless right now. I will get through this. Today I choose to stay in my PJ’S and vegg. Tomorrow will be here soon enough. I will deal with what I can change then. Hopefully in time I will forgive myself. Today I’m just full of overwhelming thoughts. Can’t think straight.

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